Thank you kindly
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Day 27,
Just checking in today.
Have a great day yāall
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I had no idea he had multiple books!! Iāll keep an eye out, Thankyou 
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Day 
A little hangovered at work. With new truck. Having theese thoughts to mix 100g vodka into orange juice on 1hour lunch break to get my fixā¦ and wait wait wait wait waaaait a minute?!!
-How under he blue sky I got to this point here?! When I missed something?
No no no no no, I push stop pedal here, pack my tools and get back on track immediately!
Will do second check in today later to make sure I am on right path.
All in all, everything changed a lot since Friday. I was so stressed that a lot of workers will be fired - did not happened.
I cried so much about going to work for 12 hours with only 30 minutes lunch break - well, got new objects to work on / having 1 hour break now / starting job at 8:00 leaving on 17:00
Whatās more, got a new truck for now. After little practice it runs and drives so smooth that my last truck reminds me a tank driving now. Compared to last one - it is basically an Office job. I mean everything is 10/10
ā¦and the only thing that feels like pushing break pedal instead of acceleration here is my love to beerā¦ well that later evolves into strong spirits somehow and into total rock-bottomās time to time laterā¦
I donāt need philosophy here, meditate on this or else, at this point it is totally cereblar and rational - I donāt need this.
My new credo 
Thank You I do not drink.
Alcohol is Poison.
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363 days booze free.
Iām thinking I need to start another counter up, Iāve had a bit of a slip in another area of my life that Iām not proud of. Iām going to make an appointment to see a psych this week.
Addiction and trauma are weird and unpredictable things. I know I have a good grip on my cravings for alcohol at the moment, but I could feel my stress and emotions getting out of my control lately, and Iāve fallen to an old coping mechanism that I havenāt in a long time. And itās stirred up a lot of memories of the big shitty things that happened over the last decade and how I coped with them.
Anyways, thanks for listening. Iām happy I havenāt had a drink, but I also need help. Iām still struggling, I didnāt want to say anything here too but I feel like you guys help me immensely so Iād put it out there.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,017. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Welcome back!
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Apparently something has shiftedā¦ I woke briefly in the night and said, god i love being sober 
I do practice cementing that into my subconscious as I drift off to sleep so looks like itās taking. Shifting my view from alcohol being a friend, to a joy sucking poison has certainly helped too. Off to feed the horses breakfast then attend my morning Tempest call. Supposed to be a sunny, warmer day here so will enjoy that. Love to all of you 
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Checking in day 205! Going to get to the gym before work, and then doing dinner with a friend for his birthday after. Should be a pretty good day- been a couple days without the gym so that will feel good.
Going to evaluate where to cut something from my life soon. Between a full time, part time, and on call job, I feel like Iām always in work mode. Itās protective in some ways as Iām steadily busy, but Iām also finding it hard to have restorative time. Just a thought I wanted to put in writing.
Hope you all have a terrific sober Tuesday 
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Ooohhhh look at those numbers!!
Sorry to hear about your struggles lovely! But itās a brave step to acknoweldge it and do something about it and seek some support, I hope you feel proud of that!
Personally, I was an emotional mess still in my first year, I think I spent the majority of that time focusing simply on not picking up that first drink, kept conveniently pushing away or dismissing things from my past but they have a pesky way of still lingering and building up in the background. Maybe now, with some more stability in your sobriety, you have the strength and resilience to deal with the past trauma you touched on * sending hugs *.
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Checking in on Day 408
Have a great day addiction free day everyone!
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This is a huge milestone, more so than any day count milestone in my opinion. Latch on to that freedom of being a non-drinker. At around 100 days, I went from āI canāt drink again everā to āI never have to drink that toxic crap again, and now I can be open to receive all of the exciting opportunities that living sober has to offer.ā Itās a light-switch moment that comes through dedication to oneās recovery. Iām over the moon thrilled for you.
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Thank you so much for your support, thatās very encouraging and helpful to hear
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Day 171. Almost made it to 6 months! And yet Iād love to get drunk after work tonight.
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Day 1.50 no weed
Day 144.50 no alcohol
I slept amazing lastnight
I know Iām only on day 1.50 no weed but I do believe weed will stay in my past. My last weed high was so bad that not only was I uncomfortable but I made the whole room awkward. Weed makes me so so weak a small wind can blow me over.
One day at a time is good and Iāll stick with that
Stay strong
Substance suck
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Day 49 AF
Setting in the worlds most boring presentation. I can see why most of these people drink.
I am thankful that I am sober. 
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Remember why u quit in the first place friend. Dont let that sneaky addictive voice have that kind of power of u. Focus on 1 min at a time if u have to but just get to bed sober tonight. This craving will pass 
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Day 178
It was a good day 
I found some glutenfree sweets that Iām happily munching right now hehe. Not everything I bought but some. That will help me tomorrow not to eat sweets at work that give me a bloated belly.
No biking today, but I think Thursday Iāll bike to work again. Temperatures are rising 
Now Iām watching some mystery on YouTube and after that Iāll have a bath.
I continue having ginger shots. Still no cravings for alcohol. I enjoy that. But I wonāt forget. The monster is there, every minute of every day.
Iām watching you little one. Not again.
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Late evening check in. Sharing what I saw today. 6:30 am at Amsterdam Amstel station - where I commute from. Outside a guy huffing and puffing and coughing and choking and finishing a joint before entering the station.
On the platform a guy dragging on a cigarette like his life depends on it - it does, but in exactly the opposite way -, while the train he has to catch pulls into the station.
6:55 am, The big hall in Utrecht Centraal station, where I transfer from train to rentbike to get to work, 2 men sharing a bottle of wine, the early morning commuters acting like they donāt notice.
10:00 am At work, 3 out of the 4 admissions to the detox today are re-admissions who were here before within the last month. All relapsed.
Just a normal working day. So bloody glad Iām sober and clean today. One day at a time. Never going back. Whatever lies alcohol or any other drug tells you it is never worth it. Have a good night all. Love from my balcony.
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Day 
Welp, did not drinked nor at work, nor after work. Drinked lots of fluids, beat the hangovers and ended up at gym. Canāt say I beat hangovers 100% prob 95.5% because feeling bit weaklish after workout. Think that 4.5% beat me up this time a little. Bringing my todays evening āSurvival Kitā
and call it a day 
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