Congratulations on your 4 years! You are awesome!
I know I’m 11 days late, but I’ve also been AWOL from the forum, so I have an excuse. 
This was a great thing to come back and see. Seriously, congrats.
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Hi! Feeling a bit better, more happiness gives me studying of psychology. Currently studying more about autism. 
I was as well out with my friends from one queer Discord server and it was nice to drink together vanilla milkshakes and laugh.
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Day 9 comfortably sober
Learning lessons everyday about myself.
Chillin with the miss who is amazing to me
Very content
Rainy day and I think it was needed
Filled out applications and made phone calls
More info on that on Monday
So far today is ok
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Nice ride!! Brother I’m the same way with my kids oscillating between grateful for every minute I have with them and upset with myself for my own mental limitations and frustrations. The fact that you’re always hard on yourself and trying to be better, is at the heart of a great parent! everything else will work itself out brother.
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@icebear sorry about the work stuff, I hope you’ve managed to shake it off in the garden today 
@FeelingBetter congrats on 80 days 
@Scorpn I had to tell myself a lot of very loud and firm NOs in the past, that’s actually when my recovery started to progress, when my true voice screamed louder than my addict voice, literally, unmistakably! Congrats on all the 2s
@Kelwooo that does sound like a good day 
@Cjp enjoy the outdoor picnic meeting
1013 days no alcohol.
478 days no cocaine.
100 days no vape.
Was awake early. Did my morning routine and fell back to sleep with my heated eye mask on, which I wear for my first meditation of the day, it’s part of the treatment for my eye conditions.
Did the rest of my routine when I woke up, it was harder to motivate myself for it than usual, and I’ve been doing it for a year, next month.
Then did my morning walk, it was bright with sunshine, but the wind was cool, I liked it.
I was planning to spend the rest of the afternoon reading on here, but I tried and my vision was too blurry.
I didnt feel like listening to an audiobook today, so the other option is to watch TV. I then had cravings to binge, so made a deal with myself that if I managed to shower, I could then binge and watch TV. I managed to shower, but then I didn’t want to binge, so I decided to try to watch TV without bingeing. To my surprise…I DID IT!! 
Then I wanted to watch something else, and managed that without bingeing too!
I’ve just been for my evening walk, I wore shorts for the first time this year so that was nice. I’m glad I wore my hoody though, as the air was still quite cool.
Now I’m here checking-in. Both of the shows I watched this afternoon were reality shows, so now I know I can watch those without bingeing. The show I’m watching on Netflix is not a reality show, and it’s at a really stressful part in the storyline, so I’m not sure what’s going to happen, re bingeing, when I attempt to watch that after I’ve caught up here, but if I do manage it without bingeing, my mind will be blown and I’ll have no excuse to ever binge again! 
I hope you’re all having wonderful sober weekends.
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I love it! Its exhilarating blowing our own minds when strength starts to show up and we know we can conquer the next obstacle.
Either way even if watching this show brings on binging - you are doing awesome and had a great day today.
Happy Saturday
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22 days AF. Tried out a new AA meeting this morning and it was awesome! They were celebrating someone’s 1 year and it was so inspiring to me. I love meetings like that - full of positive energy, and folks of all ages and backgrounds coming together to support one another and celebrate recovery. I will definitely be going back.
Mother in law is still in the hospital. I had to have a rough convo with my wife this morning - I had to say that I needed a day or two break of having her unload everything on me about it. I felt a little selfish but I had to recognize I was at a breaking point (her mom has been the focus of our lives for months now) and I needed a day or two of emotional rest. I have to be VERY careful and aware of resentments building in me. I haven’t been sleeping well and my eye is twitching again. I actually did several meditations at like 4am to help process emotions. It helps so much. I’m very anxious about the future because we don’t know if she will get better and be able to live on her own. I can’t imagine what kind of state I’d be in right now if I was drinking. I certainly wouldn’t have been able to enjoy the sunshine today.
Keep fighting the good fight y’all - you are so strong and reading through these updates gives me hope and motivation. 
you’re worth it!
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Checking in day 13. Have a good evening everyone 
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I stay busy at work go to AA still, i put in the work. Just thinking of different channels i dont want AA to be a little cult gor me. But i know it works for some and it does help me at times.
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Checking in. Day 225
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Nice to see you checking in with some big numbers Hotic.
Congratulations
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Checking in on day 136! Thankful for a great high school baseball season this year, my team fell short and finished in 4th place but in one year we went from last in our division to the final 4. Phenomenal improvement and I would not have been able to really do my best as a coach if I hadn’t chosen sobriety. Thank you all for the well wishes and support! I did have a tiny temptation after losing to have a beer but that’s because that was my old habit after a tough loss, I opted for a large Diet Coke on my drive home
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Congratulations on the 22 days Catmama. I love inspiring birthday meetings. Actually I think all birthday meetings are pretty inspiring.
I’ve had to be selfish in my recovery many times. That’s just smart boundary making. Nothing wrong with that. Got to protect that sober date at all cost
Good work there.
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Checking in
Day 461
I didnt come on here for a day and a half. May not seem like a lot others but its out of sorts for me lol. Was feeling off mentally and emotionally the past couple days. Weird thoughts and sort of felt like isolating. I definitly felt it and honestly not coming on here made things worse.
I had a using dream last night and another using dream during my nap today. I could hear my mind trying to convince me that just once wont hurt. Thankfully i dont play those games with the evil one anymore. Even tho i wouldnt act on it, it did bother me. Scared me honestly how fast that voice can return. It reminded me of how i used to feel so enslaved to drugs, where it really had its claws into me. Im free today and i will fight to the bitter end to keep that. TS is my main support and so not coming on here, really isolates me support wise. I dont think ive missed a day being on here in quite a loooong time lol Anyway, im okay and im glad to have pushed myself to come on today
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Glad you made it through that episode. Your perseverance is remarkable!
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I feel this right now about just going for a walk on my own. I love my down time so much it’s hard to motivate and go out and exercise. I read a great book about introverts called “Quiet” by Susan Cain that I can highly recommend. I think I remember reading in it that introverts tend to excercise less and that seems about right to me! Add in walking to meet people and that makes it twice as daunting.
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102 days sober checkin. Got up early this morning and have been working outside all day. It has been such a beautiful day here today and this evening is cool and gorgeous.
I love this time of year sober! I hope you all have had a great day!
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Thank you! I can’t believe it!!
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