That just sounds perfects.
No special effects needed!
Big hug 
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Thank you very much 
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Checking in
Day 371
I got up at 620am for work only to find that my little guy did catch this flu from me n hubby 
he hasnt thrown up yet thankfully, which is my biggest fear as he aspirates (hence why he is gtube fed). I decided to stay home with him to make sure he didnt end up having to go to the hospital. I lowered the volume and feed rate on his feed pump to make sure it was a much more gentle rate that his formula went into his belly.
This afternoon I went grocery shopping since he has been doing fairly well. Him and hubby stayed home and relaxed playing videogames. On the way to the train i started getting using thoughts. I never feed into the thoughts anymore but instead come at it from an inquisitive point of view. Kind of likeā¦ āwhy are you coming at me now?ā Lol I realized that with being sick and not having much energy for anything, i havent done much recovery related stuff either. I have prayed but not nearly as much as im used to. No meditation, no exercise, nothing. I have been sick but those addictive sneaky thoughts come at any time, they dont care. So back to the recovery routine i go. Glad to be feeling better. Juat praying that my son doesnt get worse 
Hope everyone has been doing well. I will have to try and go back and read abit. Ive missed alot.
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Hugs to your boy,
And you too,
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Day 43. Not much to say.
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Day 13 of no narcotics
Irritation levels-very high 
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Day 264. Have been saving my money for a bike and weāll I baught a lottery ticket which I know is not great, but I donāt buy them to often, anyways I won 100 dollars so I had 200 dollars for a bike. But I was excited and was impulsively scavenging the market place trying to find a bike. I was torn between two bikes or saving my money for something I really wanted. Why I felt I need a bike right now idk, but I ended up buying this. Itās a nice older style Gary Fisher, itās a 2001 and I do like it, but itās just not exactly my style I should of looked it over better and realized that itās only 26 in wheels when I really need 29s. idk so I kind of have a regret for buying this when I should of saved my money and tried to find something I really want, but also part of me says well I didnāt need to save up and get me a top of the line bike for 1,000 dollars again anyways. Idk anyways hereās a pic of the new bike I got, It is super light and has some good qualities as wellā¦ just trying to fix this impulsive behavior because it can be dangerous, Iām glad I see it tho and acknowledge it.
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Nice find, Mikeā¦ I think itāll be a good ride!
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Youāre absolutely right, but in the short term I have to find a job immediately. I could probably make an afternoon meeting.
Day 0 
Not a whole lot to say. Just being really anxious about the future. Wanted to check in and say hello.
Hello! 
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You canāt change the past which kinda sucks cuz if I did Iād Iād be sober longer
Relapses so hurt but this is progress over perfection
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Dude that is an awesome bike! I have a 2000 trek which is similar i even have a manitou fork like that one. And it looks like it has my all time favorite tires - panaracer fire xc! Forgive me i have been mountain biking for decades I couldnt help myself!
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12 days sober today!
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2 years 5 months, the longer this goes on the more I canāt believe it. This will never be my new norm, the normal me drinks and takes shit loads of drugs.
Iām just taking the day off.
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1353
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Back to work. Spring is coming. Letās go.
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Checking in. Day 135
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checking in Day 7 AF
Hi sober family,. Gym day today w/ F.
Hugged a co-sponsor today , was a nice feeling to enjoy and remember
Safe travels in Godās country on the Path, Ty Lordy 
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Hope your son will get better soon and that youāll find more time for reading and meditation. Feel hugged from afar
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#Day 1616 
I like my numbers today 
Had a weird dream about me in a pub surrounded by drinking people. I was not.
And suddenly I decided to tell all that people about me recovery, whether they liked it or not 
Like I said: weird.
Today? Work.
Have a good monday all of you or good sleep if itās the end of day
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Day 12 today sober
Day 11 smoke free
Been doing pretty good. Smoking has bugging me a bit.But it goes away after a bit ā¦
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Because of this reason, I prefer meetings with a topic and a timekeeper.