Day 26
I am in danger, as I have repeatedly thoughts about being able to drink a bit. Like on Saturdays.
Had a good balanced day, with nature, meal prepping, food, long nap and a long swim.
Despite I am having these thoughts. Hardly.
Tox es guy tried to call last night.
At 11 pm and 3 am! 
Itās triggering me.
Checking in. Day 134
Thank you 
I know that if itās me it would start with just a little, once a week on a Saturday and soon it would be any day ending with a y. I too have a toxic ex who happens to live at the bottom of my street. I narrowly missed bumping into him twice last week. I saw him in time and went the other direction. I had to block him on everything and now the only thing I have to worry about is bumping into him or him sending me an email (Iāve asked him to stop, and blocking just makes the emails go to the junk folder so I still get them)
Be strong Julia and donāt let yourself fall for any bullshit, either from the toxic guy or from yourself. You can do this. You came to this forum for good reasons so donāt forget them. Strength!
Day 42. Quiet day at home. Sick with chest congestion and cough. Trying to just rest and take care of myself. Passing thought of drinking, but played that tape forward and knew Iād just feel worse. So made some tea instead. Iām determined to get to a meeting for the first time this week since my IOP ends Tuesday. The thread about higher powers has answered some questions for me since I donāt believe in a god. But I do believe in community and I can see how my group at my IOP has been my higher power these last 6 weeks. Lots to think about.
88 days 
chilling watching bullet train
Happy sober Saturday everyone
Have a good weekend
Day 253 
Hey, hope everyone is okay.
Things are good with me. Iām been getting on great with daughter. Iām so happy she is here with me. I feel like a lot of anxiety I had around whether my daughter knows I love her have subsided. She lets me hug her 
She did my nails for me today. Iām a prolific nail biter but she told me to grow them a bit and sheād do them. Iām feeling very elegant 
Iāve been having a visitor for about a month. Sits on the wall and stares in the kitchen window to get my attention then I open the door and in it comes for treats. Comes twice a day now donāt know whose it is x
Keep on keeping on x
Checking in with 326 days 
I had a pretty stressful day yesterday, a bit of a cry, got a bit frustrated with my hubby and kids.
Being in the new house we have had lots of kids over swimming and hanging out with our kids and itās been a bit full on our place. My husband and I work full time and in our down time feel like all we do is chaperone our kids to the pool and parks etc. not feeling like we get a chance to do anything for ourselves which is not a great feeling.
We also are experiencing a big hike in prices of groceries and mortgage repayments. Everything is getting more expensive each month. I went grocery shopping yesterday as my kids were bugging me about the lack of food (gets like this by Sat after being at work all week). So went shopping, come home, and within maybe 5 hours the kids had helped themselves to so much of what Iād bought. Itās supposed to be a weekly shop, and they just kept taking and taking without any idea how much everything is costing, without any regard that itās supposed to be for the week not just for them to go crazy.
I tried to keep calm, weāre going to have a bit of a family meeting today, to try and explain the cost of living and how they need to be more considerate. They are getting big, and more independent. Making themselves a snack instead of needing someone to do it for them but now itās getting a bit too crazy, especially when we have friends over. Feeding growing kids and additional kids on the weekend is hurting my wallet. Plus the mess!!
Haha okay, rant over. Teenagers huh? Pray for me 
This is the same for me. Once I slip into the āI cAn MoDeRaTeā on weekends mindset it doesnāt take long before Iām in a full blown relapse. Sometimes a quick decent, sometimes a slow, but always end up at the same destination.
Happy you came here, stay strong!!
Good luck with the family meeting
5 Months
Checking in on the 5 month mark!
Last few weeks have been hectic with work, heat, night shift and looking after friends.
Hung out with my son yesterday was awesome hes growing up way to fast 14 man at least hes not out making stupid decisions like i did at his age. Hes smarted than me thats for sure.
I feel like our relationship gets better and better i feel
I feel a heaps more present when im with him, yet the one thing i always made sure of when i was in addicition was to never see him drunk, hung over, high or coming down and to this day its never happened.
Iām thankful for 11 days Sober !!! 
Iām going to try to visit this group each day.
Congratulations on the 5 months Travis. 
What a blessing having a sober relationship with your son. So much to be grateful for when we are sober.
Days
131 no substance
48 no self harm
94 no restricting food
Feeling disappointed. But it is what it is.
Just hoping I donāt get sick. My boss has covid and so does a coworkerā¦
Hope yāall have a good night
Congratulations!!! Proud of you!!!
Checking in day 159: been around some triggering people and situations the past few days but still staying sober and proud of it. I feel like everyone is holding on hard to who I used to be but I know Iāve changed a lot and itās okay for them to not understand that yet.
Checking in at Day 50!
Praying u dont get sick girl. Hope u get some good rest tonight
Day 0
I failed.
Will get a new number to not be triggered by his calls. I didnāt fall back to him. But to a bottle of wine.
As it all comes together, I will update the 0-contact to him with a new number.
Sorry.
You will be ok if you just keep fighting. Iām sending you a big hug 
Changing your number sounds like a great idea! Fresh start!
