It’s some days you are writing you need to rest, you seem to have physical symptoms (skin, hunger, exhaustion), yet you keep pushing and pushing him further and further. It needs to function. And then a craving hits.
I hope that you will find a way to listen to your body and soul. They are wise.
This belongs in the meme thread, but i cant find it right now for whatever reason.
Sending love and strength to everyone struggling.
You can make it through! 
day 191 AF
This week has been amazing and nothing short of living life, road trips and beaches, great coffee, seeing friends and family.
Paying respect to those who have past and showing my wife where my people come from, being Māori and being able to come “home” is nothing short of amazing to me.
Good job staying sober!
#Day 1653 
Tired. Long day at work ahead. Co worker starts late so have much alone time and new stock arrives. But I manage, I always do.
Sometimes I wish it didn’t 
I’m the kind of person who is never sick, always work, never says no to work. But sometimes I wish I wasn’t, does that make sound?
Makes completely sense to me. I am the same. Which now brought me in the situation to pack my stuff into boxes again and move to southern France for 12 weeks which I should have said no to 3 weeks ago.
Awwwww 
What can I say? The weather is nice there 
Sorry, just popped up in my mind.
Are you going alone?
Saying no is so hard to do. For me saying no feels like a failure
Hope it ends up being one of your best life experiences, if not work wise, then being there for a beautiful spring going in to summer… getting to smell the lavender and the Grasse. I have US friends who moved to Aix last summer after living in many countries including Germany and Finland. They are SO Happy and enjoying it so much. I hope you will too. Fingers crossed you will. Big hugs for you.
Ha, yeah, that’s why I said to myself: tell you are going to Nord Pas de Calais or somewhere else people don’t think of summer. But it’s useless to explain my stress level anymore. Did it. And it always ends in ahhh such a beautiful place.
But first things first: going down there by car which will be a challenge in itself for me alone.
I shut up now 
move on an maybe I learnt something for the future.
Thank, I will arrange myself there. I always do. Always will. 
I have some idea of your stress level, and certainly can understand it. One step at a time. Also about being uncomfortable driving down there. Maybe you can find somebody to drive with you down there and send them back on a fast train. 
Reminds me of a song, I’m laughing.
You are not alone in all this in any case.
No, won’t be possible as I am alone here. And fast train 
thank you. This made me laugh
I’m glad I’m strong in my sobriety or otherwise the train situation near me would do me in.
At least they’re running.
A friend took one last week that she could’ve driven the car instead in 3 hr 30 min. The train was going to take a few hours longer. She wanted to give some children a train “experience”.
Something happened and it took 12 hours. Not only that the next day she had the two small children with her and it took another 12 hours to get back, even after the train put a bunch of them on a bus. These aren’t the bullet trains like over there. 
Day 3 we keep moving forward hope everyone is well 
325, checking in.
Ugg happy Wednesday. 4AM and im up in pain. I am the proud owner of what appears to be a sinus infection.
Today was a real struggle. Attended the funeral of a friend and caught up with some friends I hadn’t seen in years. Was glad no one, including myself wanted to continue on to the pub afterwards as I was feeling vulnerable.
Hit 30 days today.
Sending strength. 
I know resetting and feeling shitty and scared is awful. Indeed, if you keep drinking things will get worse. Time to put the brakes on. You deserve a sober life. One free of intrusive thoughts and shame and wasted time and money. You can do it.
Day 172. Made it to bed sober last night. My cravings passed after a while.
Hope you are all doing as good as you can.
One day at a time.
