Have a good Easter all. Pic is the managers at work handing out easter eggs yesterday. As far as managers go they’re pretty cool.
My holidays started yay! Will travel next Thursday, but I’ll have some down time at home first. And very first double therapy day today. x @Becsta You made me cry in the train back home yesterday friend. Both happy and sad tears. Love ya sober sister. @Minatasha Looks like a solid plan friend. Have a good one. @SoberWalker Enjoy your (not so big) surprise weekend Claudia! Ardennes or Ardeche? Both are lovely
Day 0. Feeling down and just acted out with PMO. I am not feeling great right now. Had a hard day emotionally and I cracked. I can’t rely on myself. I have to rely on God. I just came off of 4 month of sobriety. That was an excelent 4 months. I am trying to not fall into the spiral of shame right now. Gotta keep my peace get back up, move forward and not look back. I hope to get some sleep tonight. Call my sponsor tomorrow morning and check in with him. Gotta keep going.
Day 12 checking in be going to a meeting tonight to share about my relapse hopefully it helps someone else from making the same mistakes hope everyone is well
@Butterflymoonwoman sorry for your loss @SoberWalker enjoy your surprise holiday! love the photo @Seb those are really cool photos @mrtda1221 congrats on 2+ weeks @Lezourez bless you I really hope your pain has improved by now @MooseTracks I hope you feel better soon congrats on 7 months @mx_elle welcome back I love your new profile image @SGC1522 congrats on 90 days @Mno enjoy your vacation @Fury I’m glad you had Ashley, and I’m glad you’re still here
@EFountains congrats on 7 months @onthewagon31 I hope you heal quickly @Dan.h84 welcome back @Lonzo2222 welcome @zzz I’m pleased things are looking up congrats on double digits @Dmcg1987 congrats on double digits @Catmama23 I hope the right job comes along for you soon sending strength @Becsta thank you for sharing congrats on 5 years of freedom and rescuing yourself and your children from abuse @Hesmyportion welcome back @Minatasha congrats on double digits
969 days no alcohol.
434 days no cocaine.
56 days no vape.
30 days no energy drinks.
15 days no crisps (chips).
4 days no binge-eating.
Typed this last night but fell asleep during my catching-up…
Seems I missed a check-in yesterday. I’ve only just figured out why. I still have my bad UTI symptoms so I called my doctors again, then waited all day for the callback. My regular doctor phoned me around 15:30 and prescribed the anti-biotics that finally cleared the mega bad UTI I had for 3 months last year, all good, the pharmacy didn’t have them in stock so I went for a nap and didn’t wake up until dark. I can’t remember doing anything else after that so I must have fed my cats, taken my meds, and fallen back to sleep.
Now it’s today. I had my shot and blood tests first thing, then when for a haircut, then collected my meds and came home. I was out all morning. Since then, I’ve done both walks, even though I really struggled to get myself out for my 2nd one, it took me avoiding it, then getting angry that I couldn’t do it, then the anger fueled me to get it done. Now, I have a bad migraine and feel really nauseous, but wanted to catch up here before I try to sleep.
Today, I’ve done my morning routine, caught up here, and it’s soon time for my morning walk, and hopefully, a well-overdue shower
The sun is shining, the birds are singing (not really, I’m by a busy main road so engines are all I can hear) and it’s a beautiful day to be sober. Just heading to the coworking spot to make some magic happen (read: earn my keep), but thought I’d check in here first (read: procrastinate).
I’ve been using this gas pump image since I saw you mention it in another post recently and it has been so helpful!!!
I came home from a meeting last week and my partner (who, yes, works in the liquor industry and gets beer samples) had had a couple beers while I was out (otherwise abstaining drinking while I’m in early recovery). I could immediately sense the shift in her personality, she was much sillier, her cheeks were flushed, and the smell, oh the smell! I laugh at all those times I thought I was being sneaky and how I must have reeked of alcohol.
Anyway I have some anxiety about how this will work in the future but just focusing on me right now and ODATT. And going to keep using that gas pump mental image!!
love the photo 
congrats on 7 months 
I love your new profile image 
