I know that you now it, but alcohol will just induce further depression. Start with this addiction to get more leverage on your other problems.
You endured it during your holidays: at first you’d drunk and then the rest of your packages came straight back. Focus on this one thing!
During detox all of the personnel said, that I should do just this only thing at the moment. Just don’t drink. And I thought they maybe had some mental issues on their own. But now, from the distance in time, I know they were right.
Day 236 and I’m not long back home after a lovely yoga class and a breakfast after with the teacher who is also my friend. On the way back I saw this poster
No? Didn’t sign the contract as the conditions didn’t fit in the end. 3 times last quarter 2022.
My current job is toxic but the conditions are very good.
Atm I don’t believe I can manage a new job at all. I have a lot of possibilities but I don’t believe in myself. I would like to study but I am not able to reduce my living standard that much.
I know drinking doesn’t make anything better. Right now I am not craving.
I am depressed and in this group therapy session yesterday i had to play a silly game like writing in a “Poesiealbum”… That made me just more aggressive and people talking minutes about their favorite color annoyed me to the moon and back!
@zzz really hope u begin to feel better with those antibiotics. Glad ur sober thru it all! @2JTravNZ big congratulations on 4 months!!! Alot of hard work went into getting here @meg2 congratulations on 1 week!! @soberwalker that picture is sooo beautiful! Glad u had time to walk around and have a day off @DryIn785 love ur post! Way to go on makong thoae food changes. I also have a foos routine. It honestly helps me soooo much with my eating and weight loss. I feel like i have so much more control when i have an eating and exercise routine. Avocado is soo good. I hope u like it. Its amaizng with eggs! I used to take slices of avocado on toast with an egg on it. Very yummy and it is good for u like u said. Love that u have set other goals for urself. Its really inspiring for me. I havent really thought of other goals for myself outside of financial ones or for my recovery and health. Something to think about lol @scorpn HUGE congratulations on triple digits my friend! Im beyond proud of you @soberguyusa i completely agree with you on ur statement. My god the lengths i would go to get high were absolutely disgusting When we put that same amount of effort into recovery, great things happen!
Morning Check In Day 339 substance free Day 6 binge free
Morning!! Didnt sleep the greatest last night again. Not sure why ive been having crazy intense dreams lately. Anyway, today i have very little planned. I have a workout planned for as soon as my son goes on the bus to school. Then ill have lunch and do some cleaning that i didnt have time to finish yesterday. Im thinking of a going for a walk (if its nice out) thru the park behind my building. Get my steps in Work on a hobby also. Thats basically it.
I was thinking yesterday about my recovery. I realized that i absolutely love NOT using drugs or drinking. Everytime i tried to seriously get clean from age 21 to 37, i always toyed with the idea that at some point ill have control and that at some point ill be able to manage my addiction. That thinking took me through too many years of suffering thats for sure. And yesterday, i felt completely okay with being powerless over drugs. I dont ever want to use drugs. It actually disgusts me. I dont ever want to even take the chance of seeing if i could control it, bcuz i know that i never, ever will be able to. And im fine with that. Life is sooo good with its up n downs. I never want to risk what i have for a temporary high that i end up chasing. Just some thoughts. It makes me feel good to see how my mentality has changed.
Hope everyone has an addiction free day!
I was a bit of a struggle last night ended up eating far too much candy… But I’ll take that over using any substance!!
It felt sooooo good to be clear minded. Even though I feel like I have to say I was using a super low dose of THC it’s still affects me and I want to be completely sober so I’m happy to be back working on a New Horizons for myself. It also makes me feel good to be there for other people and I missed not checking in regularly.
5 days and feeling so good in the morning. Some days are tough but i just come on here and read and respond and get through those nagging thoughts of drinking. Have a cup of tea and go to bed early. Plugging along one day at a time and thankful for my sobriety.
Checking in with 115 days sober!! I’ve been taking care of things that I have put off. Got my car smogged and 2023 tags. Met with my sponsor on Sunday and I have been going to all my Doctor’s appointments without cancelling them.
Happy to share.
My 300 was the worst!
By then I thought I had it under control. I knew it was coming right! It still hit me like a ton of bricks. Lately I’ve learned to change up my playlists.
Like most I listen to a lot of music. It’s a higher power for me. I’ve actually been in an Al-Anon rut this week. Stuck in my recovery playlist. I love that playlist. Yesterday I changed my playlist to some oldies. I mean 1960’s music that I haven’t listened to in forever. It’s really helping me a lot. And I think I’m out of my rut. I don’t always remember to do that soon enough.
Congrats on your almost 9 months. Keep up the hard work.
Day 109
Today I’m happy. Don’t know where that comes from all of a sudden, but its very welcome
I have a home, its warm, drinkable tap water, food, clothes, a job with coworkers who are also friends AND I’m sober.
I won
Have a beautiful sober day friends and stay strong
Really, I want to thank you! You have been here the whole time I have been on this journey and I couldn’t have made it this far without help from you and others here! You all are my lifeline
Checking in day 136! Went to the doctor today- first time in a long time. Everything looked good thankfully, now they’re just going to check some bloodwork. My weight is higher than it used to be (though still within normal range)… trying to remind myself some of that is muscle and not hyper focus on it. Otherwise, i got to the gym and I have a long work day ahead. Hope you all have a great day!
and it is good for u like u said. Love that u have set other goals for urself. Its really inspiring for me. I havent really thought of other goals for myself outside of financial ones or for my recovery and health. Something to think about lol
When we put that same amount of effort into recovery, great things happen!
Morning Check In 
