Good morning everyone. Checking in this morning before i go off to work. One day sober today and moving forward. Working a long day and then out for burgers with a friend. Hope everyone has a good sober day.
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280 days today…3rd time is a charm? I feel like I will be successful this time, My wife joined me on the journey last May. We constantly encourage each other and talk about it when it comes up. She says she has no desire to go back to drinking. I still do some days. Oh well…one day at a time.
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Got the place back to ourselves after having my parents stay for two nights. Such a relief 
And had a good birthday with no alcohol and no urges or feelings of missing out. It’s midterm break now so nothing much to do but relax.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
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Day 35. Woke up on the wrong side of bed today. I’m in a MOOD. I’m not even sure what’s wrong. So I’m sitting here with a cat and coffee trying to sort out my feelings and emotions. I don’t want to take this mood out on anyone else.
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Morning Check In
Day 363
Morning everyone! Had a pretty good rest last night and ready to tackle my work day. Thank you @Mno and @SoberWalker for ur feedback. I think what ur saying would be good for me. @Mno i tend to be very black n white in my thinking and so i have to remember that i can be “Grey” lol No need to have that all or nothing attitude 
I am feeling much more positive today overall. Will pray on the train. Will do my gratitude list on the gratitude thread (which id like to be more active on) and give thanks to my HP.
Hope you all have a wonderful addiction free day!
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TW! 
Eating Disorder
Checking in…
I think I need to? Im not sure so I will.
I have not seen my eating disorder therapist for a few weeks because she was changing positions and yesterday was supposed to have been our first appointment in a while. It didnt happen though, I showed but apparently I had missed a phone call to reschedule and she wasnt there.
During my time with her I managed to gain 7 pounds going from a scary underweight to a not so scary underweight. I was satisfied with that, but I was surprised to hear I wasnt in “remission”. Apparently remission isnt when you are eating “something” its when your disease is inactive, go figure. Through Dec and Jan I suffered terribly with stomach viruses and then a bout of food poisoning and ended up losing all the weight I had gained. I will be honest it was a little defeating and a lot frightening to see how quickly all the hard work I had done unraveled. It is easy for me to lose weight, its easy for me too just not eat, but to shop, prepare and eat healthy food is a feat. Recently I witnessed a member in our area waste away with cancer, it was only because she we a healthy woman she lasted as long as she did. My body could never fight like hers did, that scared me. Being in recovery has shone a whole new light on my life, I value myself greatly, I love myself greatly and I dont want to die anymore. I feel like I am living in this contradictory place between my heart and my mind with my eating disorder. Once I was over the food poisoning I started myself on a much more rapid weight gaining program, its working and I am mildly freaking out. I have also amped up my yoga from 3 days a week to 7, sometimes 8 which is typical of my sick behavior to “earn my calories”. I know that i just have to keep telling myself that I am safe,that theres nothing to be afraid of, so I will do that.
My body feels better when I eat.
My faces looks better when I eat.
My hair doesnt fall out when I eat.
I can think clearer when I eat.
God, take my will and my life guide me in my recovery, show me how to live. Just for today. 
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Hey pals, checking in on day 610. Holy moly so many great milestones! Congratulations @Misokatsu on 2.5 years! Amazing work. Congrats @Teresa.13 on 10 months and @chey.o on 7 months and @Hayleylujah on 8 months!
Sorry for your loss @anon53116147. Addiction is an awful beast.
Hope you feel better soon @CATMANCAM, @Scorpn and @Sabrina80.
Glad to hear you’re feeling better today @Butterflymoonwoman. Hope you continue to have a positive day.
Adorable puppy @Alycia!
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Day 256. Thank you guys for the support and condolences. It definitely triggered me a little bit for some reason, my emotions have been much better for the most part and I’ve been able to keep myself mentally in check. But last night was hard hearing that. I use to go riding with this guy like everyday four wheeling dirtbiking, hang out at his house with his kids, its just sad. Anyways things are good, just letting go of the things I can’t control, and changing the things I can. I found myself being salty because my mom’s house was destroyed and always is when I come home. But why do I get mad over it. It’s silly thinking, instead I picked it up with my girls, and just went on with my day. Helps my mom out too, bc honestly she deserves the world. Watching my two girls certainly isn’t easy for her. I just feel sad, coming home really makes me miss my girls but I also hate being here if that makes sense. Idk much love
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@Mno and @SoberWalker thanks for the well wishes. I am feeling better today. Back to normal, so I am trying to do some work and some household chores. So exciting! (Yawn) 
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Feeling super drained physically today. I asked someone to take my shift at work tomorrow. I never take off. But i don’t think i can do it. I’m learning to listen to my body. Odaat.
Hope y’all are all having a good day
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@Teresa.13 congrats on 10 months 
@Scorpn I hope you’ve felt a bit better today 
congrats on 40 days SH free
@chey.o sorry for the terrible day 
but congrats on 7 months
@anon53116147 so sorry for your loss 
@SadMemeQueen good to see you checking-in 
I hope the sensory overload settles down for you
@Kareness feel better soon
@Bones_80 congrats on 80 days I’m glad you’ve finally had your appointment and it sounds positive
@mjtpeace welcome congrats on double digits
@Alycia so precious 
@SoberWalker thank you and congrats on trying something new 
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@Hayleylujah congrats on 8 months
@Sabrina80 feel better soon
@Misokatsu I can relate 
but congrats on 2.5 years, I hadn’t realised that yesterday was a milestone for us so
@Adasher welcome to the checking-in thread congrats on 39 days what a wonderful moment to share with your friend
@BushPig welcome congrats on your week
@Darby1 that’s amazing that you and your wife are doing this together now
@icebear thank you
915 days no alcohol.
380 days no cocaine.
3 days no binge-eating.
2.5 days no vape.
Had to suurender to sleep at 8:30pm last night, woke up 12hrs later with very enthusiastic help from the cats 
Very low energy and mood today.
Pushed myself to attend the support group this morning, kept my mic and camera off the whole time, but I stayed until the end this time, I found it very engaging, there were only 3 of us, which I think helped my anxiety.
Mostly napped in the afternoon.
Did manage my walk, didn’t want to but pushed myself, glad I did.
Will try to shower before the semi-final of my fav program. Can’t see it happening but I’ve been surprising myself recently so we’ll see.
The addict voice is trying to convince me I’m allowed to eat crisps while I watch the semi-final, so I’m trying to fight that.
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Checking in with 140 days sober and a new job!
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Congratulations!
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Day 28
I thought I might as well pop in here to update instead of giving into my narcissistic tendencies and only sticking to my own thread. Today I started reading This Naked Mind, and it’s probably gonna take me longer to get through it than the other books did.
So yesterday was a family member’s birthday and I decided to skip the get-together to protect my sobriety. I sent a Happy Birthday text and they didn’t even bother replying. So, it was definitely the right choice. I mean, they didn’t even bother to invite me themselves. They told my dad and had him relay the invitation to the rest of us females / less important family members.
On the bright side, I’ve been staying with my parents for the past couple of weeks and didn’t drink. That’s huge! This place is usually my PTSD / trigger land, yet here I am, working my recovery despite it. Even better, I only had a couple of fleeting thoughts about drinking, and no cravings or urges. So I guess I’m doing ok.
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Home care. I drive clients to their appointments, light house keeping, or companionship. I love it!
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Checking in on day 90! Feeling GREATful on this beautiful Sober Saturday
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Day 37
Medium-rare quick check in.
And by the way I always had a dream to taste Vanilla Colla. Well that dream just come true 
Waiting at Cinema to watch a movie
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Quick check-in on my way to bed, day 46 today. Did some community work today for the first time (setting up a fence next to a busy street to protect and collect frogs) and that was nice, but the day itself was not the best, I had a tingling sensation the entire day and felt nervous. Looking forward to a long night and new energy tomorrow.
Hope you all had a good day. To the ones currently struggling: you can do it and there are many people here thinking of you and sending you power and endurance, we are with you!
Sleep well
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