Hey all, checking in on day 993. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 995 clean and sober. Up early and getting ready for work. I hope everyone has an awesome day today, love you guys 
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So nice to see you posting regularly again Rob 
Have a beautiful day 
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Our cat does the same. Even if somebody sits on the toilet she is running around the person.
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Checking in day 181! Worked til 2am and up early to dog sit, so pretty tired. Have a call with a friend, a haircut, and time with my parents today. Also going to try to get to the gym. Should be a good Saturday, just hope I can sustain some energy.
Listened to the new Macklemore album. Not the biggest fan of his overall (donāt dislike his music, just not always for me). However, at least the second half of the album is strongly about addiction. Iād recommend the songs tears, faithful, and tail lights if anyone is curious about that.
Hope you all have a superb sober Saturday!
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That does sound fun! I remember when my son joined his first soccer team at about 6 or so. All the kids chased down the ball, lol
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Welcome back. Itās never too late to start again! Iām glad youāre here.
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Hi @Sundown8, I completely get it. I had 10 years and relapsed (I had no support, did it by sheer determination somehow), and have been trying to find my way back for probably 20 years 
. If it helps you, what Iāve learned is that by going back and forth (sober/drinking/sober etc) is it develops into a habit so gives a secondary hurdle to overcome. I now set small goals (can be anything) and I make sure I accomplish themā¦ like, I will run x miles and not walk, or something like that. This helps me tackle the bigger habit of not sticking to my goals for sobriety. I realize itās an oversimplification but it is helping me so thought Iād share. You can do it!
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Day 364
Still sober. I ate a lot of food.
I should clean for 15 minutes. I always feel better when I do. I am bracing myself for feeling just sick.
Im not sure what Im going to do tomorrow. I spent 4 hours scrolling this am. Feels gross. Then i made coffee and cleaned the kitchen. Idk.
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Itās been a bit since i checked in. Iām on day 21 of my sobriety. Iāve been struggling the last few days. My emotions have been up and down and i have the weekend alone. Iām meeting up with a friend later on today and part of me doesnāt want to go. The drive is long and i dont want to do it. I always have to be the one to visit people and it gets oldā¦i know it will be good for me to go and i still am. I am just annoyed and would rather curl up in a blanket and sleep all day and forget life today. Thanks for reading. Everyone here is awesome!
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Very grateful I hit the hay sober last night. As I shared above, Iāve been in a cycle for a long time of staying sober for a while, sometimes years, then drinking again, a really very mindless habit. Iām breaking that now by setting & sticking to my goals, rewarding my successes, have re-joined an online recovery program and am doing the gratitude work. I still had beer in the fridge yesterday and I dumped it with an attitude of self-love vs my usual panicky feeling.
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I was thinking of you when something hit me and I started to clean my apartment today. I feel better now. I donāt have a schedule though. I am grateful that there is only me to blame when itās not clean. 
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@Sabrina80 im glad you feel better. Sometimes it can be difficult to determine if our gut instincts are actually speaking to us or if its fear. But i think u made the right choice.
@Misokatsu life can be extremely difficult but no matter whats going on in ur life, you always provide support and encouragement to others. You have ALOT to offer. And yesā¦ the fact that ur staying sober thru all uv been thru, says alot 
hugs friend!
@liz22 i also picked up sugar/carb cravings when getting clean and gained some weight. But at least weight can change and we can become healthier versions of ourselves now congratulations on 11 days!
@brokenwolf congratulations on ur interview! Hope all goes well 
enjoy ur day friend!
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Day 3
I was very productive with house cleaning, laundry and meal prepping. Now I am just lazy, no power in my bones. The pool is closed today.
I am bored that I canāt have alcohol in my life. 
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Happy to wake up sober on a Saturday morning! This is still a new experience for me. After terrible gloomy and stormy weather yesterday the sun is shining bright. Grateful for sobriety and this forum and one day at a time living!
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You can have alcohol in your life, if your willing to take all the other things that come along with it during , and especially after the fact. The problems and feelings that obviously made you decide you had to do something to quit in the first place. I myself canāt deal with the back and forth of the relapses, or how bad I was getting beaten up by it. Iām staying quit cause I just donāt have the energy to keep going back out and trying to control it anymore. Stay strong and talk to people who know what youāre going through Julia. And really try and remind yourself why you even needed to stop in the first place. Youre strong enough to do it if you really want to. 
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I get it. That is an interesting approach and Iāll definitely try it
Thank you!
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What exactly would drinking 1 or 2 bottles of wine make better, more excited? Would you go out? Trying to contact this guy who doesnāt help at all? How would you feel tomorrow morning? What is it that makes numbing exciting?
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Thank you Joe 
The fact isā¦
I definitely donāt have any more energy for it too. I have energy for sports and for pushing my private projects forward. But I feel some physical and mental exhaustion that is realy getting worse with every relaps to restart over and over again.
So I will make a thai soup for dinner, watch the exciting series I started and do some beauty stuff. (the pool is closed today)
Big hug and thank you for being here!
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