Thank you! Hope you get some sleep tonight! Sorry your dad isnt doing well.
Migraines and lack of sleep is a very bad combo and definitely hard on the eyes- give your eyes some rest 
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Evening Check In
Day 395
Feeling really disengaged from my supports right now. Idk what thats about. Feel like im not as involved with them as i used to be. Maybe this is normal at some point in recovery? Im not too sure. I dont feel like i need AS much support as i did in the beginning of my recovery but stillā¦ im only like 1 year and 1 month clean and sober. Its a big deal but in the grand scheme of things its just a small portion compared to my 22 years of addiction. So i must be cautious that i dont fall into the āI can do it on my ownā trap.
Today was okay. Lazy then busy and now the day is finally winding down. I have an insanely busy day tmrw with a phone call to renew a contract and then long transit trips to pick up supplies for my son. And then a workout and the usual tidying up. Hoping all goes well tmrw. Just want to let u all know how proud i am of every single one of u. Hugs TS fam
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Checking in almost 15 days. Super agitated today, probably not enough in my schedule. Going on a muddy hike to waterfalls tomorrow - should take my mind off of things. Take care all!
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Still going strong guys. This topic is just a check in. Iām still having withdrawal symptoms like crazy and I barely made it through my day but Iām at work now holding down the fork anyway. I keep going to the bathroom in fear that my nausea will progress and my stomach hurts like hell. The headaches donāt help me out at all and there is basically no one to complain to. I canāt leave work because there is no one to replace me and even if I did whoās to say the symptoms donāt continue the rest of the week or even month for that matter. Anyway, just venting right now but the main thing is Iām 5 days in and havenāt picked upāā night, night for now
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Stay strong. It will get better.
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Day 374 no alcohol
Though i was wishing i could
Long day at work.
Keep thinking on a nightmare loop
Im overwhelmed trying to keep up with the threadā¦i sometimes only open this app to write this check in and then just leave.
Made myself clean though i let my room get bad again. Like pile of food trash bad. So i got rid of that and did the litter box and wound up cleaning for about 45 min. Up early in the morning.
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Pic is me arriving at work yesterday. One more to go and itās my 3 day weekend.
@Minatasha Donāt let this thread overwhelm you. Let it help you. Thanks for being here. Hugs.
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But you are aware itās not a good sign; thatās the important thing. I frequently feel that way 30-60 days in, and it usually doesnāt end well. 
I hadnāt thought about it before, but maybe Iām going nuts from not doing anything. That would explain a lot. I could use a hike myself.
@Onestepmore2023 Hang in there; if youāre in 5 days the physical part should be over soon. Drink water and keep checking in 
I had to smile a little at that, because thatās what my room looks like once in a while. Things will get better. 
@Mno Great pic, as always.
Day 8 (9?)
Good morning/evening everyone. Wasted another day. Tagged along with neighbor Joe to get some grocery shopping done, and that was about it. Still sorting out paperwork.
Iām pretty good with records, because I never throw anything away. Bad part is, northing gets thrown away. So in the middle of sorting the wheat from the chaff, I ended taking a nap until 7:30pm. Iāll be awake all night. again. I gotta get on a regular sleep routine. Right now looking for a movie I havenāt seen yet, even though itās 2:30 am right now. Maybe I should try to sleep again. Idk. Just checking in.
Happy sober Thursday! 
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#Day 1640 
Went back to the spot I almost got crushed by a falling tree. I had to see it again. They removed the piece that was on the street but the rest was still there. I took a piece of it home. I think I want to make something out of it when I am in goldsmith class.
Live and dead is so close to eachother.
If I had walked a few seconds slowerā¦if I had stoppedā¦ifā¦
Would I have died? Seriously injured?
Iām not depressed ore anxious by what happend, but just overthink it a lot.
Overall Iām just happy and gratefull to be alive
Today? Off from work and going for a walk with a friend
See you
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Day 15 and grateful to get through yesterday sober.
One of the things I used to tell myself when drinking was that I would only ādrink to rememberā- I.e. to have fun or celebrate and never ādrink to forgetā because if you do both then youāre drinking all the time. Yeah, well that didnāt work because ādrinking to rememberā leads to hangover symptoms you have to drink to forget and we all know how that ends. Just another lie I told myself.
Anyway, yesterday was a tough day as it was bonus day at my firm. Itās my own firm so I get to give out bonuses to the team and hopefully make them happy. Usual form is then to go to the pub and get smashed beyond memory. I can honestly say I donāt remember more than snippets from 20 years of bonus days. This year I planned things differently which helped a bit.
I scheduled bonus day for a Wednesday (rather than Friday) and then a board meeting for the early evening so I could use the excuse of having to be sober for serious stuff. Wouldnāt have stopped me having a few drinks in the past over lunch but they didnāt know that.
However I then had to take some clients who had flown into town out and one of my partners had arranged it in a damn cocktail bar. Ugh. I didnāt think I was ready for that challenge (and I wouldnāt repeat it any time soon) but I ordered alcohol free cocktails for me. One of the upsides is that no one knew because I was doing the ordering.
Anyway, Iām grateful to the community for helping me through that test. I came here a couple of times during the day briefly and just reading positive stories of people who are struggling like me and making it through helped more than I ever thought it could.
I know Iām not ready to face constant temptation but I grateful to have changed a few things to make the test easier and made it through to earn my 2 weeks.
I woke up this morning feeling great, and could remember yesterday! Feels good.
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Day 947
Still wasting way too much time on YT. I hate that it is nearly my kidsā spring vacation, so Iāll have even less opportunity to do the things I should do. This is compounded by my husband telling me that there are āmanyā things about me that he is just putting up with about me, but he wonāt tell me what they are, because it would cause an argument. So why mention it then? Just so I can feel unspecifically like I am not good enough? Gee, thanks.
On the plus side, have started running again. Back to week 4 of c25k for probably the 15th time (no exaggeration). I have also slightly tidied a couple of closets. I meant to tidy all perfectly this vacation, but doing 10 % is better than zero I guess.
I have mentioned before, this third year of recovery is being a slog. I am not in danger of drinking but I am just so tired and unenthused. Probably need to really put some effort into gratitude and helping others.
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Geez, I hate when people do that. Just keep it to yourself or better yet be a good communicator and tell me whatās bothering youāin a respectful and considerate way.
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Day 15,
Good morning! The sun is shining, it is bright, it is resplendent, it is radiant. Spring is springing and soon it will be sprung! My eyes are adjusting to the radiance after 4 months of doom and gloom. How are yāall? Iām doing good.
My flatmate wants to have his birthday party at the flat and Iām like I will be in my room, no one can use my bathroom, my bedtime is 12:30, and the flat needs to be clean so that I can comfortably make Saturday brunch the next day. I love being a hard ass 
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Checking in Day 155, feeling good and so grateful to not be where I was 5 months ago. I donāt ever want to go back. Stay safe, strong and sober everyone. Your worth it!
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OMG SHE IS HERE!!! My gorgeous granddaughter has been born today!!! 
Iām over the moon ecstatic!! 9 Ibs and 3 ounces and just as perfect as perfect can be!!! I canāt describe this feeling and the tears have happiness just wonāt stop 
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Morning Check in 
Just finished an amazing home workout. My gym membership on the app has pre recorded fitness classes on there so I gave it a go.
It was really good, I feel good for doing it. Itās nice to know I can add that in to my fitness programme 
Going to go for a walk to get more exercise in, got to keep wearing myself out daily.
Have a lovely blessed day all 
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Day 61.
Woke up with a banging headache so now Iām just waiting for the paracetamols to kick in. And my tooth hurts again. The emergency dentist put something on there to murder the pulp, but the damn thing is still kicking. I need a proper root canal doing and Iām probably gonna have to bite the bullet sooner rather than later.
Today Iām going to check out a new coworking space. Itās close to where Iām staying and reasonably priced. They do, however, advertise complementary beer and wine on their website, and Iām not a fan of that. Not that Iām tempted, Iāve eaten out before with no issues, but I prefer offices where everyone just sits quietly and minds their own business. Back in December, I was trying to hit a deadline in one of the social butterfy filled coworking spots and the fuckers were getting drunk, eating pizza , dancing and doing secret santa at 5 pm, which was an hour before my piece was due! I worked there for 2 weeks and had to put up with fucking carols every day!
Iām not paying for that kind of social party atmosphere again. If I wanted that, Iād work in a bar.
Sorry, Iām rambling again.
Hope you all have a happy sober Thursday!
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Day 28. I canāt believe I am reaching the month. I donāt want to be naive. I know temptations eventually come. But right now I feel so excited thinking in a whole sober month
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WOW! Congratulations! What a wonderful event! 
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Check in Day 250 happy and Sober 
So it has been an while since my last update post in the Talking Sober Community.
If I look back in the past 3 years, and checking in again after a while would be a scream for help to finally get sober and to sort out my life.
This time thatās not the case and actually Iām doing very well and I managed to stay sober for 8 months in a row.
Its took me more than 3 years of struggling and relapsing and I finally manage to stay sober for a long time. I made an commitment to never walk back down that long dark path called alcoholism again.
In July I signed up for an Online Coaching course which not only helped me with my alcohol addiction but also helped me coping with the āābattleāā called life, making future plans and my social and mental struggles.
My life is so much better now! Off course I still have a lot of shitty days and life still sucks, but I donāt careā¦ I can handle itā¦ā¦ SOBER!
Hiking is my new DOC. Hiking is my best friend and therapy for the last 8 months and for the future. Hiking is what I use for meditation.
I am training now for A Long Distance path in The Netherland which is 500km, around 300 miles I think.
I Saved 5 weeks of holiday so I can walk this hiking track in May.
I dreamt of a sober life for so many years, some times I still canāt believe that I am sober for such a long time now. I am grateful for having the perseverance for not ever giving up on myself and that I kept on trying. I am grateful for having some amazing people around me who never gave up on me.
And I am grateful for this great community for supporting me and that there are still members who now and then tag me in a post even after a long period of absence.
This made me realize that I should start contributing more to this amazing community. Thank you @runningfree in particularity 
There are more battle to be won, like my nicotine addiction.
I gave myself 30 minutes of āāscreen timeāā a day, so I will keep it brief.
Have an amazing sober day to all of you!
Smile, Breathe and Go slowly! 
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