Awe thanks lady! hugs proud of you too!!
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Day 26
Hey all. Just a quick check-in since I havenāt updated in the last couple of days. Nothing much really to talk about. I did make an appointment on Friday to see a therapist (this coming Tuesday) and for some reason Iām really nervous about it. Iāve waited for this a really long time and I donāt know why Iām so anxious. She asked me on the phone to describe my situation in a nutshell, and everything Iād rehearsed just evaporated in my mind. 
Iāll let you know how it goes. Have a great sober night, all! 
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Congrats on all thatās going well in your life friend. As to #1 and #2: I feel I read the answers in what you write. Follow your heart. 
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#Day 1658 
Slept very bad, but have to go to work.
Made a walk yesterday to capture my āevery day treeā
Have a good day all of you!
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Checking in Day 50
Up early today for a singletrack trail ride :" the enjoying mind is like this "
( and with a good friend to share with)
Quite a bit of effort to load up the truck , prepare and drive to forest ( being wasted this would be near impossible to accomplish). Fun was had and plan for more mindful moments like these.
For what itās worth I asked the bike dealership for help with the bike and they came through and this was on April fools day to boot.
This old fool can still accept a joke or two I hope 
āGroup unity before personal recoveryā - Emotions Anon
Have a great week friends 
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Checking in the morning of day 338.
Iāve feeling very out of sorts this morning. Iām just back from dropping the kids off across town for a birthday party. They were to be there for 8am and I had planned the journey using public transport. Our bus didnāt show so we were a bit late and my daughter gets a bit upset about these things. Then I realised Iād forgotten her swim suit! The family had one extra, so everything is going to be fine, but the feelings that have been stirred up in me are something else. I almost feel like Iām going to be sick, and Iām close to tears.
Iām home now, and starting to level out.
My parents are staying overnight as my mum has a medical procedure in town this evening. I have some housework to do ahead of them arriving.
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Checking in on day 8 only a 4 day working week this week looking forward to a long weekend hope everyone is well staying sober one day at a time 
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Big hugs and good thoughts my friendā¦ understandable that you are a little rattled with company coming or already there( cant see the post while replying to it) . Sorry the day started out discombobulated .
Hold yourself strong, do good for you things, that self care that is ever so important.
Editing to add. If you continue to feel really ādifferentā or āstrangeā then consider getting checked out.
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Thanks so much Alisa. Iām already feeling a bit better, I had a lie down on my acupressure mat.
X
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Day 1611.
I arrived at the residence. Asking myself if my boss would stay one night here. Anyhow. Need to drop of the car in Nizza and find my way back here. Itās an area I am a bit scared to go by bike but Iāll figure it out.
Thank you all for reading, scrolling by or listening.
I am grateful I donāt have to fight a hangover in addition to all of this.
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Day 
for me
Past few weeks have been pretty rough tbh, mh issues have been flaring up, fell out with a friend, my auntie died, feeling like im stuck and not making any progress - still didnāt drink though - so i guess thatās progress in itself right??
Confident ill make it to One Year this time!
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Day 1,025 clean and sober today. Soā¦ yeah I have a lot of time to pursue many things including writing music, recording new songs, painting, drawing, writing but the thing thatās stumping me is that I just havenāt had the drive to do any of those things for a long time now. Iām chalking it up to processing sadness etc but Iām hoping it will pass sooner then later. Iām not into paying a therapist $55/hr to tell me what I already know (she literally told me what I already knew) so here I is. @Apollo_666 i remember you asking about music etc awhile back and yeah bro it really helps me as well I am just having a hard time getting started again, like I have no passion. Maybe the key is to just do it and let the passion come in time idk. Anyway Iām proud of you all and hope you have a kick ass day today. Love you guys 
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Checking in on day 3. I hadnt slept well day 1 and 2 but I finally got some sleep last night. I went to another meeting, plan to go again tonight. Im so grateful for the wonderful people and fellowship in meetings and here. Iāve been in therapy for a year now, Iāve never admitted my addiction to my counselor as Iāve been so ashamed, this morning I will come clean to him as well. Iām terrified. But I know I should have been honest a long time ago. I pray God holds my hand today.
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Thank you cjp.
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Day 307. Livin in a half way house be like. Whoa, were half way there whoa oh, livinā on a prayer livinā on a prayer. I hope some of you sang that as you read it lol. Idk I thought it was goofy. But all is well, got a tattoo to do today so Iāll be posting that after, little nervous about this piece but I know with confidence Iāll be ok. Man itās wild 2 more months Iāll have a year in recovery. I feel peace this time around. Much love everyone
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LOL, I definitely sang that in my head as I read it!
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,023. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Yep sang it lol @anon53116147 you are puttingbin the work and seeing the fruits of your efforts
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41 days AF. Had a VERY vivid drinking dream last night as so many of us do. I was so upset that I had ruined my sobriety. I was at a party and left crying thinking how Iād have to reset my sobriety date and my therapist would be so disappointed. The relief when you wake up and realize itās not true is overwhelming. I say to myself, āit wasnāt real, it wasnāt real!ā
Yesterday was the first Sunday in a while I havenāt totally dreaded the upcoming week. Not because anything about my toxic job has gotten better, but because Iām learning to let go of how things āshould beā and walking that line of what I can vs canāt control. It was a beautiful day finally, had a long walk in the morning, then a delicious lunch at a Thai food restaurant, then some errands and watching the womenās college basketball championship game. Then early to bed for some reading.
Our couch is in the repair shop for a week (the frame was apparently damaged when we got it and it snapped), so weāve been using an air mattress. Our cat Smokey has been enjoying it 
wishing everyone a good start to the week. I relate to thoughts in your updates of health worries (I have a big phobia of going to the doctor) and anxiety about passion projects (not sure where to start and motivational issues). Iām starting with some coloring like a child, but I find it relaxing and can pop on a sobriety podcast while doing it.
Here is the Smokey pic languishing on the air mattress
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