Group therapy is good thing.
I know, that I told you this before: An alcoholic on oneās own is always in bad company.
And I will never get tired of writing this.
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Big hugs 
Im glad you took a mental health day at work. I had to take one too recently. Really hope ur day improves lady.
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Iām sorry youāre having a hard day 
i hope it gets better. Check in/message me if you wanna talk. 
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Thank you so much.
Ice bathing my feetā¦
Taking a walk maybeā¦
A napā¦
But to be honest, if itās a cravingā¦
Sit, wait, breath and if itās possible ask myself what is realy going on or what it needs now.
And let myself tell meā¦
Sometimes itās a nap, a swim, wamth, a call,ā¦
Being creative, like cooking.
Social interactionā¦ Donāt know. 
Yes.
Of cause I also need some.
Also for inspiration.
But most of the time it is stressful to meā¦
And I had a lot of situation where i coped this social stress with a drink.
I also have lite dissociation in contact with people sometimesā¦
Apart from they are familiar people I trust.
But, I will sit there tonight in the group and breath and stay connected with my body 
@Planipennia
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Day 108
What a day 
Finally on my way home, the train is packed again but not as awful like this morning.
Last night I woke up at 3 am because I had a drinking dream. I had a beer In the dream I felt bad, was disappointed in me for being weak again.
You have no idea how glad I was that it was only a dream!
Yeah, Iām still sober and going strong 
No idea what to eat when Iām home, going to stroll through some grocery stores when Iām off the train.
Have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong 
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Indeed. I actually coach on this in my Health & Wellness practice.
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@chey.o belated congrats on 6 months 
@Cjp sending strength 
@Sabrina80 sorry about the dream, glad it was just that though
890 days no alcohol.
355 days no cocaine.
5 days no binge-eating.
Iāve been on the cat people thread, so Iām afraid I ran out of likes before I even came to this thread today, hereās some: 
I slept for only 90mins last night, so I feel awful. I have been trying to nap but havenāt been able to. There was no energy for a walk, sadly, even though I wanted to go. I did end up walking after my check-in last night, though, so that was something.
Iām hoping to sleep properly tonight 
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Checking in day 135! Got up and went to the gym, and had a great session with a client. I have a full day of clients for my part time job, then going to get to the store (I love being able to do things in the evening instead of just drinking at home). Going to try to find a new show to binge too.
Have a great sober Tuesday!!
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I donāt like this post.
I am bored of it.
Group will start in 15 minutes.
Interesting initial position.
I hate it right now.
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Day 318
Still sober. Lost my phone friday eve and thank god i found it monday. What a rotten weekend. I did seriously consider drinking or purchasing weed (its only $5 for this wine!) but could not bring myself to follow through and bought a lot of boxed mac n cheese instead.
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Thank you for the hugs and well wishes. I love this crew. I napped through my uncomfort and tears. Just ate some lunch and im feeling 50% better. It sucks having these off days but i just need to hold on to the thought that its temporary. Its such a dichotomy to be such a positive personality and have major depression. My mental health has improved immensely since getting sober so even this low is 1000x better sober than if i was drinking.
Thank you for your love and support.
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Im so glad ur feeling slightly better. It is true that it will pass 
and u knew that and stuck thru and gave urself what u needed in the moment that was healthy. Proud of you
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Hey CJ
Coming up on 9 months?
Little depression? Maybe a lot of depression? All of a sudden? I remember that shit. Fucking sucked! Hit me out of no where. I just couldnāt do anything. No motivation. Nothing. Could be your nine month milestone. Iām a firm believer in milestone malady. It hit me hard a few times. Even when I knew it was coming. I just had to feel the depression for a few days.
Iām glad you called in sic. Iām glad youāre reaching out here. As long as I was taking care of the pets and my head was hitting the pillow sober. I consider it a successful day.
We got your back.
Keep reaching out when you can.
And thereās always Boscoe.
big hugs my gratidude friend
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Hey, it is an open topic group therapy
for mental disease.
Honestly?
Annoyingā¦
But I managed not to take the exit to the grocery on my way back home.
Cause I learned and reflected about the further meaning of āi donāt have controlā these days. Remembering this, made me continue driving straight on the road instead of taking this exit to hell. Thatās what I had control of in this moment.
Safe home, I made a little late dinner and thoughtā¦
Oh girlā¦ You could have other problems then you have! You have depressive episodes and strugel with several addictions. Yes. There it is.
But you also have enoughā¦
And you have possibility.
Work on your way, selflove and personal growth. And if you are not okay, just breath and relax.
Itās good to write it down here to have a reminder tomorrow. Thanks for asking.
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Left it late. 8 days down.
Time for bed.
Have a good one all.
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Ending day 4. I have a lot to learn
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Checking in day 32. Two long days at work. Feel a little beat up. Just gonna go early and sleep it off. Have a great night guys
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Today has been a lot. On the plus side, I made it to double digits. The treatment team at the IOP think I need a higher level of care. It would still be outpatient but would be all day. Iād have to take at least two weeks completely off work. Unpaid. I think Iāve made the decision to do that.
And now my friend is going through his own personal crisis and itās stressing me out. I came really close to getting something to drink because my anxiety was so bad. But I didnāt. Trying to be supportive without taking on too much stress. But itās a struggle.
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Checking in
Day 338 substance free
Day 5 binge free
Was in serious panic mode just now. I went to pick up my son from the school bus at 315pm. Only to find that his feeding pump backpack wasnt with him! He needs this machine to regulate how fast his formula is given to him so i absolutely need it home. Thank God for being on the ball today and acting quickly before the school closed. I called his teacher right away and she managed to get someone to come bring it to us. But before his teacher got back to me about the plan, i was feeling panicked. My son literally said to me, " it will be okay mom. Sit down and take deep breaths". Oh my boy. Ive been teaching him to deep breathe when upset and use his words when he is upset instead of acting out. And here he is reminding me of what im teaching him lol hes an amazing boy! Anyway we got his medical equipment now and all is well. Im still trying to relax after that. Waiting for hubby to get home for us to have supper. Definitly going to be doing some self care tonight. I need a good rest.
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