Awwww thank you for checking and alot better. Just had an easy day. 
I hope your doing okay yourself, I like your new topic I will be following you there 
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It really does get better! I can only speak from my own experience but the emotional rollarcoaster has leveled out alot for me. The more i learn what healthy coping skills works for me, the better my everyday life feels. Im not struggling nearly as much as i used to. Keep riding the waves and staying sober. I know it sucks tho having to feel this. What things have u tried that has worked for u to get thru these moments?
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I care about u lady 
im glad ur day got better! Hope it stays that way 
I am doing okay today. Feeling better mentally and emotionally than i was yesterday thats for sure. And thank u for ur ongoing support 
my hopes is that by ājournallingā my thoughts related to that topic, i will be able to see patterns or have realizations that can positively impact me. I find that alot of my thinking surrounding that topic, stays in my head and never leaves lol so i hope to see some things about myself thru talking about it
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It does get better 
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@RosaCanDo thank you Rosa š©µ Iām excited for you re having your own home and leaving some bad memories behind. Although I no longer own my own home, (thanks to addiction and my mental health) moving, and now living in a place where I have never used, gives me a significant sense of peace, Iām excited for you 
@Catmama23 that sense of calm peeking through from atleast being sober, I can relate to that, letās hold on to that š©µ
@JazzyS thank you š©µ good luck with your detox 
@icebear good luck with your withdrawal and congrats on 700 days 
@SadMemeQueen when your mind starts doing things like this, maybe go to your self-soothe box, or try making some of your digital artwork, sending strength š©µ
@Twizzlers Iām glad things became a bit gentler š©µš«
@Bones_80 I hope your new feed helps you get back to a healthy weight with less fatigue
@ArtMama calmer seas await š©µ
1005 days no alcohol.
470 days no cocaine.
92 days no vape.
I didnāt fall asleep til 2am, I did wake up at 7am to feed the cats and take my morning meds, was awake til around 8:30, then fell back to sleep til nearly 1pm! Brain was probably catching up on lost sleep from the previous night. I still managed to do all my usual routine things, walked, meditated. Also I made the phonecall to the mental health team. It turns out the person who was supposed to take my case to the meeting on Wednesday last week, wasnāt able to attend the meeting, so my case just got abandoned, if I hadnāt called today nothing would still have not been done, but because I called, my case will now be going to next Wednesdayās meeting, supported by the lady that did my assessment, and she said she will call me at around 4:30pm on that day. Glad I called, but It makes me sad thinking about how many patients get lost in the system like I would have been. I learned the hard way to advocate for myself, itās still hard, but nothing happening is harder.
I hope you all have wonderful sober weekends.
š©µ
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thank you guys for the support last night, I ended up hanging out with a friend to calm down because I was just getting worse but then I ended up falling asleep as soon as he left and I got a good 12 hours of sleep
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it doesnāt just automatically get better. It gets better when you put in the work to make it better. Putting down the drink or the drug is just the first step. The good news is that now that you got everything out of your system you have the ability to do the rest of the work!
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I care for you also 
very much 
I think itās a good idea for you to get journalling your thoughts and having a your own space here to get advice, throw your ideas around and get encouragement too.
I always say because I spend so much time alone all of my ideas or plans are just great , yes, all of my ideas are great because I have no one to tell me there not 
bounce the ideas around so to me there all just great.
Now i have you guys here and it really does make a difference, itās a great idea 
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Wow! I am SO glad that u called today. Thankful that ur case will be addressed next week im kind of appauld that they āforgetā about cases. Especially being a mental health team. Im just glad that urs is being brought up next week.
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Friday afternoon Day 6. Feeling sick and whiny. Had a nap, but that didnāt really help. I get so grumpy when I donāt feel well. I hope tomorrow is better.
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@Butterflymoonwoman thank you!!! So far itās been a lot of asking myself in those moments āwhat am i feeling? What is it that I really need right now?ā The intensity of it all just blindsides me a lot.
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Checking in. Day 217
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Wow what a powerful question to ask urself! I actually ask myself the same thing bcuz sometimes i react emotionally when in reality i just need a good meal or some rest or a nice shower or a chance to stop and relax. I think we get so used to ignoring our own needs in addiction, that we have to learn to start paying attention to them in recovery proud of u!
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Checking in
Day 453
Today was quite good! Absolutely gorgeous weather outside 
Managed to get alot of running around done first thing. I got a workout in and ate well so far. Tried out a new smoothie recipe. But I got sooo busy with stuff i needed to do that i completely forgot to do my recovery morning routine 
so thats not great! But will make sure to get back on it tmrw. This weekend i work so it will be good to make a little $$. And yaā¦ overall i feel good today! Hope everyone is having a good day/evening!
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Two weeks alcohol free! Today was a much better day, thanks to all the support Iāve received here and putting in the work for recovery: meditation, (brief) exercise, AA meeting, and breathing/mantras. Still very tired but so glad to be back in my sober journey and not smushed under the heel of depression.
@RosaCanDo congrats on the new house - I love the idea of a space free of drinking memories!! That will be so amazing 
@KarenKW love your new cat pic!! 
@Mno can I get those polka dots on my car? 
so cute!
@Butterflymoonwoman yay for gorgeous weather
Wishing everyone a peaceful sober day/evening/night
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Im so happy to hear that ur feeling abit more uplifted 
its amazing what some of those activities can do
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Iām tired, I live with my four kids, fiancĆ© and mother in-law, I canāt live with my in law. Some family drama with her and my mom and sister. I feel Iām supposed to deal with my mother in-law and her crap, when I want something corrected with her I try to tell my fiancĆ© but she ends up getting mad at me telling me I donāt make any sense, what Iām saying is not realistic or that Iām not being reasonable. I donāt know anymore, this makes me feel very confused and weird, I want to use because of this situation of her mom living with us. I feel like the arguments we had when her mom didnāt live with us is nothing compared to how I feel today. I try to be very transparent on how I feel so that I donāt explode but sometimes I feel me expressing how I feel makes things worse, going to work makes and letās me be free from this toxic environment.
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I do! It is what happens when you work hard! Congratulations 
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@icebear Congrats on your 700 days my friend! That is an incredible achievement. It may be early yet ā any issues with withdrawing from your meds?
@RosaCanDo so glad you are feeling better and enjoying your town. So excited for finalizing your new home. It is so thrilling being able to paint your fun colors and alter spaces without getting permission ā so exhilarating. Canāt wait to see what you do with the inside and more so with that garden space of yours.
@Marc3 How is your weekend going? Just checking in to make sure your plans for a sober weekend are not being faltered.
@CATMANCAM Glad you were able to get back to bed this morning and get some rest. So happy that you called today and were able to get your case back on the books ā I am so sorry to hear that it fell through the cracks in the first place.
@SadMemeQueen Glad you were able to find calmness last night and get some decent rest last night.
@Catmama23 SO excited for 2 weeks AF!!! You sound so positive today with all your recovery and mediation ā So happy for you.
@Corey808 so sorry that you are finding your living situation a toxic environment. Sounds like a full house - are you able to find a space in the home just for yourself ā where you may be able to find peace in your own space. Is this living situation permanent or temporary? Is it possible to get to meetings so that you can talk this out rather than keep bottled in and keep yourself focused on yourself and your mental health. Are you able to keep your distance from your mother in law so that her actions/ words do mess with your sobriety?
Checking in on Thursday eveving
142 Days Weed and alcohol free
557 Days Smoke free
Itās been a fun day with my fatigue - a real roller coaster but Iām trying to force myself to stay up and get my ass back to a somewhat normal routine. Thank goodness that I gave all my weed to my brother and I donāt know where he keeps his stash (i wouldnāt rummage through his stuff) - I really wanted to take a few hits to just help me find numbness today. I know that would not be a SOLUTION. The feeling didnāt last too long so grateful for that. I am here and sober for another day! Thank you my friends - appreciate being on this journey with you.
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