Because I have a lot of other things to do 
I knowā¦ I have to take it serious.
Further pressure because I know I am in danger, but my addictive mind tells me I can do it without this meeting thing.
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Great place to put this Jenny.
Iām a firm believer in milestone malady. It didnāt make me want to drink either. But Iād get depressed around just before 6 months, 9 months; And that 300 day mark really fucked with my head even though I knew it was milestone malady. That addictive brain is fighting back. I just kept going easy on myself. As long as I hit the pillow sober it was a great successful day. Even if I didnāt get anything done besides walking my dogs and feeding the pets.
Keep up the great work.
We got your back.
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Welcome back Sundown.
I remember seeing this post yesterday.
Thought Iād copy it for ya.
Sometimes in my recovery it helps just to know Iām not alone.
Hope to see you around.
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119 no alcohol
13 no weed no THC pen
Very happy Iām sober today
I had a great day working
I learned how to unload the truck and put out about 55 or 60boxes in 2 hours which is spot on where I need to be
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Struggling! Just want to drink! Iāve been sober this time for 3months and 2 daysā¦I will keep going but I just want to cry and drink
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Good job checking in and telling on yourself. Make the decision not to use today.
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Day 2
I could sleep all day!
Yesterday I had 2 sport sessionsā¦
will head to the pool tonight again as itās closed Saturday and Sunday due to an event.
So i will do some home workout and yoga on weekend.
I will just go on napping, until I go to my swimā¦
And lay down afterwards again.
I am taking my vitamin b complex and a supplement for the gut microbiom.
Magnesium and vitamin d of cause.
Eating healthy, drinking enough.
The symptom gets worse with every relaps.
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Thank you! It does help knowing Iām not alone
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Ha, I guess we always fear the unknown? Dating used to stress me out too, but just going out for coffee to see if thereās any chemistry is pretty low-key, online dating is pretty non-commital by nature.
I donāt really know what to expect at AA and if Iām ready to go back to my drinking days all the time, the memories are painful ā¦ I also fear talking in front of many people and donāt do well with fitting into a group as I take some time to open up. I prefer one on one ā¦ like a date Iām glad you feel supported, I might gather up the courage soon!
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Day 153
Had a wonderful day, beautiful weather and a good time with all of my coworkers. Weāre finally all healthy again
But since Iām at home all I do is laying on my couch and I canāt move. Itās like Iām frozen.
My date with the nice guy I met online is planned for tomorrow 5pm and I could sh*t myself.
I donāt know if this is funny or sad tbh.
Iām 42 years old, I finally feel ready to meet someone. And I feel the strongest fear Iāve ever felt. Everything that ever went wrong with my relationships is spiraling in my head and I canāt stop it. One part of me wants to cancel, the other part wants to at least try it.
Oh my 
I hope youāre having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Checking in
Day 383
Day started out rough. I felt so very emotionally and mentally drained that i was very irritable and discontent. I got my son on the bus to school. First thing i did when i walked in thru my doors was sit down and pray. Asking for guidance in my day. I reminded myself that the kind of day I will have is directly dependant on my state of mind. I chose then and there to slow down, be gentle with myself, and to turn my thinking and acting over to God. So then i went grocery shopping. All was well. Even let a lady cut in front of me to scan her items (she only had 2 and i had a wagon full of groceries). I came home and tried a new healthy high protein snack recipe. Super good!!! Then listened to a quick 3 min meditation while having a lavender scented bath. I really feel like im respecting myself and showing myself love. I often will get mad at myself for not being able to get done what i need to do in a day. Then theres the awful internal dialogue and moodiness that comes along with it. Im sooo grateful for my HPās guidance today and my ability to be still and listen to what my HP is telling me. The coping skills i have learned in just over a year of being clean and sober, astounds me. Im grateful for all of u showing me the way! There is just soooo much calmness and love and peace in being able to just sloooow down, breathe, and get out of my own way.
Feeling peaceful 
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Nah, donāt cancel. Heās probably nervous too. Just go be yourself. You might end up having a great time. If you skip it cause of fear, youāre always gonna wonder what if.
Try not to do this on the date. Probably a deal breaker. 
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Iām already running to the toilet constantly today 
Nothing will be left tomorrow hahahaha
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Try to remember itās just another human and weāre all just doing our best. Go for as long as youāre comfortable. You will be fine! 
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@Scorpn sending strength 
congrats on 60 days SH free 
@Alycia feel better soon congrats on 11 months happy birthday to your son 
@Kareness happy birthday
@liminal.rehab welcome 
congrats on your days so far
@Katy congrats on double digits
@Sundown8 welcome back
@Sabrina80 I hope the date goes well 
935 days no alcohol.
400 days no cocaine.
22 days no vape.
Today I have been out doing various things to help my dad and his wife. He is still in severe pain, but has finally spoken to a doctor, heās now waiting up to 8hrs for an ambulance to go to the hospital for an xray. I am very worried about him but Iām relieved heās finally going to the hospital. It has been 11 days since he was injured and he hasnāt been getting any better. I think he was too scared about how serious it was but didnāt want to admit it.
Iāve not been feeling good since my bad therapy session on Tuesday. Itās set me off with bad binges. I donāt really want to carry on with it, I might see how next weekās session goes and then make a decision. I definitely donāt feel like itās a good fit or the right style of ātherapyā, I wouldnāt even call it therapy at all, I donāt get a chance to talk!
Iāve still managed to do my meditations and both walks. Going to meditate some more now before the program Iām watching starts in an hour.
Wishing you all wonderful sober weekends.
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@Butterflymoonwoman Praying for you! Your sober time and transparency are encouragements to me and others!
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Give it a try girl!
Of cause give it a tryā¦
Best timing for a first date is 60 minutes only.
Okā¦ I sound like a professionalā¦
But this is a fact based on scientific research!
Greetings, good old aunty āchaos relationshipsā 
You will have a good time Sabrinaā¦
And if not, come here and we can make some jokes about it! 
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3rd sober evening
Landed back home from sports,
without taking any wrong exit!
Still in danger, thirsty tongue.
Will eat a little and watch a good series I just found. And I have coconut water at home as a good isotonic drink
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Congrats!!!
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Day 327 AF
Had an emotional week so trying to recuperate a bit.
Everything will be worst if I was drinking.
Have a great day!
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