Congrats 
I always think of you as your 111 days ahead of me and I used to see your days and it gives me motivation to stay on this path. I’m coming up to my 600 soon and last night I thought of you and thought everytime I see your milestones i use to think I hope I can keep going and get that too and as I’m coming up to my 600 I remember yours and it feels nice to know I have almost reached that milestone - basically I look up to you in my sober journey 
Brilliant, the longer it goes the more unbelievable it is 
don’t you think. Well done on 700 days.
Simply wonderful! You’re doin’ the damn thing, amigo! 700 days, one by one. Congratulations!! So glad you’re here with us.
@Catmama23 Ive been exactly where you are both in depression and the job struggle. Feel free to DM me if you want to hear about the job I left when I got sober and how that all turned out. Also, I started taking my antidepressants when I finally got sober, and they were and still are a big help. Nothing wrong with reaching out to a doc to discuss.
@anon53116147 The way you are handling this situation is beautiful. Turn over to HP, it will work out. Your transformation is inspiring, Mike.
Awww thanks @Twizzlers and @Dolse71 and @RosaCanDo! 
It means so much to be a part of this amazing community.
Sending you light and love, amiga. 
Glad you’re here.
Thank you 
I’m glad your able to eat and feeling much better now too, was thinking of you. I’m glad your here too 
You better believe it my friend. I do! Huge congrats! Just keep going. To celebrate this tram from my youth, when Amsterdam celebrated 700 years of existence. It will be 750 in 2025. Time flies.
Checking in morning of 94 days. I slept good
Last night. 70% chance of rain all day today. 
Hoping it will stay away and I can mow and work outside today.
Have a great day friends!
Checking in on this Friday after an eventful week with lots of ups and downs, I’m feeling serene, satisfied, happy in my skin, and with a sense of hope. I think going out to a community event last night was good for my heart, seeing my community come together and enjoy a beautiful night for the season opening of our monthly night market, venue for artisans, hobby farmers, and other producers. It was heartening to see so many happy faces and people coming together to enjoy just BEING. I am so cognizant of the need for me to get more involved in something that helps me connect to people in my community. I’m going to find something to volunteer for, most likely will be our arboretum and botanical gardens because taking care of plants and landscape is a passion of mine. It would be a good start, anyway. I feel a shift coming, well I think it’s already happening for me. Getting through a brutal seasonal depressive episode was really hard this year compared to prior years, but I made it. Buying a house and getting a legit fresh start feels like an opportunity to take some steps for myself. I’ve felt a bit stuck in a rut for a while…I’m solid in sobriety and working hard on my mental wellness (with ups and downs there) but living in this rental for 4+ years we have done what we can to make it home and I want more! I want to put in whatever garden I want and paint the walls fun colors and craft my space in a way conducive to my best life. I don’t know if that makes sense but it’s what I’ve felt for a long time and we are finally making it happen. It also occurred to me that with this new house I have a beautiful opportunity to never have binged booze in this space, never have hidden empties, never see a spot in my house and have a flood of memories about my self destructive behavior, never again. What a wonderful chance to truly start again in my space, my home. It will likely never be a booze free space since my husband drinks moderately and brews beer (though now he’ll have a shed that’s perfect for brewing and it will be out of my face), but that’s not the issue, to me it will be a BINGE FREE ZONE!!! It thrills me. We are crossing all the t’s and dotting all the i’s and will close on June 2 barring any unforeseen bullshit. It’s coming up fast and I’m allowing myself to truly feel the hope and excitement now. The gifts of my journey toward self improvement are showing up for me and I’m forever grateful.
Thanks if you made it this far on my morning musings. I wouldn’t be here at almost 600 days without this community. So grateful. Here is a pic from the market last night in the picturesque Millwork District in downtown Dubuque, a revitalized industrial area. Much love, amigx
I’m really pleased to read everything is coming together
It will great as you said to have a space that’s your own, that you can put your own personality and character into at the same time as making all new positive memories 
You have worked so hard to get to this point and your deserve it. I’m so proud and happy for you Rosa well done 
Thanks for sharing such a beautiful share my friend. Very nice carfree urban space too (which is rather special for the good ol’ USA right). Up and on we go. 
Not usually carfree but they close it off for this one and the weekly Saturday market also closes down streets in a different area. But even when cars can go down the roads there it has a pedestrians first feeling and people frequently walk in the street and it feels safer coexisting like that. Bikes, too.
Day 171 
not been feeling to great the fatigue is brutal tbh
Spoke with new dietitian they want to change my feed to a powder to mix with milk that has more calories than fortisips very underweight now asked About peJ tune she said I’ll have to refer you a specialist HPB dietitian
Got to have scans done and bloods in 3 mths time my new consultant is now saying he doesn’t think it’s chronic yet 
but part of the pancreas died so have all the same symptoms regardless
Thanks for asking I would post a pic of my back to show how skinny but don’t wanna offend anyone lol
Day 79. I feel like I’ve gone through the white-knuckle early days, then the pink cloud euphoria days. Now it’s the phase of overwhelming emotions blindsiding me out of nowhere and threatening to take me down. I am riding the waves of feeling the feelings, but all this wave riding is making me seasick.
Tell me it gets better.
Congrats on 79 days!!! It does indeed get better. The recovery cycle time is difficult and different for everyone but the healing and the clean life are so worth it. Hang in there - you are doing a fantastic job.
Checking in on day 5…just having a quiet evening lying in bed with the phone. I have two arts and crafts projects set up in the other room in case I suddenly get ants in my pants and need to do something. As usual, reading the posts on here is helping me plan for and stay focused on keeping sober. Wishing everyone a fantastic sober weekend
Well I’m glad that you are going to be having more calories in your milk. I can only imagine how difficult this is for you, I hope the pain isn’t long term and something can be done to help.
I’m thinking of, keep checking in I missed your posts.
I really hope ur okay 
Glad to see that things are gentlier now. I also see that this was 10 hours ago when u posted. How are you doing now?
