Well damn I guess I’m not the only one in a funk of emotion. Sorry @Cjp you’re feeling down I hope you feel better soon glad you’re staying sober. @Juli1 you reminded me of what someone told me in a meeting once "when you feel like everythings shit there’s 5 things to remind yourself that whatever’s going on life is still ok. 1. You’re alive 2. You’re sober 3. You have clothes on you’re back 4. You have a roof over you’re head 5. And enough food for TODAY…I’m currently practicing this haha.
I’m currently on my way to the Air BnB house were staying at. Im exhausted as all hell but at least the days over today. I sent a letter style text to my ex’s mom who has legal guardianship of my 2 year old son. I pretty much said how I’m changing my life around and the intentions I have on getting to know my so in the future. After I sent it of course I didn’t get the answer I wanted but I gotta remember it’s all baby steps to be in his life (Also trying to recognize when my self centeredness is in play). So for the time being I will be texting her to see how his well being is every week or so.
One things for sure man managing feelings is a Fuckin Bitch honestly. Thankfully I haven’t hit one of those dark hole moments that’s hard to get out of. All I know these days when I’m feeling overwhelmed I have an urge to read literature from the fellowships, do some step work, or just take a nap. In the end I’m super grateful for my life today. I’m lucky my problems in this moment are things that I can work on to grow, instead of chasing a substance to change the way I feel and escape. In reality I only put my mind, & body through more pain towards the end of it. Hope everyone feels better soon and congrats to all the Milestones
Day 102. Fantasizing a lot today. Toxicity level 6. I think the best thing for me to do would be to open up and listen to my audio Bible while staying in prayer for the rest of the night.
Day 5, been doing good. Worked a 10 hour then went to school for another 3. I missed working out today but I plan on doing that tomorrow. Need to grab some Melatonin
If people put as much effort into working on their sobriety as they did seeking out drugs or alcohol while in active addiction attempts at recovery would be a lot more successful…
@Scorpn Congratulations on 100 days! @Juli1 Haven’t checked with you in a while, hope you’re okay. @Cjp Glad you’re feeling better. Super impressed you didn’t even think about booze. I’d love to reach that state. Even if I refrain from drinking, I can’t help thinking about it.
Day 23
I told myself this would be the year I do me, even if that’s selfish. It needs to get done. I tossed all the carbohydrates in the house except for some Jasmin rice for special occasions. I realized I need a food schedule just like a sleep schedule and other daily routines. Snacking out of boredom or for comfort food is part of my fatness. I even bought (God help meeeeee!!) an avocado. But they’re supposed to be good for you, so I’ll try to make it taste like food.
Other goals:
I’m going to get CompTIA+ certified in Networking and Cybersecurity.
I’m learning Ukrainian
I’ve figured out my own cryptocurrency that doesn’t use the resource wasting blockchain methodology. Don’t know how to launch it though.
Lofty goals? Yep. But it’s nothing that’s beyond my ability. I have this fantasy that when Ukraine begins to recover I can finally travel abroad and help people and work in my chosen field.
I love your goals!
Inspiring me to reflect my goals too…
May i ask in which field you are working? Or is it to personal? I am searching for other perspectives too, although I have a good job that I might go on and on and on with.
Mark I unfortunately had a lot of 1,2,3,0,1,0 stuff going on and that’s so annoying, that I said, I will restart checking in as soon as I have something like 5 days! So the sober twin thing didn’t work for us, but I follow you
Had to cancel recontacting a very toxic person again in between. That needed some effort.
As well as getting drama out of eating again.
That all came along again with alcohol.
Having office day today. Prepared some porridge in a thermo container for breakfast and will buy a salad with some protein topping for lunch.
Right now, I’m looking for anything that will pay the bills. I’ve been into computers forever (my first computer was an Apple //e if that tells you how old I am.) I gave up on a lot when college didn’t work out, but I’m going to get back into it.
Exactly the same here. Especially between Thanksgiving and Christmas that’s how I was.
No sweat; I can relapse and we’ll be back to good. (I’m kidding! )
I got some protein oatmeal and protein pancake mix for breakfast tomorrow. Hopefully healthier. I’ll try the egg!
#Day 1582
Yesterday I should have worked. But when I walked to it and enjoyed being outside in nature my boss called and offered me a day off because their wasn’t much work to do.
So I made my walk a longer one and got my groceries afterwards. Did some housechores and some reading. Did a walk in de night as well to see the stars
But they’re supposed to be good for you, so I’ll try to make it taste like food.
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