Wow this is interesting. I used to be that other yesterday man.
This also made me feel a little proud of myself too see how far I have come mentally and sober.
I’m going to need to get this book now.
Going to have to read your post so over again thank you 
I’m sorry to hear about your grandma 
Thinking of you 
Your correct your flat mate should be respecting the home you share and your wishes.
Hey all, checking in on day 1,014. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 175
After getting my bike I explored the city on wheels. I used to have a pretty bad opinion about the bike lanes in my town but…they’re fine! I was in the middle of traffic because some lanes are in the center of some bigger streets, in German we say “in’s kalte Wasser springen”, means: don’t think too much about it, jump right in.
I love it! We’ll see if I still love it after the 20km ride on monday 
I went to another grocery store this time, I didn’t use to go there often because it’s pretty far away. No problem any more with a bike now. It’s cheaper as the others near me too. Got sausages and a mixed salad 
No cravings today, very good mood, only a slight headache but this will pass.
Now: couch 
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
Day 956
Took kids to a karate training weekend so just me and the husband for two days. It is really weird. And quiet. He suggested lunch and a walk to view the cherry blossoms. Which was nice and I appreciate the suggestion. I often complain about the lack of conversation or quality time we have, but actually when we do have time together, I’m pretty awkward. To say how long we have been married, we are not used to being around each other just the two of us any more. It is like being on a first date with someone, but you anticipate all the annoying things about them. In the evening we watched a movie together. Literally years since we did this. So that was nice.
Checking in on Day 405
Have a wonderful day everyone!
I appreciate you Kevin! Thank you for the kind words!!
This right here is something i need to do in more ways than one. Funny how u knew lol I can let go of certain things but for the majority of things i hold on tight and fight. I feel like ive been “fighting” my whole life and i guess idk how to let go… especially that self judgment. Hugs friend. I needed to read this today Hope u have a great day!
A silver ring. That sounds interesting. I have made rings on my lathe and also by wrapping and glueing multiple laminates. Would love to see the finished product and a timeline of your project.
Day 3 no weed
Day 141 no alcohol
I just want to keep coming back because if I don’t I’d be done for
Picking up is never worth what you think it would
Stay strong
I will try, thank you. This is how far I came yesterday. Soldered it and now busy with the edges of the ring.
I am happy for you exploring a new perspective of freedom. I cannot imagine a life without a bike 
@Amy30 congrats on 70 days 
@Scorpn congrats on 80+ days SH-free and your other numbers of course the bed tent sounds really cool 
I’m happy to be “boring” with you 
@Mno sorry about the Anxiety attack hope you’ve been okay since 
957 days no alcohol.
422 days no cocaine.
44 days no vape.
3 days no binge-eating.
Didn’t get to sleep until 3:30am, woke at 8:30am, did my morning routine.
Went for my morning walk, then managed to hoover for the first time in way too long , so I’m very pleased about that, it’s like there’s one less grey cloud haunting me.
I managed to read another chapter of the book I started this week, only one chapter left now.
Had to wait in for a delivery this evening, was planning to do my PM walk early, before the delivery window, but I fell asleep and didn’t wake up in time, so I’m beating myself up over this a bit.
I’ve started to consider going into higher education in the realm of Psychology. I struggle to believe I could cope with it, since I always end up leaving things right up until the deadline, so I think I will try an Access course first, the one I’m looking into starts in September/October, and I’d need to apply by July. It feels like the next right thing to do in life. It would also give me a sense of purpose.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends. 
Day 77. Relaxing Saturday other than a bad headache. Tried to go walk at the nearby park this morning, but there were tons of trees down across the path. I tried to go around, but it became impossible. I hadn’t realized that last nights storms were that strong. I’ll try a different park tomorrow. Now making tacos for dinner.
Took my buddy jackson on 2 walks today. Im trying hard to get blood pressure down by not drinking of course…day 47…and exercise and eating better. Today is good.
Day 33. Much better experience at the AA meeting today. I realized much of my woes the past week have been me thinking about what I want and getting upset when the universe has other plans. A very ego-centric mindset. I feel like some parts of me need to be built up while others need to be broken down. There is nothing so healing and powerful as a group of folks in recovery coming together in person. There is an energy that is unlike much else I’ve experienced at least for the last few years. Anyway I was grateful for that. I picked this 4pm Saturday meeting because that’s normally the time I would be having the first of many, many drinks for the evening.
Other than that, went to a bookstore (love the smell of bookstores) for some new quit lit & fiction… I can enjoy this hobby now that I’m not drinking myself to death. Happy Saturday everyone 
Loved this reflection of needing to build parts of myself up while breaking parts of myself down. AA definitely helped me do this one day at a time. A process of both learning and unlearning. Seriously bada$$ reflection there, 
mama!
Checking in after a busy & lovely day, albeit snowy & blustery. Horses all had their dinners and are blanketed so they stay cozy. When I was driving down through southern Colorado into New Mexico yesterday I saw 2 herds of wild horses, probably 20 or so all together, and one very young adorable foal (it’s actually an area called Wild Horse Mesa). It amazes me how they survive but they do. Anyway, my dogs & I are also fed & cozy lol. I had some fleeting thoughts that a tequila (or 4 in reality) would be nice but I overrode them by choosing a good night’s sleep and how good I’m feeling. The altitude isn’t even bothering me. I hope everyone has a good night.
Wild horses…that’s really cool. Good job on playing the reel forward and not drinking.
