Thank you, I think if I just stay awake it should be fine and a warm dinner and hot bath before a hopefully early night.
Have a lovely day, hope the situation at work shirts itself out 
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Day 47.
Just as I thought my body is settling in sobrietyā¦ BAM! Restless leg syndrome! Itās been bothering me on and off at night, but today it decided to hit me in the morning. Even my daily meditation was painfully hard to get through. The fun never stops! 
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Congratulations 
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Yesterday I slept only for about 4 and a half hours after workout. At work got into conflict and we almost started a fight. Was feeling bad and that was it. Back on path immediately, but feel bad for reseting. Still feel and think that January 7 is my sobriety dateā¦
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Congrats to you
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I understand. What I understand is that you stepped down the well known path to satisfy your needs. I might be worthy to try different approaches. Good that you are determined to get right back.
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Itās your road and your life. But to me this seems to be a main reason why you keep relapsing friend. Itās mindset. Thereās no grey in dealing with addiction. Itās black and white. Do or donāt. We indulge in our addiction or we donāt. We handle triggering situations without grabbing for our DOC or we donāt. Which personally suits me fine with my Borderline traits so maybe itās easier for me. Still I firmly believe itās the only way. Wishing you all success.
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You jumped right back on the wagon, my friend. Anger is the most dangerous state for me to be in as it relates to relapse. This is a one day at a time thing. Have you tried AA, either in person or online. Getting some additional supports around you might be a missing ingredient in your recovery.
Please donāt let this derail you. You are doing really good, and have a lot of people rooting for you.
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@SoberWalker I am sure the kittyās family had great comfort in placing their kitty with you. Such a good life ahead. Cats are so silly when they hide. Itās stressful on them to move. Whatās the kittyās name? Iām so happy for you!
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Yes I wanted try to explain this but You explained it better that me. Last time I catched that mindset and that really worked this time! That is why I feel that day is special for me, itās like remembering why you startedā¦ but after all this mindset of today is already showing that I lost that mindset and I feel uncomfortable today.
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Yes You right. I was totally comfortable, I then was not in anger, but more in sadness; anyway, I even felt quite good in that situation, it was not terrible, but I think because I was really tired my brains picked the āwell knownā road and not the new one. I was doing that without any sympathy to drinking and doing that already I knew inside I will not stick to drinking this time. Itās like I have better path now, itās just felt old and outdated to me.
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Have you tried a magnesuim supplement? It can help with restless legs.
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Not yet, its only just started getting bad today. But thats a great suggestion. Iāll grab a supplement from somewhere today.
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Thank You. I tried a lot and I think this group is really what helps and that new mindset @Mno was talked about. It is really what makes the real difference for me. I also try to follow 12 steps, but the second Step 2 one is hardest for me. Probably this is what I need to change, by picking the right date I already trying to be in charge. Trying to let go this mindset is really how I need to comolete this step and 2 months ago that really worked 
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Try to find a magnesium citrate supplement.
200 mg each day is enough.
Good luck!
Ps I work in a supplement store 
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Hey all, checking in on day 991. I hope everybody has a good one!
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I will! Thatās really helpful, thank you so much.
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Day 993 clean and sober today. Thank you for all the love and support I apologize for not responding to you all yet individually but I will when I can. Have an amazing day, love you guys a lot 
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Checking in day 179! Been dealing with some stressors related to my ex who is deep in his addiction, but Iāve been doing decent (and getting better) at upholding my boundaries which is so, so helpful- but itās still not easy. It hasnāt been a trigger to drink- if anything itās a reinforcement of why I donāt want to.
Iāve gone out on two casual dates just to meet new people (no desire for a relationship right now, and have been up front about that) and itās been really nice getting to know people while Iām sober. Iām also trying to get back in touch with hobbies (picked up knitting again and signed up for a kickball league). Itās all a process but life is so much better than it was 179 days ago.
Today I work 12 hours and run a pretty big process group which Iām nervous about, but Iāll do my best! Hope you all have a great sober Thursday!
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Wow! Congratulations to your full year!
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