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Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Even though the weather is shitty, bringing my 
here was such a great idea 
. By far the best way to explore and see Berlin is by bike.
Yesterday was great, despite the 
. And so will be today. Without booze or drugs. X
Day 15. Early morning I woke up and couldnāt stop thinking about mimosas and how much āfunā I had starting Saturday with one drinkā¦two drinksā¦a bottleā¦two bottles. Yeah right Genevieveā¦
Then, I remembered all the shameful 7AM purchases of sparkling wine Iāve made over the years, because I thought I wouldnāt be judged as harshly buying champagne versus what I would have preferredā¦beer. Not to mention how this would lead to all day drinking and me passing out in the middle of the day and waking up feeling all nasty. Not getting anything productive done. Ugh. Makes me feel like yuck just thinking about itā¦
. I donāt ever want to go back to that. Thankfully, I fell back to sleep and woke up without cravings and drank coffee. One more sober day down! I am very grateful 
.
This is such a beautiful thing, Iām so glad we all are here on journeys together. This really is like my second home 
and Iām sure it is for so many of us.
I couldnāt imagine my recovery without all of you guys in it 
Hope you managed to fall asleep and are sleeping right now, Iām so glad your here with us, to me we are like one big family and I feel there is love here between us all too 
your doing amazing 
Cravings mentally suck.
The way my mind makes out itās going to be some really cool, fun experience. Hopefully I have learnt my lesson by now that itās an illusion I tell myself.
I was craving really bad the other day, the weather didnāt help as it was like the āperfectā day for it - in my mind.
Then on my phone popped up 3 years ago today and it was well ā¦ A picture of me I took the morning I woke up with my nose almost broken, bruised and cuts all over my face and body and all I remeber is I either fell crossing the road or got hit by a car. Iām sure it was a car and I just donāt want to believe so.
I drank at home and I always tell myself ahh you didnāt have accidents or get hurt etcā¦ then I have to remind myself that the stateās I got into that the only reason I was safe was because I was in my room. The times I wasnāt stuff did happen I just minimise those, naturally.
It was what I needed to remind me how bad things actually were for me. Although this only happened once what else has my mind blocked out or that Iv in my head made not as bad as it was.
This summer is already showing to be difficult for me and it hasnāt even started. I think I need to write down these experiences I donāt like to remember and how they made me feel then, and now.
Thank you for your post as reading it has given me the idea to remind myself and write it down. A new tool for my tool box as I feel in my heart this summer I needs to use the old tools I have as they work but I need more.
Congrats on your 15 days 
and getting through 
Edit: part of me sharing that road incident is me trying not to hide that part of my drinking. Iām good at pretending it didnāt happen and itās embarrassing but itās important for me to share and not forget it.
Eeeep this is wonderful. Making new sober memories, this made me smile Iād love to see the fish tank set up! Iāve been considering setting a second tank up, itās addictive 
#Day 1671 
Weekend! Only one day but Iām going to make the best of it. Going for a walk to a local market with creative people who show their products.
Itās a one hour walk to it and itās raining, but I wonāt melt 
Want to share a link I just shared at the hike tread here on TS. Itās from a Dutch guy I follow on Insta and Facebook. He is in recovery as well and walks trough the world on his own.
Very impressive! Iām a walker and name myself SoberWalker, but he is deffinitely SoberWalker 2.0 
But hĆ©, there will be always someone better, bigger, nicer, whatever. So looking up to someone is not wrong, but never forget we are great ourselfs! Every person in this world has his flaws, they just donāt show them on Insta 
But stillā¦sometimes I wanna be him just for a day (not longer 
).
Bye for now! 
Day 7 checking in daughter is unwell so will be a day in the house watching tv hope everyone is well
Thanks for sharing, sober walker! That is indeed an epic journey and itās crazy to see how life can be turned upside down, once the addiction is gone. Iāll definitely follow along virtually on that world tour 
.
Day 4
Covid positive 
First time. 
Shit.
Get well soon!
Hey all, checking in on day 1,036. I hope everybody has a good one!
Day 48 AF
Have not had any urges to consume alcohol for a while now so feeling great about that. Bit of a mental struggle with some work issues at the moment so doing my best to deal with those struggles. The past 13 years I have worked for 2 companies but recently have been offered 2 different roles. One, a more Managerial type role obviously with better salary and another one more community focused on lesser wages. I would absolutely love to work for a non profit organisation where I could feel proud in helping people in a range of different communities, but financially I just canāt afford to. I know it would be a fun and morally rewarding role
Oh no! Get well soon Julia. Plenty rest, fluids and nutritious food. X
Ugh, that sucks. How you feeling? You still at Mom"s house?
On insta I follow āucanoutdoorsā and every day a friendly reminder 
Thanks Lola, followed it right away. Like accounts like that. Just got home from a 10 km walk to a market, it was nice (the market just started, so thatās why itās so calm 
).
I love those markets. I have honey made by the bees of the local ākinderboerderijā
Thank you Deliaā¦
Just filled a whole 1 liter mason jar with water and put a glass drinking halm in it. 
Besides of a tea when you have a cold. 
And just cleaned my nose with this ayurvedic nose showerā¦ Now back on couch.
Checking in.
Having a bad day, feeling depressed and sad, wonder what happened with my life. Who am I, what have I accomplished. Feeling like a nothing.
Tired of feeling that my body is working against me, that I cant trust my self, my mind or my body.
Woulda been something just to drown my feelings in alcohol. But Im not going to do that.
