Thanks. You too! And thanks for being here fighting the fight alongside me. It matters.
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@Rosy1 welcome 
you donāt have to be alone anymore š©µ
@KarenKW I hope the psychiatrist appointment was helpful 
I hope the new meds helps congrats on double digits 
@Markjackson sorry about the depression, sending strength š©µ congrats on triple digits 
@anon53116147 Iām sorry youāre options arenāt very appealing, but as others have said, you are stronger now to make the best of any situation š©µ
@JazzyS thanks for your post about Sarah Millican, I enjoy her stuff too so just thinking about her has put a smile on my face 
Iām so glad she helped you during your depression
@Mbwoman congrats on 800 days
@Rockstar24777 well done for reaching out to a doctor, I hope the meds will help to lift some of the heaviness š©µ
@CueBall8n9 yep, my pain levels change with the weather too, especially the old injury ones.
@Catmama23 that was a really healthy way to deal with your resentment, proud of you š©µ
@Billy85 congrats on triple digits
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@Butterflymoonwoman that is scary 
I hope you and your family stay safe and that it clears ASAP. Also, well done for getting through the MRI appointment š©µ
@nastya_is_fighting Iām sorry youāre experiencing rejection, stick around on here, doing so helps me feel less alone š©µ
@Twizzlers I hope Rita got on okay today and is safe at home with you now š©µ
@Elocinanirtak congrats on 4 months
@TrustyBird sorry youārestruggling Iām glad the lunch with one of your best friens helped š©µ
@SoberWalker belated congrats on 1700 days
@HappyDays congrats on 2 weeks
@maxwell good to see you checking-in, sorry youāre struggling congrats on reaching out though
@Private50 congrats on your continued sobriety
@Marc3 congrats on double digits
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@Noshame good luck for your interview 
@zzz welcome back good that you learnt that using does nothing for you.
@grannyweatherwax welcome congrats on your days so far
1010 days no alcohol.
475 days no cocaine.
97 days no vape.
Missed my check-in last night. Have been sleeping all night and day, possibly due to lack of sleep on recent nights, but I did also eat some sugary stuff late last night so that wouldnāt have helped.
Eye tests update, big change to my prescription with the astigmatism, new glasses & sunglasses to collect on 28th. Looking forward to hopefully having clearer vision, as itās blurry most of the time atm.
MH team update, complex trauma team have agreed to treat me 1:1, sheās going to send me info for self-referral to an eating disorder service, and she is also going to do a referral to Adult Social Skills to help with social inclusion and my anxiety about going out. So thatās all good news. I didnāt think to ask about time-frames or waiting lists, so I guess Iāll just wait now.
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Oh my - so excited that
- you got a good nights rest
-had a good eye exam and ate getting new specs soon ā no more blurry vision - finally get that 1:1 and yeah to the referrals
hopefully they will happen soon fir you
Things are looking up my friend !!! Be well
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Your post doesnt seem like a ramble but a laundry list of progress. Keep up the good work one day at a time my friend @Catmama23
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Omgā¦im addicted to TS. When the app was down i kept checking if it was back up lol anyone else? Just me?
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Me tooā¦i kept refressing ā the addict in me was feeningā¦yeah- we might have it bad 
So glad its working now
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@CATMANCAM i want to say that your posts alway impress me with the amount of focus you always give to others. And not just a few others. I donāt know the forum well enough to be able to copy everyoneās names that I want to reply to. How you are able to do it day in and day it is amazing and so encouraging to me!
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Thank you !
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@zzz thank for posting and for being transparent I will wake up to 100 days tomorrow and the last two weeks have been very intense with drinking thoughts, day dreams, lies from the inner addict. I have come too from day dreaming and plotting about drinkingā¦ā¦ it is ridiculous and as you stated every time Iāve done it in the past I want it more than ever and it takes time before that desire starts to diminish. And we all seem to forget that over time of left to ourselves.
That is why I need this community and AA. Without community and fellowship I will fail. Itās not a maybe. Itās a guarantee. Iām ok with that. I just have to keep coming back, stay plugged in and engaged, and wake up sober and go to bed sober one day at a time.
Psā¦. I hope you arenāt gone for long. I look forward to all of your posts.
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You got this! I have struggled on and off with bulimia and anorexia since I was 12 lol Im 30 now. We can recover 
I believe in you @CATMANCAM If you need support, I think you can DM me. Recovery feels good! I am feeding myself and training for a half marathon
We can do this!
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Hello friends. Checking in on day 705. I have been very irritable lately and just having mad sugar cravings. I guess side effects of antidepressant withdrawal. Or maybe just a midweek slump. Feeling a bit strange lately I hope it will pass. Stay strong everyone! 
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checking in day 386 af. lifes good! much love yall
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day 241
Just a check in still here and still AF.
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HI everybody! Today was pretty blessed. Started off bad; my payee didnāt put anything on my card like she was supposed to. 
So I just went to the clinic to get my inhaler prescription refilled. They ended up doing a whole physical including bloodwork to check my liver and kidneys. Left there to get my psych meds, and the inhalers and nicotine patches where already there.
I get home, still pissed at my payee so I fire off an email to the Guardianship Program telling them sheās unreliable and untrustworthy.
Five minutes later, payee emails me telling me the first installment of my back pay has come in and sheās already taken care of some of the debts we outlined in our spending plan. So now I feel like the asshole. I always do when I stand up for myself. Canāt complain though. Soon Iāll be debt-free and can work on planning a future. Happy sober evening, fam! 
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Day 47 Iāve been bad, and havenāt posted, although I still visit here multiple times a day to just read.
Iām doing good. Walking a lot and tracking my meals. Iām not weighing myself, which is for the best, because I get obsessed with numbers. By comparing pictures, I can see that my face looks a bit slimmer, and my beer belly has gone down a little. 
I found out my boyfriendās housemate is sober from a few substances, so weāve been talking more. Heās kinda like my accountability sober buddy, which is cool.
Despite these positives, I definitely have been feeling some PAWS symptoms: general apathy blended with moodiness, a lot of trouble focusing (multitasking is impossible), and Iām super clumsy! I keep fumbling over my words and knocking things over. Iāve dropped two canned drinks that exploded on the floor. And spilled water on my bed. And Iām sober!!! Hopefully this all settles down a bit. Iāve had to explain to my mom and boyfriend what PAWS is, and what Iām dealing with, so they donāt take my craziness too personally. 
Stay strong, everyone! 
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Good to see you back. Glad you were able to fund an accountability sober buddy.
I had never heard of paws before joining this community. I happened to be scrolling the threads trying to see if anyone else was having similar issues. Was so greatful to learn about paws and realize i wasnt crazy. Immediately told my family so that they woukd be aware of the symptoms
Totally with you here - its frustrating at times but we will stay strong and overcome 
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Iād never heard of paws either before I came here. Iām really grateful to read peopleās stories and first-hand accounts. I was starting to ponder whether I was getting early onset Alzheimerās! Jeez!
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So glad to hear things are moving forward for you, Cam. Waiting times have become crazy since Covid, so maybe think about nudging them along with a follow up call to ask
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