Thank You. I really respect that approach of Yours. This is very wise way to speak about discipline You are not familiar with. Most people tend to underestimate Astrology without even knowing much about it (and not even about it - probably it is quite immature attribute of humans to pretend they know everything, especially about things they knew at least) only hearing that superficial fake one - pop astrology that is actually has nothing to do with it’s roots. Zoroastrian astrology has very deep roots, and it is years and years of studying that it is really absurd to sometimes read mocking comments about it from someone who only knows something from some or few internet articles. It is very complicated discipline and has lots of mathematics and formulas in it.
Speaking about my relationships, I am not sure if they really over, but I am open for everything. That was some strong signals from universe, but it is also a time where we should not hurry to make changes. Actually everything in life comes with time. Me and my Girlfriend have some situations what are hardly to solve, its like every time we try to manage it - we hit the wall. From that comes complaints, but then comes emotions and I don’t know if that comes from my divorce with my Wife about 3 years ago, I no longer get very emotional, and I am quite cold for emotions. I changed a lot. I don’t want that drama and loose my mind anymore. I think a lot before doing steps and try not to hurry to make mistakes.
Hey, lessons are meant to be learner and I am still learning, but this one part over here, I think I am going to make it right this time.
Time will tell.
All I can do - is to try to do MY PART right, I can’t control other person.
How you said that - shows that Pluto working strong here
There is a body language, body signs, traumas that also comes into whole context and expression of one. For example a person can be born under earth sign, but has a lot of fire in him, even body language shows that, or signs on the head… and then after reading his cosmogram - it shows Mars in many places.
Yes that is one of the biggest misunderstandings that I see nowadays - is when a person says it it nonsense - (for example) I am Taurus and astrology is totally misleading, says everything wrong about me. It’s nonsense, I don’t believe that
First of all there is nothing to believe in. It must be studied, not believed.
@Scorpn yay for successful potty training @JazzyS thank you for the empathy 🩵 @KellyKelly congrats on 400 days @FeelingBetter oh no, that sounds like a nightmare! I hope they can fix things ASAP congrats on staying sober @EFountains congrats on 8 months @Catmama23 I’m sorry you’re having to endure these events so early in your sobriety, I hope you can get back to your routines and have it all behind you as a sober victory @anon53116147 congrats on being accepted @Billy85 congrats on 90 days @ShadowFax congrats on 300 days
999 days no alcohol.
464 days no cocaine.
86 days no vape.
60 days no energy drinks.
My mood matches the weather today, but I’ve done both walks in the rain, and my meditations.
My bingeing totally escalated today and I need to sort myself out and stick to my diet before I end up having a heart attack or something like that. I don’t want a lower bottom so I must try harder and take my health more seriously.
I managed to shower last night so that’s a good thing.
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
Youre doing great Juli…honour the parts of yourself that are coming into the light. We all have different things going on for us. I lapsed coutless times beflre getting to where I am and staying humble that im a risk every day is important. Every time you lapse just keep picking yourself and going deeper. Youve got this!
Look into conscious drinking. Im not promoting drinking but its a way to drink consciously and quit for good, so if you drink again, stay conscious and ask yourself why am i drinking, what am i escaping, how am i feeling etc. Its one thing that really helped me, coz now if i get tempted i immediately do that routine, why do i want to drink, how will i feel afterwards, what part of myself am i escaping etc. Then i always come to the Resolution that i dont want to drink, instead im having a big feeling about something else, or i should be doing something more with my time, etc and the alcohol is one way to avoid thise things, its a distraction. It cant hurt to give it a go.
Last day of triple digits! Was woken by the sound of retching from child’s futon and had to sprint to get a sick bag, and then clean up dirty pillowcase and hair. Gonna be a quiet day at home I guess, which was the plan anyway, really. Also plan to dye my hair, I am so grey these days, I am only 41!
Checking in Day 447
Feeling slightly off routine lately. I think it was 2 days ago that i mentioned in a check in that i didnt do my morning recovery routine. Well i still havent done it. I havent had any urges to use but still… i have a daily reprieve from my addiction and i must work on it each and every day. Even at least a bit. Addiction is sneaky and it doesnt take long for it to try and find its way back in.
Health wise Im doing surprisingly well. But my mind has been prepccupied. Its playing funny games with me when it comes to how much i am eating. I track everything i consume and i feel like im still eating too much. But what I see on my calorie counting app, seems healthy for me. These mind games are not anything serious as i am focused on listening to my body but its more of a nuisance to have to deal with it. Will be attempting to drink black coffee tmrw so that my morning coffee (usually with sugar and creamer) doesnt interfere with my Intermittent fasting.
Today i didnt work as hubby had to tattoo. So i stayed home with our son. Took him to get his eyes checked bcuz hes having issues with them again (dry eye irritation). Have another treatment plan in place for his eyes. Hoping it helps the office there was very nice!
Plans for the rest of the day involves some laundry and supper prep. Im really feeling tired today so once i get this done, ill probably just take it easy.
A good restful day. Watched a 4 hour mini series on elephants and played video games. Now about to tuck in to a good book. Break from exercise since Friday and until Monday because my body is asking for it.
I have been future projecting about the summer and a lot of the situations involve alcohol. So much of me being sober is me staying home and not really being in social settings. However, I know I’m gonna want to go out and be seen this summer because I enjoy I expressing myself through clothing and turning heads (I already have several looks planned out and now I’m just ironing out the details and securing the pieces I need to make my vision a reality—my theme for the summer is monochrome chic, I’m so excited).
I’ll get to that bridge when I get there I guess. Good night!
@DryIn785 how are you doing my friend? How are you enjoying Citadel? Did you watch Avatar “the way of water” I know this is a hit and miss for many but I really enjoyed it. Cool effects for sure! @zzz Thank you my friend for your post- really is making me want to learn more about astrology. Hope the best for you and your girlfriend – however you choose to move forward with your relationship. It may be wise to not make any major decisions during this time. We do have to remember that although me were hurt and mistreated in our past relationships, we can’t close our heart forever in an effort to protect it. We do have those out there that will nourish us and want us to flourish but this can only happen if we let them in. Just my two cents. @CATMANCAM man alive – look at that number for af!!! So excited for you. Wishing you the best for a healthier you. We can do this!!! Hope your meditations and walks helped your mood. @Misokatsu – another amazing number to celebrate tomorrow – Sorry you were awoken by a sick child. Hope your child is feeling better now and you did indeed get a relaxing day at home. What color are you going for (hair dye)? If you are doing at home – careful to cover surfaces before starting – no matter how careful I am – I always end up getting some on the floor or counter I started getting grey at 13 so have been dying hair at home with home kits since – had to stop for 1 year last year trying to eliminate causes for my health issues and almost let the grey take over Have fun with the coloring – enjoy the experience but remember grey doesn’t mean old – and for some it is a very distinguishing look. @Spierce welcome back! Keeping working the feelings … its better to deal with them head on rather than bury — we are here if you ever need to talk them out. @Butterflymoonwoman Ido hope you were able to get some rest and take it easy today. You are already on top of the solution – skipping your routine from time to time is ok but making that a habit can be hazardous to relapses. Wishing you the best in your continued recovery. @liminal.rehab You seem like a social butterfly to me and you can’t clip those wings simply because you are becoming sober and choosing a heathier life. Go out – Be seen – Show off that monochrome chic look. … prepare yourself mentally for the social gathering and have your go to tools ready to help keep you from relapsing. Enjoy your relaxing weekend my friend.
Checking in today…
136 days alcohol and weed free
551 days cigarette free
Started the day with some energy and treated myself to a double espresso and some mediation. The energy did not last long and I have been super weak and exhausted today. Had to stay home again from work (this is turning into a habit that I do not like). I am not reaching for the alcohol or going out to get cigs – Took a shower after my brother made me, cut my nails shorter so that they wouldn’t do any further damage and now doing some breathing exercises. Crazy how the day turned on me. I had to cancel tomorrow’s plans to go with my brother and his toxic gf to celebrate my sis and brother in law tomorrow – not totally torn up with this decision as I do not want to around any sort of toxicity especially when I am not 100% to ward it off. I am still managing to make the most of my Saturday evening. Thanks to all of you I am one more day free of addiction - every time I wanted to give in I kept thinking I wouldn’t be able to add to my numbers in my check in…I do hope this thought keeps deterring me.
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congrats on staying sober 
I started getting grey at 13 so have been dying hair at home with home kits since – had to stop for 1 year last year trying to eliminate causes for my health issues and almost let the grey take over 
Have fun with the coloring – enjoy the experience but remember grey doesn’t mean old – and for some it is a very distinguishing look.
