Ha, I guess we always fear the unknown? Dating used to stress me out too, but just going out for coffee to see if there’s any chemistry is pretty low-key, online dating is pretty non-commital by nature.
I don’t really know what to expect at AA and if I’m ready to go back to my drinking days all the time, the memories are painful … I also fear talking in front of many people and don’t do well with fitting into a group as I take some time to open up. I prefer one on one … like a date 
I’m glad you feel supported, I might gather up the courage soon!
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Day 153
Had a wonderful day, beautiful weather and a good time with all of my coworkers. We’re finally all healthy again 
But since I’m at home all I do is laying on my couch and I can’t move. It’s like I’m frozen.
My date with the nice guy I met online is planned for tomorrow 5pm and I could sh*t myself.
I don’t know if this is funny or sad tbh.
I’m 42 years old, I finally feel ready to meet someone. And I feel the strongest fear I’ve ever felt. Everything that ever went wrong with my relationships is spiraling in my head and I can’t stop it. One part of me wants to cancel, the other part wants to at least try it.
Oh my 
I hope you’re having a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Checking in
Day 383
Day started out rough. I felt so very emotionally and mentally drained that i was very irritable and discontent. I got my son on the bus to school. First thing i did when i walked in thru my doors was sit down and pray. Asking for guidance in my day. I reminded myself that the kind of day I will have is directly dependant on my state of mind. I chose then and there to slow down, be gentle with myself, and to turn my thinking and acting over to God. So then i went grocery shopping. All was well. Even let a lady cut in front of me to scan her items (she only had 2 and i had a wagon full of groceries). I came home and tried a new healthy high protein snack recipe. Super good!!! Then listened to a quick 3 min meditation while having a lavender scented bath. I really feel like im respecting myself and showing myself love. I often will get mad at myself for not being able to get done what i need to do in a day. Then theres the awful internal dialogue and moodiness that comes along with it. Im sooo grateful for my HP’s guidance today and my ability to be still and listen to what my HP is telling me. The coping skills i have learned in just over a year of being clean and sober, astounds me. Im grateful for all of u showing me the way! There is just soooo much calmness and love and peace in being able to just sloooow down, breathe, and get out of my own way.
Feeling peaceful 
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Nah, don’t cancel. He’s probably nervous too. Just go be yourself. You might end up having a great time. If you skip it cause of fear, you’re always gonna wonder what if.
Try not to do this on the date. Probably a deal breaker. 
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I’m already running to the toilet constantly today 
Nothing will be left tomorrow hahahaha
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Try to remember it’s just another human and we’re all just doing our best. Go for as long as you’re comfortable. You will be fine! 
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@Scorpn sending strength 
congrats on 60 days SH free 
@Alycia feel better soon congrats on 11 months happy birthday to your son 
@Kareness happy birthday
@liminal.rehab welcome 
congrats on your days so far
@Katy congrats on double digits
@Sundown8 welcome back
@Sabrina80 I hope the date goes well 
935 days no alcohol.
400 days no cocaine.
22 days no vape.
Today I have been out doing various things to help my dad and his wife. He is still in severe pain, but has finally spoken to a doctor, he’s now waiting up to 8hrs for an ambulance to go to the hospital for an xray. I am very worried about him but I’m relieved he’s finally going to the hospital. It has been 11 days since he was injured and he hasn’t been getting any better. I think he was too scared about how serious it was but didn’t want to admit it.
I’ve not been feeling good since my bad therapy session on Tuesday. It’s set me off with bad binges. I don’t really want to carry on with it, I might see how next week’s session goes and then make a decision. I definitely don’t feel like it’s a good fit or the right style of ‘therapy’, I wouldn’t even call it therapy at all, I don’t get a chance to talk!
I’ve still managed to do my meditations and both walks. Going to meditate some more now before the program I’m watching starts in an hour.
Wishing you all wonderful sober weekends.
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@Butterflymoonwoman Praying for you! Your sober time and transparency are encouragements to me and others!
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Give it a try girl!
Of cause give it a try…
Best timing for a first date is 60 minutes only.
Ok… I sound like a professional…
But this is a fact based on scientific research!
Greetings, good old aunty “chaos relationships” 
You will have a good time Sabrina…
And if not, come here and we can make some jokes about it! 
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3rd sober evening
Landed back home from sports,
without taking any wrong exit!
Still in danger, thirsty tongue.
Will eat a little and watch a good series I just found. And I have coconut water at home as a good isotonic drink
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Congrats!!!
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Day 327 AF
Had an emotional week so trying to recuperate a bit.
Everything will be worst if I was drinking.
Have a great day!
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Okay, I’ll do that 
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337 days sober today. I remember when i first came on here and was seeing large numbers thinking how impossible it felt to get there too. Resetting and leaving the app many times…but here I am.
Anybody struggling or feel its impossible, its not. You can do it. Surrender!
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Stay strong! Im at 25 days sober and feel kind of at a loss. Im not sure wats going on with me. I walked my dog jackson today and am drinking coffee and reading book. Im just not feeling too grateful.
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Congratulations 
. You are fighting hard, and getting results.
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I’ve been sober 10 full days and I’ve already re-discovered my love of reading before bed (something I couldn’t do when I was drinking till I passed out!) it’s a great way to take your mind off the stresses of the day and I think just the act of it relaxes me and makes me sleepy. I also read if I wake up during the night (some insomnia issues).
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Congratulations on entering double digits! So happy to hear that u found ur love of reading again!
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