Man that’s awesome super awesome actually congrats on your soberity For sure!!!
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Checking in day 55 sober.
Today was an emotional roller coaster.
At 9am we had a routine scheduled company meeting and the CEO informed us that they are closing our business down on 6/30. We have 90 days of employment left.
Most of my entire team left the meeting at 9:20am and went straight to a bar and were all calling me around 3pm totally shitfaced.
I didn’t go to a bar. Actually the thought never occurred to me. I called two of my best friends and accountability partners and told them. Called my dad next to let him know.
Drove home to tell my wife face to face. She handled it like a champ.
Went to AA tonight for my regular Monday evening meeting and told my sponsor beforehand.
I am up and down emotionally but I want to be sober. Nothing good has ever came from me drinking and I know that. With that being said, I don’t like dealing with my emotions. Alcohol did turn them off…… sober emotions suck
Thank you all for being here and allowing me to see into your struggles and your victories! I have never been able to stay sober and didn’t know hunk I could honestly. It was this group after days and days of coming back that convinced me that I could be sober.
Thank you!
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Checking in with 34 days AF. Fun day skiing today. Now I’m watching NCAA basketball and not being happy. Yet? The Sleepy Time tea will hopefully keep me calm. Maybe I’ll get more than an hour-stretch of sleep tonight🙄
Take care all!
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Oof sorry to hear that. 
Think of it this way, being sober in a situation like this is will give you the best outcome possible.
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Great news, so glad you’re out of the depression!
Good luck and congrats finding a sponsor.
God speed to you Crystal!
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I’m glad your first day at your new job went well @Lola 
@CueBall8n9 that must be such a difficult day, but you stayed strong and handeled it the best you could. Respect, you did great despide the circumstances. Hope you will find a new job soon.
@CATMANCAM what do you meen with the real food? What are you eating on a good day? Mealreplacements? Just to understand your story a bit 
@Jwfletcher4792 congratulations with your 3 months milestone!! 
#Day 1659 
Going to a beauty therapist for the first time in like 15 years ore so. Decided a few weeks ago I deserved to have such “me time”
After that I have to work. Hope my face looks normal by then and not too red
Picture from my latest walk. Going to the beauty salon by feet as well.
Have a good day/night all!
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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Everybody loves the sunshine! Especially when it has been MIA for so long. Today I’m off, two early shifts after, and then my holidays are here! X
@CueBall8n9 Sorry for the bad news, congrats on handling it like you did friend. You’re so right in knowing drinking wouldn’t help one bit.
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Day 9 checking in 
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day 197 AF
We got home Thursday and on Friday went to see
Cypress Hill and Icecube it was hella amazing crowd was very random and full of alot of different gangs from here but all were behaved.
Still didnt drink, anxiety of being in a big crowd was high but still not enough to push that button, caught up with a few sober friends there too which helped.
Been at work 2 days and its been full, my poor wifey has covid after being away so trying to work full days and tend to her after work as much as i can.
Kepp on truckin team!
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That is a test and a half, and you did great to handle it the way you did. Your sober self is much better equipped to handle this situation. 
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Checking in on day 339.
I’m so glad that yesterday morning’s overwhelming feelings dissipated over the course of the day. I listened to energetic music with my headphones and power walked home, cried a bit and lay on my acupressure mat. Then I tidied the flat, and it went really smoothly. Each room I found myself in, I’d do what had to be done, rather than finding myself standing in a room trying to figure out what I had been doing. It felt good.
Part of it was acknowledging the strength of the emotions and not trying to mute them or pretend they weren’t there. This is kinda new for me as a person who relied on switching off with alcohol regularly (every day) I think another worry for me is that the strong emotions echo the feelings I had when I had psychotic episodes, so there is a fear that is happening again.
My parents have headed home already this morning but I have to say, they were easy to deal with last night. My mum was a bit cagey at first, her body language was “terrified”, but my dad asked if it was ok if they had a drink in front of me, and I’m fine with that. It’s secret drinking and drunkenness that I feel uncomfortable with.
When I woke this morning I had a headache and my body felt quite achy but now that I’ve had some coffee I’m feeling much better. Plus, it’s a lovely sunny morning.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,024. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Im so sorry about the job closing. Try to look at the positive like you didnt just get 1 day notice. You have time to brush up your resume and apply elsewhere.
Stick with your sobriety and everything will fall into place if you work at it.
Ps. Thats awesome that you have your wifes support.
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Day 2
Well feels good i unfortunately have had many day 2’s. I always feel like I don’t put effort into it. This time I feel different. I want it so much and if I drink any more I’ll need a new size in pants I REFUSE to do that. Might sound silly but hey. I love waking up energized and getting stuff done. Drinking I don’t get anything done and feel like shit.
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Day 34,
Well I’m dating again after separating from my ex two years ago and after 6 months of “strategic celibacy” (ask me about it). I feel ready and equipped with the confidence that only comes from knowing myself. I’m lining up my options and from an initial look through, they look promising. Or at least appetizing. Tomorrow we slurp some delicious Szechuan noodles. If he offers to pay, I will graciously accept; my time and company is valuable.
Happy sober spring tidings
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Day 966
Had a few days of feeling bleak and teary, but seem to have perked up. Am going to try and be good about logging moods into the journal to see patterns. I am happy eating has been better the last week or so and have also been jogging again. I would like to lose weight before the summer, but don’t want to get back on the binge - starve - binge cycle so will focus on meaningful eating more than anything. Back to work from tomorrow. My schedule is the busiest it has been since having kids. It is ironic I used to work far less, but blamed the stress of work for my drinking. Think I got it the wrong way round.
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Okay I will ask. 
Please tell us more about this Strategic Celibacy
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Hello all,
Checking in on Day 1,711.
God Bless!
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I’m checking in. Day 178. Coming close to six months.
Although I’ve had some boughts with anger and rage over the past week, I didn’t crave. I didn’t lust. Had some fantasy that I’ve been shutting down quickly. Milestones have always been tough. I think this is the first milestone period in which my toxicity level has stayed at 4 or lower. I attribute that to doing a better job at keeping custody of my eyes throughout the day. I’m getting really good at not giving myself permission to glance at other women outside of my circle. And when I choose to make good decisions in those small areas, it makes it a lot easier to make those decisions to not lust when I’m on my phone.
I’m loving sobriety a lot more. This has been such a long journey. I’ve learned and transformed a lot. I’m feeling stable in sobriety. My marriage is restored. I understand. Everything makes sense. I’m not sure what more there is to learn. Now it’s coming to simply applying what I know and learned. And it’s working.
It’s always been encouraging watching everyone grow. Getting sober. Winning over their DOC’s. It’s not something I see a lot in my circles. So it makes me very grateful for TS. Anyways, wishing everyone a happy sober Tuesday.
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