Day 101. Had a nice chat with my boss today. It’s good to feel appreciated. Neck pain and headaches continue. Calling my doctor in the morning. It’s really negatively impacting my mood.
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Day 1
Small Steps Forward
“Courage is not the absence of despair; it is, rather, the capacity to move ahead in spite of despair.”
—Rollo May
Some days we wake up to overwhelming feelings that things look bleak. We see loss and danger around us, and we fear for the future. That is when our character is most tested. That is when we are called to continue to just put one foot in front of the other. There is no need to solve all our problems right away or to change the world immediately. Courage isn’t necessarily a feeling of confidence that we can triumph over all odds. It’s knowing that we can move ahead one step at a time, and it’s taking positive action in the face of our fears.
Each day we can do small things that are constructive. By these small things, we can place ourselves on the positive side of life’s equation. We can put our weight where we want to go. That is courage.
Today, in the face of my despair, I will focus my efforts on the side of my hopes and values.
This inspiration is from
Stepping Stones: More Daily Meditations for Men.
© 2005 by Hazelden Foundation. All rights reserved.
Quoted from the app Inspirations.
Find recovery resources at www.hazeldenbettyford.org.
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Day 976
3 weeks ago, my mother’s legs did not work, she has intense back pain for 1 month. We learned that lung cancer had metastasized to his spinal cord. She had emergency surgery. Radiotherapy started. I can say that we were shocked in this process. Now in the treatment process, I do not know what time will tell. She is a very strong woman, I hope she will find healing. This period is difficult, but I never thought of drinking. I focused on managing this process in the best way with all my being. 
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Day 18. It’s not shameful taking out recycling anymore 
. Just coffee, ice tea, and sparkling water bottles.
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Thats funny gegG…can totally relate
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Oh, that sounds awful. I hope she has a quick and painless recovery. Don’t forget to take care of yourself, too. Sending healing thoughts.
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Congratulations on 7 hard-fought months, mate!
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I’ve been sober for 71 days 
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Hey guys checking in Tuesday night. Had a decent day, we had a banquet tonight for one of the kids getting a certificate for something they did in school. It was nice, and the food was good so win win. Got a really long shift tomorrow so gonna be one of them days. Not much else. Have a great night guys
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Yup, and we have extra freezer, fridge and counter space too
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Your resilience, your honesty, your dedication and commitment to maintaining your recovery is a real inspiration beautiful lady. Your light shines bright here also, sending hugs and continued strength your way 
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tonight will be day 314 of no self harm
I got a gym membership, was getting my life together. then last Sunday I had horrible pain, found out I have gallstones. I don’t get to see a surgeon until may 2nd and thats just for a consultation, don’t even know if I’ll have surgery or when it would be. (probably weeks away since I had to wait 3 weeks just for a consult)
I’ve been miserable. main symptoms are
brain fog
have to pee all the time
constant headaches that border on migraine
anything I eat caues pain and I feel feverish after eating
so weak from not eating I can’t stand for more than a few minutes without dizziness
literally to weak to shower stranding, had to buy a shower chair
I could be eating more however I have an eating disorder called ARFID. avoidant restrictive food intake disorder. essentially I have a very limited range of safe foods and I am terrified of trying new foods. my diet consists of the foods a child would eat and it is almost all junk food. however fatty and Greasy foods aggravate gallbladder issues and that is most of my diet.
I’m absolutely miserable
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This all sounds awful snd I’m very sorry. Hope you have a proper diagnosis of the gallstones and that your problems aren’t from something else.
You have to have food and water. You need to be strong enough to shower.
I hope you have gotten or will get good guidance on how to deal with this between now and your appointment.
I’m sorry all this is been happening to you and I admire your fortitude in not hurting yourself, it sounds like you’re hurting plenty as it is.
I hope after you get this fixed up that you will be able to get yourself back to a happy place in your life. That’s my hope for you and my wish. I believe it can happen.
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hey guys checking in day 357 not a sip. cleared to go back to work which is awesome. legs feeling alright. marraige is down the shitter. Going to continue living healthy and being optimistic about the future. Thanks for being here! One year is in sight!
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Checking in with 49 days AF. Went golfing today - played like crap, one reason being my back started spasming. Then I did a beautiful late afternoon beach/cliff walk, and my back was screaming much of the time. Usually I push through, but tomorrow I won’t be getting up for an early spin class. Damnit I deserve a day off.
Take care all!
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I’m sorry to hear you have so much pain. Last year they have removed my gallbladder because of a big stone. I had to wait for the surgery for a very long time because of Covid. There was no space for the minor surgeries like mine was.
During the waiting they gave me painkillers I could use when pain was too hard. I also ate different to avoid pain. I think they can tell you all about it at your appointment at may 2th.
Try to avoid greasy food and things like chocolat, coffee ore other food that triggers the pain.
Hang on!
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#Day 1674 
Mixed feelings today. Having a conversation at work at 9 in the morning. The co worker is sick very often and I have to talk with her about it. They want to put my point of view in her file so maybe they can let her go if they have enough.
I did not shoot this conversation in. I think today is not a good time for it because the co worker her dad has big health issues right now. I would have chosen a time spot later, in calmer waters.
I can not do anything about it, but plan to express my thoughts about this on front went I start this meeting. There is a 3th person there as well, my manager (I’m assistent manager).
This things are not the things I like about my job.
But at 10 o clock it’s done and out of my chess.
Fingers crossed I’m happy with the result and my colleque still happy with me 
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thank you. they found the gallstones through a scan when I went to the ER last Sunday. my blood test came back normal Sunday as well. as far as I can tell my gallbladder is the only issue at the moment
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I asked about what I was meant to do in the meantime because I was miserable and they said that pretty much every surgeon in the area is booked. they gave me some anti nausea medicine but other than that they said they can’t do anything
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