Obviously. That’s bc you didn’t take the easy option for a change , that means your sober 
good ere innit. 
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Checkin in. Ive been awake and traveling nonstop for 14hrs lol we did some sightseeing on our way from phoenix to sedona because we couldnt check in to our airbnb until 4pm. Im exhausted but sober. Resting for an hour then off to dinner and a stargazing tour.
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Happy 1st day of vacation!!!
Have a great night - stargazing tour sounds fantastic 
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@Misokatsu @CATMANCAM @mewmcmew thank you so much for the kind words. Been feeling pretty down on myself today. Tomorrow I’m going to a meeting and will share and ask for a sponsor. I know I wrote this already but I’m doing it again to hold myself accountable.
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Checking in after a belly dance party with an Arabic band. A real treat to have an evening of live music. As well as some DJ beats. Such a good time, ages from I would guess 20s to 80s with everything in between. So wholesome and lovely.
The belly dance scene (in the UK) is a kind of random but totally awesome little subculture. If anyone drinks it is very moderately, no drunken-ness. It is really fun to be able to dance in an environment where alcohol isn’t the focus.
I used to feel like I had to have a drink before dancing. Dancing is so joyful and to not be able to connect with that fully or remember it… What a waste!
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I have put on a bit of weight. Not loads but enough to make me feel self conscious.
The path towards better health is complicated and I figure aiming towards it is enough. Things will level out. All in good time!
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So true!!! Best of luck to us both in our journey to self betterment 
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I’m at a family event because my cousin got her RN. i realized my family will never be this proud of me. i mean nothing to them
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Megan …im sorry you are feeling this way and it truly sucks when your family cant be supportive or proud of your accomplishments.
I dont know your history with your family but know sometimes it takes years to mend relationships that weve broken because of our addiction. Be proud of yourself! Remember you have to love yourself first.
Sending you love and a big hug 
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I can not express enough to all the world how blessed i truly am.
Today was a fantastic day!! I spent all day busy with my youngest 2 children…we made a huge breakfast, went swimming, baked cookies and coloured!!!
I am so thankful that i have been goven as many chances as i have. My chikdren have NEVER given up on me. They have seen me at my best and certainly near my worst…they love me unconditionally.
Today and each day, i thank my higher power for blessing me.
Sleep well community members!! Tonights dreams will be full of inspiration and DESIRE to continue my sobriety
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A little update I went back to work after my Injury finished the job, late but it got finished,
The worry about the job was, what the customer thought, but no fucks given about me or my health, or that the equipment I was provided was not In the condition to handle these jobs.
I made it clear of my disappointment, that a million dollar company shouldn’t be leaving us with unsafe equipment, but apparently I’m not the one to speak such evils and they were right, I never complained, I just dug into whatever work I had and dealt with it.
I got pulled into tjr office and told my attitude was a problem and if I didn’t like it I could leave, no one would take me, with my attitude.
I said ok, a Dealer had been nipping at me for a few weeks now, so I called him on the phone in the moment , I told him I’m ready to work when you want me to, he looked at my certifications and said you were hired 15 minutes ago now get down here and fill out the applications so I have something on file.
Lesson of the day, don’t piss off your good employees, cause when you don’t see their worth everyone else will, in this area I could work a week in every shop for the next 5 years and still have work. It’s high demand for Auto Techs and Service advisors, and they are all willing to pay to bring you in
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Dang Chris- what crappy work conditions. The company sounds absolutely awful
Definitely their loss. Glad you were able to find something else so quickly 
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Huge congrats on your one year Bill,. did you celebrate it at your home group?
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81 days sober…nearly a done day. Reading.
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Evening Check In
Day 439
I had a very reflective kind of day. Did my recovery morning routine before heading out to do the grocery shopping. Came home, put everything away, and exercised (I probably shouldve rested bcuz i was so tired but i dont exercise on weekends, so i can rest then).
Have been thinking about my current amount of clean time and was comparing it to past various amounts. Reflecting on whats different this time around. Thinking also about when I had 3 years clean from age 21-24 before relapsing and was trying to think back as to what caused that relapse after 3 years! Idk. Addiction is very sneaky. I want to learn from past mistakes (thats why im doing this). I dont want to make the same mistake again. I think being complacent played a role in my relapse after 3 years so thats why i do my recovery morning routine every. single. day. I have to stay 10 steps ahead of my addiction lol Anyway, i had a good day overall. Some moments of feeling irritable and grouchy but i managed thru it. Very rushed evening with supper n laundry n then putting our boy to bed. But its winding down now. Hope everyone has a good night!
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i will never be the person my family wants me to be. it doesn’t matter what I do or how much I change. I am the problem to them
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Congratulations on the 200, now almost 201 days free, @Scorpn !
What you wrote is so meaningful … we have watched you and been with you through all those one day at a times that it took to get to your 200!
Lots of admiration for you and your resolve to stay sober! You’re doing it and I hope you will always remain sober. You’ve learned so much about yourself. Big congratulations hugs and love to you. So glad you found this site and the help and companionship that helped you succeed.
This meme I hope is readable bc I cropped it.
What you wrote is better. I’m just so happy for you!
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Checking in with 59 days AF. Better mood today, though another 4am stay-awake. Did make it to my spin class, and since I was up so early I had an extra cup of coffee before class and was FLYIN’ through the workout! I do enjoy a big sweat so it was a good start to my day. The rest of the day was just meh. Insomnia, that evil bitch, had better not show up tonight!
Take care all!
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Be the person you want to be for yourself.
I haven’t been on here as much the last number of days and I don’t know what the latest update is with you I hope that you’re doing OK.
As you continue to mature I hope that you will find a good confidence with yourself. Megan is a good person, a worthy person, a nice and giving person. You deserve and are entitled to happiness. I hope that one day you will find it for yourself. It’s not something you’re going to get from another person, it’s something that you’re going to get for you.
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