I had a great online meeting with my Tempest community this morning and spoke again . Definitely not staying hidden anymore. Two nuggets I took away for my upcoming road trip from New Hampshire to New Mexico are, 1. Have an aftercare plan for when I’m done driving for the day and will likely be tired, hungry, frustrated with truck drivers lol, and also when I get to the ranch. 2. What am I going to do instead of drinking? I got my notebook out and easily filled a page with good ideas. I’ve gone from being really nervous that I’d drink out of sheer tiredness to feeling proactive and in charge of my behavior by naming the obstacles and having a written plan.
@HillbillyChris sorry about the disappointment @K_smile congrats on your month @AyBee congrats on 1400 days @C_8 great effort, great numbers! @Sundown8 congrats on double digits @Lgrant1005 congrats on 3 weeks @rsvf@mewmcmew sending strength to you both, don’t let the addict voices win
@Markjackson thank you, I have been feeling better than I have in a while since I did it @Pickles I really do, thank you
942 days no alcohol.
407 days no cocaine.
29 days no vape.
I’m feeling so much better mentally, than I have been in a while. I also don’t think it’s any coincidence that after ending things with the therapist yesterday, I managed to shower, and resist my binge urges last night. I did the right thing, for me, and I’m feeling really pleased about that.
I have done both walks, the morning one in snow, the afternoon one in sunshine! Did my meditations, will do another one now. Not sure if I’ll manage to stay awake to watch my program at 9pn UK time, but if I don’t I can watch it on catch-up tomorrow. Plan is to stay focused and resist any binge cravings/urges again.
Day 334
11 months
Just had a meh week, had some major headaches to deal with.
I feel like I need to put into more work when it comes to self care and relationships.
One day at a time, sure tomorrow will be a brighter day!
Checking in on day 74. Today was not too good emotionally, I got more and more down the later the day got. At least no thoughts of drinking, so I got this going, which is nice.
Have a good and sober weekend and enjoy your time alone, with friends or family
Day 17. Still navigating some tension with my partner but I think we are finding our way. Working up my courage to go to my first in person meeting this time around. Had a tough work week but so glad I didn’t drink. Trying to reconnect with my physical body who I’ve treated so badly the past 20 years. Happy Friday everyone
Hey all. Had a good day. Mostly because I spent most of it in bed. Insight Timer knock me out as usual, but again I woke up after only a couple of hours. Guess I’ll have to start taking my Seroquel again and just deal with the hangover. But it was a cold overcast morning and I had no appointments for the day so I just nodded off again on the loveseat. Still can’t shake this inexplicable feeling of irritability. Things are going great, and I’m still taking my Buspar but I still feel like I want to scream.
Anyway, I get to see Brian tomorrow so that’s something to look forward to. Everyone have a good sober Friday!
Checking in Day 390
Day has been… idk… hard i guess. Mind is very preoccupied with the situation that happened at my sons school. Had some using thoughts today (strength maybe a 4/10 which is honestly quite higher than the usual craving). I just kept at distractions and let the thought go. Im feeling like a need a “break” from life. But how to do that, i dont know. How do “normies” take breaks? Lol am doing self care now and definitely need some sleep. Hugs TS fam