Checking in with 59 days AF. Better mood today, though another 4am stay-awake. Did make it to my spin class, and since I was up so early I had an extra cup of coffee before class and was FLYIN’ through the workout! I do enjoy a big sweat so it was a good start to my day. The rest of the day was just meh. Insomnia, that evil bitch, had better not show up tonight!
Take care all!
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Be the person you want to be for yourself.
I haven’t been on here as much the last number of days and I don’t know what the latest update is with you I hope that you’re doing OK.
As you continue to mature I hope that you will find a good confidence with yourself. Megan is a good person, a worthy person, a nice and giving person. You deserve and are entitled to happiness. I hope that one day you will find it for yourself. It’s not something you’re going to get from another person, it’s something that you’re going to get for you.
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Day 28. Didn’t sleep well, grumpy, moody (most-likely PMS), lazy, ate more food than I needed to…
BUT HEY! 4 WEEKS SOBER! 
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@Scorpn huge congrats to you 
200 days is amazing 
I’m so glad your here with us, I have been following your journey alongside many others and my own and you bring so much to TS. I’m grateful to see you reach this milestone and grateful to have you here 
@GenG 4 weeks is amazing Congratulations 
sometimes I think maybe we need that extra nutrients at that time as the pms takes alot to get through physically and mentally.
@FeelingBetter congratulations on your 59 days .
Hope your sleep tonight is good. I find exercising really has helped my insomnia alot.
@SadMemeQueen Hi Megan I haven’t read through all your posts but I seen this
I just wanted to say for me and many people, we get to a point where we realise we are living for ourselves and our family’s expectations for us don’t align with our own goals or what we want for ourselves. It’s difficult I don’t doubt that. But you are growing so much like a blossoming flower and when the times right for you will find yourself on the path to what you want and feeling that it’s okay to not go along with what others feel is what we should be doing. My own mum has a habit of making me feel no matter what I am doing, that I am always doing something wrong. It makes me feel anxious when ever we speak, nothing is ever good enough, and the guilt I’m made to feel for doing things that are good for me, and the way I want to go about doing them and I have had to learn that just because I’m not doing it her way, it doesn’t mean I’m wrong. I’m not doing anything wrong and I won’t be made to always feel guilty like I’m bad because I know I’m not.
It took along time for me to notice this pattern and to tell myself she is always going to have an opinion, she’s entitled to that. But it doesn’t make her right. I won’t let her keep doing this to me anymore (it’s a working progress I’m still working through, but glad I noticed it)
I really cared what she thought and it affected me everytime for days after we spoke.
Your going to be okay, your working your way through adulthood and I think your doing am amazing job at it 
@Butterflymoonwoman I love to see your check ins, 439 days 
so proud of you 
@Markjackson congrats to you on your 81 days of one day at a time
@Fury I hope your injuries are healing well and glad you managed to sort out another job. The old place seems to be trying to not be liable. I’m sorry to hear you were. Treated this way.
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@CATMANCAM just my compliments to you, you are always so nice up here to others. A good word for everyone in your check in 
Thank you for that!
@Soberbilly congratulate with your big milestone: a whole year sober! 
@SadMemeQueen be the person YOU want to be. Not the person your family wants you to be. You will never fit in their ideal even if you want it.
Please let go of that thought and be you. You are as good as you are.
Enjoy your holiday @Cjp 
Congratulations are in order for you as well @Scorpn 
Well done!
Day 1683 
Last day of work before holiday!
Tomorrow I will pack my bag and monday we will leave. I already said to my friend I do not wanna talk about work, I hope she will not too.
I really need sun, chill time and small talk
And icecream ofcourse…
The thought of Sangria (alcohol) slipped trough my mind as well. Stupid how my addicted brain work even after such a long time of abstinence.
I won’t drink, I really don’t want too. But I have to keep my guards up always. So instead of a Sangria on a terrace it will be icecream.
Have a good saturday all! 
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One year without smoking, 4,5 alcohol free. Hardly think of alcohol anymore but quitting smokes is still hard. Also sugar free for 2+weeks. THAT is agony.
Wish yall a great weekend and strength in your progress 
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Congratulations on the 4 weeks Gen.
ODAAT
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Have as good a day as you can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Looks like spring is finally springing this weekend. Too bad I’ll be working but that’s life. Will find a way to enjoy it. Without drugs or booze. Those aren’t enjoyable anyway. They were just destroying my life. X
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Congratulations on all your stats! Something to really really be proud of! You changed your life for better physical and mental health, congratulations!!
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Hannnnaaaaaaaa!!! Great to see you, HUGE congrats on all! Big hugs Lady
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Day 210 alcohol free
Day 18 social media free
I’m on my way to the local market to buy natural honey soap. Supporting my local beekeeper.
Then I’ll just stroll through the city. I need a new keyboard and mouse for my computer and some meds.
Spring arrived here too @Mno , beautiful. Sadly it’s grey and raining…
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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Day 20 checking in odaat we keep moving forward
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Hey all, checking in on day 1,049. I hope everybody has a good one!
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day 222 AF
Today has been long I flew from my home in the South Island to the North Island to wrap up a documentary ive been part of on going a few years due to funding, not completely based on my sobriety but its helped document a good part of my over all journey for the last few years.
The others sat down for a beer once we finished and I had another redbull.
Just for today I am here again and grateful for my sobriety.
It was nice to reintroduce my true self to those i havent seen in a while too.
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Thank you for your nice explanation!
I will definitely remember this the next time I’ve to drive my parents to the ophthalmologist.
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Day 2
Sober.
Full of panic.
Being absolutely overburdened by doing the housework and clean up the remains of the renovation.
I am totally ashamed of my housing situation although it is freshly renovated.
Welcome to my feelings.
There it is.
Hope it gets better during the day.
Love 
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You don’t have to be who they want you to be. You have to be the person you want to be. 
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It will get better!
Are you going swimming today?
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Do you have some ear buds? When I have jobs to be done that aren’t that exciting, I might listen to some quit-lit, videos or podcasts.
My anxiety turns into determination and motivation when I do this.
One I return to sometimes is Dr. Andrew Hubermans podcast on alcohol and the body. To finance the podcast he does a couple of promotionals, but skip those at the start to get into the good stuff.
I also like Craig Beck. He’s the author of ‘Alcohol lied to me’, and has some videos on you tube.
I’m a big fan of Dr Pradip Jamnadas videos, he makes so much sense. Those aren’t necessarily alcohol related, but over all health advice. He’s a cardiologist in Florida, but much more than a heart doctor.
I sometimes search ‘sober moms’ or ‘sober life’ on you tube. I’ve listened to so many people from all walks of life that have freed themselves from alcohol, and how they did it.
There are some really good Ted talks on alcohol and breaking addictions too.
I hope you feel better soon Julie. Stay strong sweetheart, just knock today out of the park
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Can you take a break from housework and wotk on yourself? If weather is nice - go for a walk, go swimming, try deep breathing excercises, yoga or meditation?
Can you jump on a meeting on line or go to one in person?
When dealing with house work - mentally/physically start with small area and tackle that first. Do so with some positive uplifting music or podcasts as @Binx mentioned. Slowly you may have completed it all. Dont worry if you dont finish it all - working on you is most important.
keep talking out your feelings - we are here to support you.
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