Checking in daily to maintain focus #54

Day 1,051 clean and sober. So I’m setting a goal to move to Washington by this time next year. I figure if I’m going to be broke I might as well be broke somewhere beautiful :blush: I read a quote someone said online that resonated with me so deeply, she said…

“I don’t need things to be easy, just worth it.”

And that hit me so hard. Same here, I just need whatever I’m putting my energy or time into to be worth it to me. The simplicity of that statement blew my mind. Have a great day everyone, love you guys :sunglasses::metal:t2:

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I find when things seem alot, get out there house and when you come back in you will see you have actually done alot and it isn’t as bad a you feel it was before you go out.

Also be easy and kind to yourself Juli :people_hugging: you haver just overcome Covid :gem:

I brought a new costume I want to try out but just can’t find the motivation to go. What a lovely day to swim too.
I am waiting in for a delivery.
I also have seasonal affective disorder. So although it is beautifull outside and it does uplift my mood, actually feeling at ease with the change and leaving the house are feeling uneasy for me, I just felt at ease with the dark winter and it changes. I did walk to the shops to get cooking stuff for lasagna tonight.
My cravings are so bad also, you are not alone and we can do this together.
I know a swim would make so much sense and help me feel better but I feel stuck at a wall that I can’t climb over today (in my mind) but Tomo I may have the strength to get over it.

Thinking of you :purple_heart:

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Wow congratulations on all ur timers! Alot of hard work went in to getting there :star_struck:

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:sun_with_face: Morning Check in
Day 440
Feeling good today! Im finally not getting those headaches from the increase of my medication. Its a beautiful day here today so that helps with the mood.
Today consists of work. Ive been given an extra responsibility at work for this weekend to help out so thats good! I like being productive and useful.
My focus today is also healthy eating. Weekends are usually hard for me so im going to pretend its just another day. I am extremely proud of myself for the past 5 days of daily exercise and healthy eating. This is very unusal for me but im going to run with it lol
Anyway, have a fabulous addiction free day everyone!
:butterfly:

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158 :muscle: chilling playing cod

Happy sober Saturday everyone

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Checking in day 10 and smiling!Mornings are easier than the afternoons I think but all will be okay…coaching boys soccer probably only 10th sober time in dozens of seasons of coaching but looking forward to it…Enjoy the weekend fam and stay strong!

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Girls you are all so sweet and kind
@Twizzlers @JazzyS @Binx
:hugs::hugs::hugs:

I calmed down a bit :thinking::roll_eyes::sweat_smile:
… The hormones are kicking in!

Made all that is necessary, like bathroom, kitchen and a fresh couch.
Will take some time for the decluttering and rearrangements next week, as i have holiday.

Thank you all for your kind tips…
I will check it out!!!

@Twizzlers and @Planipennia
I will have another swim tonight, yes :muscle:t2::pray:t2:
My pace is not effected by the virus,
still made 2000m under 50 minutes to start with a relaxed round :yum:

Hope you find your way soon Twizzle…
Try to remember the feeling when you enter the water, taking the first strokes or the relaxed feeling taking a shower after the swim. I am sure you feel no borders!

I took on a face mask now,
brought a beef broth with whole bones on the stove :sweat_smile: (who needs amino’s and collagen?),
and will create a list of what to do in my lil house next week!

Will have a late lunch-dinner salad to have a good workout later.

Thank you kind peops for being here and supporting each other :fist:t2::blue_heart::two_hearts:

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The angel nummer: 21.21
Have faith in the energy of your thoughts to change life for the better. Believe in the ideas and thoughts you receive.

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Thank you, the ironic thing is auto techs here are in high demand, every shop needs at least 2.

There is an upside and a downside to it, upside is plenty of work, downside is a variety of things

You have to buy your own tools which runs in the tens of thousands of dollars,

Your pay is based on book time what a job should take to do, so if a job pays 2 hours, you get 2 hours of pay regardless if you take 20 minutes or 4 hours, not all jobs and their booktime match, so when your 5 hours into A 2 hour job, it’s killing you Factory warranty work pays incredibly terrible so it’s easy to lose time on that

The last one is hit or miss, people wanting free or discounted work cause your “ripping them off”

Example, Check Engine light diagnosis is a flat fee usually around 150 dollars. The thesis is we just plug a computer into your car read the code and tell you what’s wrong, yes and no. I still have to verify a failed component and follow a chart before I just say yeah you need a spark plug.

But part stores will do it for free, oh and their parts are cheaper. So why can’t you do it for free?

I compare it to being a plumber,

If you have a clogged drain, you call a plumber, he’s gonna say well a service call is a flat fee of let’s say 100 dollars, he comes out, unclogs your pipes and sees you have a leaking gasket in your drain fixes that and then gives you a bill for 300 dollars,

No one says well I could have did that myself with parts at the hardware store cheaper,

The unfortunate reality is the race to the bottom is becoming more common, who can do it cheaper, or for free.

I’m an understanding person, if your car comes in and needs a few thousand dollars of work your not prepared to budget for, that’s fair. I’ll write it out as such like if you had to do anything today this is what I would do, this can wait till later, as could this.

But my expertise, tools, scan tools and special tools cost thousands of dollars that I can’t afford if I’m giving you stuff feee

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I am so happy to hear yoyr day has become calmer.
Glad youare taking care of yourself. Have yourself a fabulous day- we are here if you need :heart::people_hugging:

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Good morning everyone
day 16 no marijuana
Day 176 no alcohol

I fell asleep early and woke up early so I have a healthy amount of rest in me

Take care
More later

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Checking in day 237! Already feeling a little better emotionally in just getting back on track with healthier eating habits for my body and reincorporating exercise. I think I need a new goal to work toward to feel purposeful, so I’m going to think about what that could look like (maybe in the exercise realm).

Covering a shift for a coworker today and then going to enjoy my Sunday off. Hope you all have a super sober Saturday :sparkles:

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1 day af. Can’t get to the meeting because all the traffic lights are out the way I need to go. I guess getting a sponsor will have to wait. I did an online zoom meeting earlier but I cannot lie I’m very frustrated. Also I know some of you said you are not judging me but I can’t help thinking some people are judging me and I’m judging myself. Why is the universe testing me when I really needed this meeting. Just another day that turned out bad. Can’t wait to go to sleep and start over.

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No, we don’t judge you at all! Look around at the people you’re talking to. We are all walking the same road as you sweetheart. We are all at varying stages of our journeys, but we are in this together :raised_hands:

You feel judged, because you are your own worst critic. You are beating yourself up about it, and expect us to feel the same way. We don’t! :slightly_smiling_face:

Every false start you have doesn’t matter in the grand scheme of things, you just need to keep getting back up until you can manage 1 day. 2 days. 3 days, 5 days, a week, 2 weeks, a month… And so on.

Give yourself a chance. Sobriety is coming, just fight for it :people_hugging:

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Day 2327. Lost my Lounge status. I guess that’s what I get for starting a new job with a long commute that takes so much of my time!! I’ve been exhausted by the time Friday rolls around. But it’s all going well. It is such a relief to have a steady paycheck again and a job I can grow in! This weekend I need to finish up some leftover consulting work, and then I just will have one more project to complete. It’s stressful having to do both the fulltime job and the consulting, but it won’t last forever.

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Thank you

I’m feeling the stress of it though but I’m not giving in

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@Juli1 thank you :blush: 🩵 I’m happy to read you made it back to the pool, and that you’ll have the option of the outdoor pool again soon :raised_hands:t2:
@JazzyS thank you :blush: 🩵 unfortunately my GP said they can’t refer me for EMDR directly, that I have to have this current referral, then they decide what to do with me. I never enjoy all the gate-keeping, but I’ll see what they say when they call me next week, and go from there. :crossed_fingers:t2:
@cwolfman13 welcome :blush: congrats on your days so far and for filling your time up with sober activities :tada::tada:
@CueBall8n9 congrats on 80 days :tada: enjoy your camp out :blush:
@Misokatsu thank you :blush: 🩵
@Lea08 welcome :blush:
@SoberWalker thank you :blush: 🩵
@Fireweed congrats on all of your numbers :tada:
@Time2Live84 congrats on double digits :tada:
@Soberbilly congrats on your year :tada: :trophy: :star2:

992 days no alcohol.
457 days no cocaine.
79 days no vape.

Woke early. Did my morning routine, then did my morning walk earlier than usual. Managed to hoover, and shower, both were long overdue, so I’m enjoying the flat, and me, being clean. Played the Pokémon Community Day event. I’ve done my evening walk, and now I’m here checking-in.

I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends. :blush:

🩵

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Day 987 :herb:
have a good weekend everyone …

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We absolutely dont judge you. We have all been there amd understand :people_hugging:. Im sorry things arent going as planned today :frowning: is there another meeting at a different location u could attend for the meantime? Or were u wanting to go to that one specifically?

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Day 112. Mostly relaxing Saturday. Had a nice walk at the nearby park. Got groceries. Napped. Now hanging out on the couch with the cats trying to decide what to watch. Less stressed today.

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