@mewmcmew congrats on 2 weeks yeah get back into it, I find it so much fun, there always seems to be events on lately too @Alycia congrats on all the 3s it must be such a relief to be WFH some days and less commuting pleased for you @Nowenbrace sorry about the accident, and your truck, but glad your partner is doing okay @SoberWalker I do believe in fate, I’m sorry there was no click for you, but glad it’s given you the strength to look for a new friend from the shelter @Amy30 hoping your pain settles down soon congrats on 6 weeks @Butterflymoonwoman sorry about your friend @KarenKW sending strength congrats on 50 days
930 days no alcohol.
395 days no cocaine.
17 days no vape.
Binged again last night, and again today. Didn’t buy crisps, but the other stuff is even worse, I ate half and felt ill, so planning to throw the rest away, even though I hate waste. Feeling disgusted and ashamed. No matter how determined I am not to, it’s like a switch goes off and I’m doing it again. I know I will get there again, because I won’t stop trying, but the shame is weighing heavy on me today.
Did my meditations, walks, and played some more Pokémon.
Maybe the ‘new week, new start’ cliché can work for me.
Day 148
Finally all the symptoms from the cold are gone and I feel ready to rock the office tomorrow with my girls
The only things I really have to focus on is getting back to a sleep schedule (like a normal human being, not an owl), healthy diet (oh I was a mess!) and I had coffee again since 1 week. A lot. Not good I’ll get back on track, no worries.
Oh and I have a date next Saturday As I know myself the excitement will grow the next days so I’ll be here regularly and spam you guys with what’s going on in my head
I hope you’re having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong
I am feeling great and I have a group of people in my corner for accountability. Everyday is a record setting day for sobriety from this point forward. So thankful.
You’d think i was a chef. Steak marinating for tmrw. Chicken marinating for dinner tonight. There was a time where i needed a drink to enjoy cooking. It was just a habit. I love cooking for me and the hubby. Plus i dont just eat crap food and passout anymore.
Omg what a day! Started out with a couple meetings online. Then i was going to clean but decided to get out into nature. I took a long walk and it felt so good! FINALLY I said my final goodbye to my ex. It feels so good to let go! Now i get to hang out with my son for the rest of the night❤
Attended a cool street art exhibition yesterday with my wife, our city museum is getting renovated for the next 7 years so to raise funds they decided to let a whole heap of artist hit up the walls it was amazing, some local and international artists it was amazing.
Havent posted in a while. Havent had much to say. Still sober. I know a lot of big milestones have been reached and am happy for everyone reaching them. For any relapses too, who am i to judge. I definitely have had those thoughts.
My goal for february was to reach a new baseline of clean in my room and to read more books. I think I did make the first goal and abjectly failed at the 2nd. Internet doom spiral. Yesterday I was on tiktok for hours. For what!
Booked some appointments like a haircut a month out so I have something to look forward to. Did some nice things for people.
Ive been pretty good about making myself tidy. But I dont want to today. Have to make myself do it before going to bed. Ugh.
Edit: cleaned and was able to continue for 20min!! It was enough for a whole clear floor. maybe if i get up early enough ill be able to do 15 more.
Checking in at the end of 625. Went out for dinner and then for ice cream with the fam. It was a fun time.
I am getting nervous again about a big business trip this coming Friday. I feel complacent again, and I am really worried about what could happen. I need to have a plan in place. The last time I went on a similar trip in 2018 I had a huge relapse after my first real try at sobriety.
I’ve been putting off thinking about it but now it’s suddenly almost here. Dammit.
How is the scary level? Is is more scary than Wednesday or later Harry Potter’s? Thinking of taking my daughter when it finally comes to Japan in June.
yeah get back into it, I find it so much fun, there always seems to be events on lately too 
pleased for you 
I’ll get back on track, no worries.
As I know myself the excitement will grow the next days so I’ll be here regularly and spam you guys with what’s going on in my head 
maybe if i get up early enough ill be able to do 15 more.
