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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Still cold but at least some sun around. And just like @Alycia a three days work week and then I’m off, for two weeks even!
Still cold but at least some sun around. And just like @Alycia a three days work week and then I’m off, for two weeks even!
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Feeling conflicted,
Good news, I dropped dead weight and started making progress on my own life, and it’s blooming.
I’m still grinding out wrenching, making some serious output, I was the highest flagged hours for a tech In the whole company last week, I can do it, I just rather it be a stop gap vs the rest of my life
I auditioned for a local band who’s quite popular here, on the short list for some serious music festivals, and they loved me, asked me about material, I wrote and I pulled out something I wrote about an ex girlfriend, won’t post here it could be triggering for some. But they loved it. So that’s kinda cool
Got plenty of shows coming up and possibly a twice a month at a regular place almost like a house band plus some dates in between, going to a concert Tuesday with a old coworker, Bikini Kill I think? I forget but she told me, guess ill find out when I get there.
I got a solo thing coming up this weekend by total fluke, A lady I knew when I lived in Pa recognized my FB and stage name from another band we both follow, we got to chatting she didn’t know me and Jesse seperated and that I was in Va, we got to catching up, she offered a spot to do 5 or so songs at a place there, then drops this bombshell on me that I can just crash her place and that she had the hugest crush on me for the longest time, which I see where this is going, come home with me, kinda thing, not that she’s not attractive, she’s beautiful, I just don’t want the drama conflict #1
Conflict #2 I’m on a industry website for “for hire” musicians, and I was approached by a Christian Rock label. Kinda local, they have a artist they been promoting who’s moving up the ranks, good music, Great vibe, and they want me to sign with them, I even talked with the artist on the phone really nice guy we vibed well, but I was very straightforward that I am an atheist, They didn’t seem to care, I’m all about playing for pay, and hitting big festivals but how can I play this music for a crowd knowing I don’t believe a word of it.
The secret society of soccer moms willing to send you packing, with a juice box and fruit snacks is legit, if only knew that like 5 years ago when I was young and stupid lol
Beware of unintended consequences I guess?
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Awe thanks lady! hugs proud of you too!!
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Day 26
Hey all. Just a quick check-in since I haven’t updated in the last couple of days. Nothing much really to talk about. I did make an appointment on Friday to see a therapist (this coming Tuesday) and for some reason I’m really nervous about it. I’ve waited for this a really long time and I don’t know why I’m so anxious. She asked me on the phone to describe my situation in a nutshell, and everything I’d rehearsed just evaporated in my mind. 
I’ll let you know how it goes. Have a great sober night, all! 
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Congrats on all that’s going well in your life friend. As to #1 and #2: I feel I read the answers in what you write. Follow your heart. 
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#Day 1658 
Slept very bad, but have to go to work.
Made a walk yesterday to capture my “every day tree”
Have a good day all of you!
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Checking in Day 50
Up early today for a singletrack trail ride :" the enjoying mind is like this "
( and with a good friend to share with)
Quite a bit of effort to load up the truck , prepare and drive to forest ( being wasted this would be near impossible to accomplish). Fun was had and plan for more mindful moments like these.
For what it’s worth I asked the bike dealership for help with the bike and they came through and this was on April fools day to boot.
This old fool can still accept a joke or two I hope 
‘Group unity before personal recovery’ - Emotions Anon
Have a great week friends 
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Checking in the morning of day 338.
I’ve feeling very out of sorts this morning. I’m just back from dropping the kids off across town for a birthday party. They were to be there for 8am and I had planned the journey using public transport. Our bus didn’t show so we were a bit late and my daughter gets a bit upset about these things. Then I realised I’d forgotten her swim suit! The family had one extra, so everything is going to be fine, but the feelings that have been stirred up in me are something else. I almost feel like I’m going to be sick, and I’m close to tears.
I’m home now, and starting to level out.
My parents are staying overnight as my mum has a medical procedure in town this evening. I have some housework to do ahead of them arriving.
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Checking in on day 8 only a 4 day working week this week looking forward to a long weekend hope everyone is well staying sober one day at a time 
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Big hugs and good thoughts my friend… understandable that you are a little rattled with company coming or already there( cant see the post while replying to it) . Sorry the day started out discombobulated .
Hold yourself strong, do good for you things, that self care that is ever so important.
Editing to add. If you continue to feel really “different” or “strange” then consider getting checked out.
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Thanks so much Alisa. I’m already feeling a bit better, I had a lie down on my acupressure mat.
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Day 1611.
I arrived at the residence. Asking myself if my boss would stay one night here. Anyhow. Need to drop of the car in Nizza and find my way back here. It’s an area I am a bit scared to go by bike but I’ll figure it out.
Thank you all for reading, scrolling by or listening.
I am grateful I don’t have to fight a hangover in addition to all of this.
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Day 
for me
Past few weeks have been pretty rough tbh, mh issues have been flaring up, fell out with a friend, my auntie died, feeling like im stuck and not making any progress - still didn’t drink though - so i guess that’s progress in itself right??
Confident ill make it to One Year this time!
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Day 1,025 clean and sober today. So… yeah I have a lot of time to pursue many things including writing music, recording new songs, painting, drawing, writing but the thing that’s stumping me is that I just haven’t had the drive to do any of those things for a long time now. I’m chalking it up to processing sadness etc but I’m hoping it will pass sooner then later. I’m not into paying a therapist $55/hr to tell me what I already know (she literally told me what I already knew) so here I is. @Apollo_666 i remember you asking about music etc awhile back and yeah bro it really helps me as well I am just having a hard time getting started again, like I have no passion. Maybe the key is to just do it and let the passion come in time idk. Anyway I’m proud of you all and hope you have a kick ass day today. Love you guys 
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Checking in on day 3. I hadnt slept well day 1 and 2 but I finally got some sleep last night. I went to another meeting, plan to go again tonight. Im so grateful for the wonderful people and fellowship in meetings and here. I’ve been in therapy for a year now, I’ve never admitted my addiction to my counselor as I’ve been so ashamed, this morning I will come clean to him as well. I’m terrified. But I know I should have been honest a long time ago. I pray God holds my hand today.
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Thank you cjp.
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Day 307. Livin in a half way house be like. Whoa, were half way there whoa oh, livin’ on a prayer livin’ on a prayer. I hope some of you sang that as you read it lol. Idk I thought it was goofy. But all is well, got a tattoo to do today so I’ll be posting that after, little nervous about this piece but I know with confidence I’ll be ok. Man it’s wild 2 more months I’ll have a year in recovery. I feel peace this time around. Much love everyone
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LOL, I definitely sang that in my head as I read it!
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,023. I hope everybody has a good one!
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