Hope you got a bit of ice cream for your soberversary! 
Amazing stuff well done!
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I did indeed, and it was yummy! 
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Congratulations on one year. Having the will to stay sober for 365 consecutive days is such a huge success.
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Congratulations 
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Day 993
Have been having some drinking dreams recently, which is very weird. The guilt and the fear and the disappointment feel so real in the dream. I guess it is because I am checking my days more frequently?
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a huge congrats @Deelzebub on your 1 year!!! I do think you are rockin that new hair-do
@Misokatsu I havenāt experienced drinking dreams yet but last time I quit smoking i would constantly have smoking dreams. I would even know that I was cheating in my dreams. Stay strong - the addiction knows to take hold of the subconscious mind
@Juli1 its huge figuring out our trigger times and realizing when we need the most support. nightly check ins will be a great start. I love taking care of plants (not a pet but something living that needs my love and attention) You will do great with these and so lovely to have your own herbs on hand - really heightens the cooking experience
@Noshame Hope your wife is feeling better. So happy to hear āiām going to be myselfā - yes, definitely the best option! You can only be true to yourself by being yourself 
Sunday evening check in - still sober
130 alcohol and weed free
545 days cigarette free
Started off the day feeling at peace and energized even with little sleep. Got a lot of activity done and had to take a 1 hour nap before working. Day ended with me exhausted and drained. Thankful my brother made me a delicious dinner ā another day going to be a win in the books
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2 days AF. Still feeling really down and hopeless but I worked through a craving. I can feel itās harder this time for some reason than when I first tried 67 days ago. All I have is today, I canāt change the past. I still couldnāt get to that meeting as the lights were still out but I meditated a lot and journaled and went for a walk. I want to feel healthy again and at peace.
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You have the will and just remember it is a 1 minute / 1 hour at at time at the beginning. You wan to quit and start the healing processā¦ you will get it. great on you for going for a walk, mediating and journaling. Reach out here and do have the on line meetings on hand to jump on when urges get bad. I downloaded āeverything aaā app per a recommendation on this site - i see that they have 24 hour meetings available. I havenāt done one myself but hear they are super helpful.
Yeahbabe - day 2 sober!! Donāt focus on it being easier or harder than previous attempts. Focus on this time! wishing you the best and we are here on this journey together.
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@Deelzebub One year is fantastic! Congratulations!
Day 0 
My friend Nick came by to hang out for a while. It was the second time heās been to my place. Heās always got vodka on him, but I managed to stick to my guns at his first visit, and he was nice enough to not drink in front of me. But this time though, I felt like it.
The problem here is that Nick a blast to talk to. I like Neighbor Joe, but he turns every conversation into a rant about illegal immigration. Brian is cool too, but heās not a real deep thinker. Iām also one of the people Nick prefers to hang out with, but thereās a real possibility that staying sober is going to be much more difficult with him around.
But life goes on. Tomorrow is a new month, so Iāll be getting paid again Tuesday. Gonna make something to eat a find another terrible movie to watch. Have a good sober night! 
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Hey Mark ā Hereās looking at day 1
Itās hard to change up your social circle but it is a necessity sometimes to maintain your sobriety.
Try doing sober meetups and possibly finding a new stimulating circle of friends.
Possibly meet up with your friend Nick in other environments where you wonāt be tempted to drink - might be easier now with the weather breaking.
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Wow one year sober. Good for you!
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Evening Check In
Day 441
Work went well. Was heading home and got hit with a massive urge to use. Almost made me tear up on the train. I feel like it was just out of the blue but in all reality something mustve triggered it. I did see someone on the train that looked like an old regular of mine when i was in the sex trade. Had to look twice bcuz i swore it was him (even if it was i wouldnt have approached him). Maybe that thought triggered a thought to use. Not sure. But i deep breathed through it and just went to the grocery store for some odd n ends. Came home and had a nice hot shower after supper. I feel better now. Scary how urges and triggers can pop up seemingly out of nowhere. Cant wait to sleep tho. Im tired. Anither busy week ahead.
Hope everyone is doing well tonight
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Oh Dana - that is scary when a urge comes on suddenly and from a visual trigger. I know sometimes scents cause my urges.
Glad you were able to side step the urge. Hope you get some good rest tonight. Best of luck with your busy week ahead.
Sweet dreams 
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Checking in close to 61 days AF. I need the check in for me, but feeling meh. Tomorrow is another day.
Take care all.
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Checking in 364.xx days sober. Going to bed shortly to have a sunrise hike at the grand canyon and celebrate my one year milestone free from weed and alcohol. On a girls trip and its been action packed. These ladies NEVER stop talking! Anxiety got to be a bit much at times. Im hoping i can be fully present tomorrow and enjoy lifes blessings.
Edit this is just a tiny sliver of the grand canyon!
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Congrats on day 9, by now, Binx.
I kept the forum from my wife for about a week to ten days too. Then finally told her about the wonderful support I was getting here. I felt strange hiding it from her. Somedays Iād find myself on here too much. Still do. But it keeps me sober. And thatās all that matters.
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Thats why its so important that we do this for ourselves.
Big hugs Megan. 
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Congrats on your one year Deelze!!!
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Woooohoooo
Congrats on your 5th year!!!
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