Checking in daily to maintain focus #54

[CATMANCAM]

@Noshame everything crossed for you for tomorrow
@KrissyMae congrats on 70 days
@JessicaAnn93 welcome congrats on 4 days
@Deelzebub I love your painted pebble!
@Kelwooo congrats on 2 weeks
@Marc3 congrats on 3 weeks and the sober bbq
@SimonSick proud of your for taking your self out of that situation
@tailee17 congrats on 2 weeks
@Catmama23 congrats on 30 days
@SadMemeQueen the aftermath of anaesthetic can cause depressive thoughts and suicidal ideation, I hope it gets less heavy for you ASAP, sending strength 🩵

[CATMANCAM]

@Bomdhil welcome back
@Butterflymoonwoman sending strength, you’ve come so far I hope your Monday is brighter, and I hope your son is okay 🩵
@Its_me_Stella congrats on all of your months of freedom sending strength 🩵
@Alice13 happy sober birthday
@Hesmyportion welcome back
@Girlinterrupted congrats on 3 years
@Eliza1 you found it, you’re here on the most recent thread, welcome

1022 days no alcohol.
487 days no cocaine.
2 days no vape.

I fell asleep at around 10:30pm Saturday night, and woke up wide awake at 1am, I didn’t get back to sleep. Up until my appointment at 10:20am, time seemed to be dragging, I even went for my pond walk at 5am Sunday morning, it was cool and peaceful and I saw the sun rising. I also spent a couple of hours listening to an audiobook, which is something I’m rarely able to make myself do. Eventually, it was time for my appointment. Got my glasses, also got a hair cut by the fastest barber ever! Was in and out within 5mins! Spent the rest of yesterday reading on here. But then I binged very badly late last night and throughout the night because I bought so much. So sick of myself. I’ve just sent the eating disorder service a follow-up email for my self-referral that I did last Tuesday, so now I need to continue to wait to hear something. I’m not sure of their waiting times.

Today, I had a strange night, bcuz I woke up frequently and kept eating more, and then falling asleep on the toilet again, woke up a few times due to nearly falling off! I am sure I fed the cats at 3am, and the evidence in the bins suggested the same, but they kept on shouting at me and demanding a second breakfast, so I gave in at 12:30pm and fed then again.

I’ve done my morning routine and pond walk so far, I am hoping to get back out for my lake walk too. Just wanted to catch up here first.

I hope you all had wonderful sober weekends.

🩵

[Eliza1]

Well I broke my sober streak yesterday and sadly in front of my son who is sober and his friends at a BBQ we had. Totally guilt ridden today and sad. Here goes Day 1 again.

[Noshame]

Thank you for the motivation and hope you gave me

I needed that

[Dazercat]

Congratulations on your 3 years Slim
You. Are. Amazing.

[Noshame]

Thanks friend

I couldn’t do it without everyone in this community

Tomorrow is going to go great I know it

[Matt]

1 month and 3 days. I’m at 1 month, 3 days.

I haven’t been here in more than a year. It feels different this time, probably because of the work I’m doing with my SA group and my sponsor.

One day at a time