Wow so many people to congratulate just to many to write down, my brain is a bit slow atm.
I didn’t want to say nothing so here goes
congratulations to all of you who are celebrating your milestones
@Rockstar24777 Huge 1000 
@Scorpn @Markjackson @seb @zzz @FeelingBetter
@KarenKW @KevinesKay @DLS
So many of you, for those I can’t fit in congratulations to you too 
Day 5 and happy. I can do this.
Day 525
I’m thinking today I am going to take it easy.
My anxiety was at all time high last night and I know I’m overthinking alot.
Maybe as it’s rainy weather is okay today to just get the sofa comfy and stay snuggled up with the curtains and blinds closed today and just switch off from reality for a bit. Distance myself from daily life stressors and just understand that maybe if I be kind like this for a day the anxiety may not snowball for days.
Sleep had been weird the past 2 weeks - not being able to sleep for days in a row, then sleeping for days and nights in a row back to not being able you sleep for days.
Maybe I just need to have some time out and enjoy the peace.
I’m ok, it’s nothing I can’t handle, just trying new ways to try to break this cycle before it may become a real struggle.
Apart from that things are good, I’ll go for a morning walk to the shops and to return a parcel then just snuggle up in bed or the sofa and put on a good series and reading here, my second home. 
Have a lovely day everyone 
I haven’t slept well this week.
Not enough hours, lots of dreams, and waking up tense/tired
The past two days my neck has been sore, today at work I felt really lightheaded and possibly had a seizure (coworkers said my eyes were darting around and i was unresponsive for a period of time). I left early, after waiting about half hour or so to get my wits about and feel ok to drive.
I ate some dried fruit and apple juice to give my body a sugar rush in case my blood sugar was low and that’s why I felt bad… It helped long enough to get me home, and then I laid down.
How is this related to my recovery?
I know i wasn’t given bad drugs, and if i had needed emergency services i wouldn’t have refused them because I was afraid of a drug test. This is something huge to me. I am not at risk of dying from overdose or contaminated drugs. I don’t have to wait x number of days to deal with symptoms before it’s “safe” to go to a doctor.
What a freeing thing. To feel empowered to seek medical attention when needed without fear of what if this is my fault or what if they do a drug test…
Hi sober fam,. Worried in ER do to Hun collapsing at Superstore ( groceries)
Ambulance to Emerg and now more waiting and waiting to see Dr.
Initially she wasn’t talking or responding but can talk and stand now, grateful for progress.
Called in sick tomorrow as sleep was already like crap , good call 
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Going to give the check to dealership for our replacement vehicle tomorrow. This is something!
Talk soon 
Have you and your partner in my thoughts and prayers 
Thx Twizzle
I hope all goes well with your health check 
Thinking of you 
1370
Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love
Pic is from going to my work yesterday. Caught a second train on my commute instead of my standard rental bike. Really didn’t feel it. But in the end it was an ok day, ending in a new year’s (no joke) work meet in a bar where I had no problem not drinking and did have a pretty good time for the while I was there. And now it’s my weekend. Happy to be sipping my coffee at home and not have planned much, not today anyway. Let’s relax a bit first.
@Nowenbrace Hoping for a good outcome Owen. That’s scary stuff.
@Scorpn Glad for this progress I’m reading. It is big. And indeed plz have some medical professional check you out asap. x
@Twizzlers You take care of you friend.
@Seb ODAAT as ever Seb. Congrats on double digits.
@Pickles Congrats on 764 glorious sober days . They can’t be all sunshine and roses no. Personally I am looking forward to spring, it’s feeling a bit urgent atm actually. Feeling some blahs too. Be well.
@JonB I’m sure you learned a lot and have a bunch of tools now to fight the urges. You can do this and you’re not in it alone. You got all of us here. Enjoy your first day with your wife and keep going on the sober road.
Day 8
Good morning. I’ve started doing Morning Pages again from Julia Cameron’s The Artist’s Way. Already there’s been a marked sense of clarity and reduction in anxiety in my day to day.
Started asking myself the hard questions instead of succumbing to my first thoughts which are usually the beliefs I think I should hold, rather than what I actually embody. Today’s Morning Pages were especially illuminating because I came to a better understanding of myself and my values in a nuanced way rather than some of idealized, perfect version of myself that is so vulnerable to being hurt and slighted. My more nuanced self is more resilient and relatable.
Anyways, I hope you have a good morning and a good sober day.
Day 940
Getting very spring-like and regretting being so sloth-like when it was cold. Feeling a little better mentally, eating ok, and being calmer yet firm with some boundaries. Thinking about the fact I will be hitting quadruple digits in a couple of months. Blows my mind. I couldn’t imagine it when I first joined here.
Keep it up! I am looking up to one day be where you are! Congratulations on the days. Your worth it we are worth it😄
Checking in on day 148. I just started a new job virtually across the country. The one good thing that came out of COVId… meeting new people and places from anywhere hang in there, everyone your worth it and keep coming back. Proud and feeling strong but always humble.
A day for yourself and a mental health day can be some of the best. You deserve it!
Congratulations for the 
Kevin! 
Loads of milestones here on this tread, sure I will miss one ore more. But every day is a milestone as well. We all are soberwarriors aren’t we?
Your there @Rockstar24777 1000 days! down! Freaking awesome!! 
@Markjackson well done for the 30 days!! 
And @KarenKW 2 months in your pocket! Tadaaaah! Nice feeling isn’t it! 
#Day 1633 
Short check in. Not much to say. Easy day ahead
Day 54.
PAWS are back with a vengeance. To paraphrase my favourite philosopher, Samuel L. Jackson, I’m sick of these mothafucking PAWS in this mothafucking life.
I have 0 energy to do anything, but I need to push myself because I’m already behind on a deadline. And the longer I procrastinate, the longer I’ll be up tonight working. And I wanted to take today off, but I really can’t. However, old me would have said fuck it and come up some excuse for not doing the work.
I’m also feeling very grumpy for some reason. Yesterday, there was this dude at my coworking office watching something on his phone (with earbuds on, so he wasn’t doing anything wrong) and he was laughing. And that really got on my nerves. I’d hear him randomly chuckling and kept thinking, “what in the name of actual fuck could possibly be so funny, fam?” Yes, it’s very Karen-like. And stupid. And irrational. Of course I kept my thoughts to myself, but getting annoyed at someone for doing absolutely nothing wrong is a bit worrying.
Speaking of irrational anger. I’ve downloaded a new meditation app and it has a stupid amount of different guided meditations, in different styles, by different people. So I’m trying out a few while making a list of my favourites. Well, today’s meditation teacher kept… you gueesed it, chuckling during the session. Again, it made me irationally irate. So I stopped halfway through and chose a different one.
So yeah… this my update. 54 days of sobriety and anyone showing signs of happiness in my presence gets on my nerves! On the bright side, my husband’s laugh doesn’t annoy me. I (still) like seeing him happy.
Day 5 for me and happy to be walking this path with you all. Got myself some beautiful flowers to celebrate and I think I’ll have a Starbucks on my way back from dropping the dogs off at daycare. A lot of emotions came up yesterday and I let them. I feel so relieved to let go of the stress of trying to control this. Very grateful
Thank you for your transparency and vulnerability. I helps me!
