Day 104. Bad back and shoulder pain. Made it hard to focus at work. I’ll have to finish up this weekend. I just can’t get comfortable.
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@Mno sorry about your dental issues, but glad you can afford the treatment.
@GenG congrats on your new PB 
@SoberWalker glad the conversation went well. Hope you enjoyed the cinema and managed to sleep after 
@liminal.rehab congrats on 50 days
@Noshame congrats on your week without Marijuana
@SobrietyForMe congrats on your week
@Fury Ouch! Sorry about your injuries, hope you heal well 🩵
@Jaythe1 welcome 
congrats on your days so far
@Binx welcome congrats on your days so far
@Sabrina80 congrats on double digits free from social media I hope you felt better after resting 🩵
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@Hesmyportion I use the Calm app for meditations. But I hear a lot of people here recommending Insight Timer. Meditation really helps me manage my mental health, so it’s definitely worth trying 🩵
@Bones_80 sorry you’re in pain still 
but congrats on 150 days
@Jeannie0915 welcome
@Liz22 congrats on 60 days
@Catmama23 I am still struggling with my identity, but I get a lot of peace from my restlessness from meditations and walks outside, and spending time here. There are other things I’d like to start doing again but I still haven’t managed to start them, things like journaling and colouring for example. With my addict voice, for some of my addictions, over time I’ve become able to roll my eyes at it, but early on I used to tell it ‘NO’ out loud, sometimes even in the mirror. I’m still struggling with the binge-eating demon, I haven’t tamed that one yet, but I know I will eventually.
@Dolse71 congrats on 31 months
@KarenKW I hope your pain settles down 🩵
984 days no alcohol.
449 days no cocaine.
71 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
I missed my check-in yesterday due to binge-eating, including a lot of sugary stuff, that lead to me falling asleep. I have been tired all day as a side effect, but didn’t want to miss another day, so I’m checking in now.
I haven’t binged today. I received my grocery delivery. I ordered a bunch of low-sugar ready meals, so that I have something to turn to when I am struggling with just shakes, or craving something savoury, instead of buying and eating crisps (chips) and risking buying all the stuff I shouldn’t be eating as well.
This evening I have been out for a meal with my auntie, uncle, and 2 of their friends, for my Auntie’s birthday, which is tomorrow. It was a nice meal and pleasant company. I did not join them when they went over the road to get a McFlurry each from McDonald’s, I walked home instead.
I have finished both of the series I’ve been watching, and I have decided to ban myself from watching TV in bed since I can’t seem to do so without eating crisps (chips). I will be doing more reading or listening to audiobooks instead. If I want to watch TV, I have to sit in my chair in the lounge, and watch TV on my actual TV, as I don’t eat crisps (chips) when I do that.
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21 Days/3 Weeks!
WhooHoo! I’m doing it! 
Day by day… 
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You ARE doing it @GenG !! Proud of you. Keep fighting the good fight and filling your sober toolbox
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Ya you are 
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@Cjp and @Dazercat Thanks so much guys! 
I really doubt I’d be here without all the support. I’m very grateful. 
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Huge congratulations on 3 weeks!!!
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Congratulations friend on 2 years and 7 months of sobriety! Always amazed by ur progress 
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Cheers, still freaks me out too 
we’re doing OK between us aren’t we
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You two
@Dolse71
@Butterflymoonwoman
Both amaze me. I wish everyone knew y’all’s story. You guys never gave up on yourselves.
You both kept getting knock down and you both kept getting right back up. Every time. Y’all got back up. I’m so proud of you guys.
Sorry to crash your little party there.
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Always got room for you Thanks for the shout out. I don’t believe we’ve tried any harder than anyone else but there’s definitely some truth in the saying Fall 100 times get up 101 
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Thank you!!!
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Awe thanks Eric! That means alot
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Day 0 
Hey everyone I’m back! 
I don’t know where to start. Just felt really lonely tonight and wanted to say hello.
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Checking in with 52 days AF. Grumpy day from only 1 hour of sleep last night. Insomnia sucks!!
Looking forward to a desert hike tomorrow, chasing waterfalls and wildflowers. And then Debussy and Mahler at the symphony. Should be a nice day, if sleep happens.
Take care all!
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Two weeks ago I had the best experience in therapy ever. Gave me the thought and the feeling that actually there’s a point to me going sober, to going in therapy, to work on myself, to make something of my life.
Last night the opposite happened. I never felt more alone, more isolated, more locked into myself than ever before. And no way out. Felt there’s no use to what I’m trying to do. WTF am I thinking that I can help myself. I’m 57 and been feeling like this since I don’t know. Three years old?
Last night I thought about drugging myself. Not really an attractive option anymore (so why am I here then?). I tried to escape in porn and sexual fantasies. I couldn’t because I’m learning better and better to see how my sexuality is just a reflection, an enlargement, and a focal point of how I feel about my life. And how sad that is.
I did sleep for a couple of hours so that’s something. And today I’ll work to get myself out of this total isolation I feel. I’m not quitting. But I’m f*cking tired. OK. One foot in front of the other. Five steps forward. Four back. And all that. Keep going. X
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Day 10
Checking in to stay sober today from:
- alcohol
- toxic relationships
- eating drama
Covid is getting better everyday, had a long rest tonight… The cough is still there and the nose is very dry. Will take a lot of care again today. Hope the taste gets back.
Just made my free writing routine, to have a positive view on myself and the world. Now laying down for a short meditation.
Much love 
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Mark…
Welcome back on board buddy.
If you need to spit something out, do it, no matter which order.
You are not that alone as the feeling makes you feel. We are here… What a rich start.
Big hug!
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Thank you ! I’ll check in properly here in a few hours. I’ve been binging “The Wilds” and it’s about nap time. But it’s great to be back; see you in the morning!
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