Checking in Day 470
Beautiful day here where i live. Feeling pretty good overall. I woke up at 5am to exercise and actually felt energized afterwards. Had my morning coffee and went on a 3 hour paid zoom mtg for work. My son is still sick but thankfully it has been a minor cold. No more fever just a runny nose. Grateful this wasnt a hospital visit. I got some cleaning done and now about to have a smoothie and a piece of avocado toast! Hope everyone is having a good day!
Checking in…
5 days sober from dope and pills.
Definitely isnt easy, still feeling like a failure.
Can not shake these flash backs of traumatic events i have endured. The flash backs are really intense too.
Happy to have 5 days clean and sober.
Congratulations on your 5 days off pills and dope Jessica. No, it’s not easy. And that sounds like a pretty successful 5 days. Your addict brain wants you to feel failure so it can have you back torturing yourself with old behaviors.
If I ever feel like a failure I head over to the gratitude thread and list things I’m grateful for.
Three years later, sober, and it’s my strongest tool. Stop on by if your willing. Lights are always on. Bring your own coffee.
You’re doing great!
I learned that observing feelings and sitting with them can help with the suffering of a craving. Chasing the craving can lead to misery.
I got my job
Tomorrow is my first day !!!
It’s a quick 3 hour day doing video trainings. I can’t wait to start the real job. I have everything I need to start.
I have my counselling appointment today and I’m a bit nervous about it. I don’t really want to let it out, just feels to big to fix by talking. But I’m getting my butt in there because I’ve done everything but see someone haha.
Have a good day guys x
@megameg So great to see you hear and with the will to succeed. Glad to see you have all your tools laid out in front of you and ready to use. Wishing you the best of luck – we are here so keep checking in. @sabrina80 what an absolute beautiful date – glad that you were able to get out and enjoy time with yourself and nature! @girlinerrupted congrats on 3 years! Hope you were able to celebrate this achievement. @eliza1 it’s sad to relapse but great job on getting right back on the horse. Hopefully you will be able to see what caused your slip and learn from it. You are stronger with support so please do keep checking in here – go to meetings if needed and keep at it. @jessicaann93 Hey congrats on 5 days. This Is not an easy road but it is so worth it. The beginning is very hard and the addict brain is very strong and pushy (will spin scenarios, make you feel worthless and guilty, tell you that you can have just one…etc – this is all BULLSHIT) You are stronger without your DOC and we are here to help you. Are you also involved in any meetings or looking for a sponsor? These may be helpful - especially in the beginning. We are here as well so do keep checking in. @alycia so glad that you are getting into your appointment tomorrow. Wish you the best of luck with it. What may seem like a mountain to an ant is just a rock to us and this can be the same for your counsellor. The good ones know how to listen and dissect the situation and where to begin chipping away so that the healing can be done properly. You are taking the first steps here so breathe easy and I do hope everything goes well for you.
Checking in on a fabulous Monday evening
159 Weed and alcohol free
574 days cigarette free
I only spent a couple hours at work and then decided that today I did not want to wallow in my pain and then I forced myself to take a shower and proceeded to have a marvelous day with my brother. (putt putt, swimming, bbq, movie)
Still in pain and my skin / symptoms are on fire but I really could care less (I feel like I’m on cloud 9 right now and I’m completely sober). I am not going to try and figure this out – just hoping to get some sleep tonight as I’m exhausted and haven’t slept for past 2 days due to the pain – tonight could be as bizarre as the day so here’s hoping Hope everyone is doing well and having a wonderful sober day/evening - sending you much love
Checking in. I finished up some consulting work this weekend for a miserable client. I hope he will go away now. I know that doesn’t sound very upbeat, but I have been trying to get him to pay me since March 1 for a very small project, and he has been nitpicking my work and asking for changes all this time. It has gotten contentious and seemed for a while like it was heading towards small claims court or mediation. So I’m glad it’s done! Stuff like this makes me so certain I have made the right decision to leave consulting and go back to work full time. Now I have only one more consulting project I need to get through.
We’ve had “May Gray” all weekend, which is fine since I haven’t been able to go out much! The twins have been in their rooms doing gaming or homework – they are true homebodies. I wish I could get them out more to do stuff. Sigh!
@Becsta Where are you my sober sister!? You know what day it is right? I’m sure you know. Love you. Thanks for being on this road with me. Thanks for letting me follow in your footsteps. Huge congrats on four sober years my friend. Lots of love. Big hugs.
#Day 1715
Woke up early at 5 o’clock.
Seems that weaking up at this horror hour is the new normal for me
Have to work at 13.00 and decided to go for a walk before it. Going to walk to the triftshop and back. Visiting a triftshop work like a meditation for me. All those old stuff reminds me of my youth. Ordered a new pair of walking shoes yesterday in a different brand then my last few shoes. Hope it turns out well, they looked good.
it has been a minor cold. No more fever just a runny nose. Grateful this wasnt a hospital visit. I got some cleaning done and now about to have a smoothie and a piece of avocado toast! 
Hope everyone is having a good day!
