What’s up guys checking in. Had a rough day at work, but over now and only 2 more days before a five day break. Me and the better half are heading down the shore for a few days, and going to a stand up comedy show that I got tix for her for mother’s day cause she really likes the guy.
Seen this guy driving with this big ass thing in the back of his pick up truck on the highway. Made me laugh for some reason. I think it’s the one of the guys from ZZ Top? Correct me if I’m wrong. Have a great night guys
Uf! Sorta got caught up here but I’ll admit I had to breeze through hundreds of posts! I am always impressed by folks who reach out here before giving in to urges and friends stepping in to offer support. It’s always wonderful to witness. Well done on successes and hang in there if you’re having a rough time. Keep coming back!
Im glad reaching out here helped in your time of need.
I am like you. I put on 100lbs from drinking and my health was shit. According to my BMI im obese. I was depressed, felt lost and without hope.
I focused on getting sober first. Then at 8 months bought a scale and started to make small changes. Ive lost 30lbs since i started making those changes. My blood work is coming back better.
My advice is one thing at a time. I would highly, highly recommend AA.
i am home after surgery. really hurts to move my torso at all. 4 incisions total on my stomach so it hurts a lot.oh my god I tried to lay down and it hurt so bad I couldn’t breathe.
I’m in the recliner now, eating some pudding so I can take some ibuprofen, and then hopefully sleeping on the recliner
Day 52
Went camping over the weekend as a belated BDay celebration for my boyfriend. It was so nice just to have the small break. I took a hiatus from my diet/meal tracking, so back to it tomorrow!
@Noshame I hear you. Something will come along, keep trying.
I totally understand that feeling. Sounds like you are feeling disappointed and frustrated with yourself. I’m sorry you are so afraid of the Dr, is there someone who could go with you? Weight can be lost. I have been in the same position of hating my current weight and being angry at my past self for letting myself get there. Letting go of those negative feelings and focusing on positive changes and how they make you feel better is a good first step. Emotions are natural, but you can learn little by little to accept them and let them go (not control). Drinking will not help any of these things.
Yes! This! And i think it should be pinned somewhere. I feel like most of us if not all of us has had a moment where we really needed help and couldn’t put it all into words!
Thank you for reminding/ letting people know that this is an option
Checking in Day 463
Feeling extremely tired right now. I woke up at 5am to workout and i think it just drained me for the day lol
Hubby went to go and tattoo and so it was just me and our boy. We couldnt go out for a wagon walk as it was too smokey outside from the wildfires near by, so we baked cookies instead. I was very impressed with his baking abilities We frosted them and added sprinkles. It was so much fun!
Then i tidied up and we relaxed. Its been a good day. But boy am i tired. Theres a thunder shower rolling in and im really looking forward to it. Worked on a new workout plan to try. All n all the day has been good
I’m sorry you’re having a rough time. I hope things get easier for you soon. I understand the different medications affecting sleep and mood rollercoaster. I hope it evens out soon and you can get some rest!
Sending
Im trying to shake this interaction at work. Two coworkers were very rude to me in a meeting…kinda mean. Someone spoke up and said she thinks i was just trying to be helpful…which i was. Ive felt off ever since this interaction.
Why are some people just mean and dont care about others? Driving home from work i tried to let it go and i tried to hand it over to my higher power. Its still bothering me. Kinda like a little girl in the school yard that just wanted to play with the other girls but they attacked.
So driving home i tried to put words to what im feeling. Like how am i gonna tell my TS peeps?! and it reminded me when i dealt with a bitch named Nancy at my last job. I was trying for a month sober and posted Nancy is a Bitch…Nancy makes me want to drink. And that just made me grateful i dont have to drink at sucky people being mean. I still wanna know why everyone cant be kind and why bad behavior is accepted at a trauma informed company meh…imma hit a meeting and hope i can get passed this because i only have bad moments not bad days.
My head of department called us all lazy bc he was the one that shut a door. I told him I can’t believe you are calling me lazy and next time I come to work I’ll check all the doors.
Difference is I won’t tell everyone and expect a medal.
Spiritual growth my friend.
We frosted them and added sprinkles. It was so much fun!
