26 days AF. Woke up in my usual negative mood (alcoholic brain) so did my morning meditation and zoomed in to a meeting. Immediately felt better. Then exercise and now healthy lunch. This afternoon step homework. I’m grateful to have time to rest and better myself. I have a big project to tackle tomorrow.
“Expectations are resentments waiting to happen”
Willingness (unlimited, infinite) > willpower (limited, finite)
@nastya_is_fighting much love and hugs my friend. I can’t even imagine what you are experiencing but do know that these voices are just noise. You know in your heart that your bf loves you and cares for you and will not be cheating on you. I do hope that you take time for self-care today and are able to silence these voices.
@brian1965uk so sorry that the healthy outlet that you have chosen is being perceived as obsessive behavior. I do think you need to keep doing what you are for your mental and physical health. Your wife might just see this as a bit much because she doesn’t see you doing this daily while she is at work. I know you can’t just switch it off when you are on vacation. Wishing you the best for your marathon – so excited for you!
@rockstar24777 OH MY goodness – so sorry that you went through that with the new meds – Fuck this shit indeed. Sending you comfort and hopefully a good nights rest ahead.
So sorry for all that you are feeling Dana – I do wish you the best of luck with getting a stronger prescription and that it does what it’s supposed to. Sending you much love my friend – stay strong. Better days lie ahead for you!
@kdog WHOA – so sorry that you were assaulted and are now in pain. Sending healing powers. Super impressed with your attitude. I understand not wanting to file for workmans comp but that is what it’s there for – you shouldn’t have to stress more about not being able to work or any sort of financial burden.
@mx_elle way to go with your bad self – 1800 days af!!! Damn straight! And 13 days no weed…
Checking in on Sunday afternoon - wow! so much to catch up on -i absolutely love it!
I started off shitty but slowly with time, patience and self care am feeling better… i made the mistake of feeding the damn squirrel this morning that shows up at my brothers door – not only did he take all the nuts i’d thrown out but is now begging for more – coming and rapping on the door and then posing for attention 
ok - so i’m off to tackle the day with some meditation - wishing everyone much love!!! 
look a all those nuts for this one squirrel…
Checking in! Today I went for my early morning walk at 7:30 (perfect timing) + short workout at the park. In the afternoon I went to the pool, unfortunately some baby puked in the pool, and we were no longer allowed to go inside until tomorrow… 
Shit happens. I still had a nice time chatting with a lady that I know from there, and had a good read in my Stephen King novel! Moka is back to normal behavior, that’s also excellent news! 
Tomorrow last day of my holidays… what a shame! I enjoyed these holidays!! Luckily I have another week at the end of July!! 
Day 145 Sober and I left home yesterday with my 3 kids (Katie-19), (Jonathan-17), and(Emily-15) to fly to Mexico for 8 days on a mission trip to help build homes, feed people, visit prisons, and provide medical help.
This is my first week of unemployment but this had been planned for months. 
Good morning friends just checking on day four sober. Have a lil irritation today but I’m pushing past it
Day 4, 5th evening
I am back home from family day without buying wine on any poor gasstation on a Sunday.
FUCK ALCOHOL 
ODAAT
Much love 
Checking in sober. I’m not really checking the number of days. It’s all just one day at a time.
Feeling depressed and lonely. My therapist is strongly in favor of daily gratitude and affirmations, so I’ve been trying. And got out for a walk this morning at the local park. I’m trying to get the critical chores done like laundry. Not sure I’ll manage to cook anything for dinner. Probably just a sandwich.
I find myself at times wishing I could just numb myself. But I remind myself that we don’t do that anymore. It really is just OFDAAT.
Take care of yourselves. We are all just doing the best we can where we are.
Congratulations for 1800 days. You can be proud and i hope you are and you are doing ok.
Congratulations on 1800 days af! That’s no small feat.
@Sissychris39 congrats on double digits for no using credit cards and 700 days no pills
@nastya_is_fighting congrats on all your numbers, but especially one week clean from self-harm I’m sorry you argued with your bf before he went away, I hope you will feel better after some time apart 🩵
@Timetochange congrats on your week
@Cjp congrats on 14 months
@MsCjean welcome back
@Sabrina80 congrats on 9 months
@MooseTracks congrats on 300 days
@Andrea4 congrats on 11 months
@Mira_D sorry the anxiety is so raw 
do you have a therapist to help you navigate through everything you’re going through and the trauma? 🩵
@Jesile congrats on your week I hope Moka is okay 🩵
@anon74766472 congrats on 1700 days
@JazzyS that is now my plan 
congrats on 20 smoke-free months
@Catmama23 I’m glad thing are going well with your new sponsor, and that she has a cat 
@MeSober congrats on 2+ weeks
@Scorpn sorry you’ve been struggling sending strength 🩵
@Newsoberhuman666 welcome congrats on 3 days and for deleting the number, hope you blocked it too
@mewmcmew congrats on your first chair glad it went well and felt good. Also congrats on your progress
@icebear congrats on 750 days I hope you find a healing outlet for the emotions 🩵
@Wasabi79 congrats on quadruple digits and for your first sober wedding
@crystalclear enjoy your break with your daughter
@Chosen2001 congrats on 30 days
@Kdog sorry you were assaulted wishing you healing 🩵
@mx_elle congrats on 1800 days AF
1056 days no alcohol.
521 days no cocaine.
36 days no vape.
Checking-in for the past 2 days.
Yesterday late afternoon, I decided to go to the shop to buy a pizza, all the way up to the entrance, that was my only intention, but once I was inside the shop, I lost all control and spent £23 on binge foods. So I binged badly, mostly sugary stuff so then I’ve been asleep until a few hours ago, and feel rubbish now, my whole body hurts, sugar really is a poison to me. That particular shop is now banned. I still had crisps left so I ate those when I woke up, so day 1 will be tomorrow for binge-eating.
Tomorrow I need to be awake early, to do my morning routine, and shower, before driving into town for my first new therapy session. Nervous but excited too. Then as soon as I get home, I’m going for a carvery with my auntie and uncle looking forward to that.
I hope you’ve all had wonderful sober weekends.
🩵
Day 6. Late night is dangerous for me and I am trying to go earlier to bed
Thank you so much!
The last week has been rough. Without any substances to distract me a lot of intrusive thoughts have been flooding in without so much as a hello. But I keep reminding myself I need to feel it to deal with it.
well the 4th of July is coming up. it’s the anniversary of when I had to spend the week of the 4th with a family member who was sexually abusing me. fireworks give me flashbacks. i also have a pap smear July 5th which I know is going to be incredible difficult
I’m not sure if it’s because of this week but my chronic pain is so bad today. i can’t eat I can’t do anything without pain. I’m not going to do anything but I just want to die. my mobility has been getting worse. and I don’t even know what’s wrong with me. yeah I know I have fibromyalgia and osteoarthritis but that doesn’t explain 99% of my symptoms. doctors don’t care.
if this is how my body is going to be I don’t want to live in it
So very cool my friend – Wow what an experience for you and the kids. Wishing you the best for your mission.
@sissychris39 nice job on your all your numbers but hell yeah on 700 days my friend!
@hoofhearted LOL – love the pic – Happy Sunday
@catmancam I’m sorry that you had to reset your binge counter. Wishing you luck with your 1st therapy session! Have fun at the carvery tomorrow
@dee19 It’s still early in your sobriety my friend – it does take time to learn how to deal with our feelings rather than suppressing them. Do wish you the best of luck and hoping for a easier week ahead.
@sadmemequeen Oh love i’m so sorry that you are dealing with all of this and then having flashbacks on top of everything else. Sending you much love my friend. Wishing that your parents the doctors help you figure out your symptoms and provide what is needed to ease your pain. Hope you are able to meditate or do calming practices so that you can get through this holiday without added trauma.
Checking in on Sunday evening
193 days weed and alcohol free
608 days cigarette free
It was a decent enough day - started off crappy but i was able to manage my symptoms enough and gain enough energy to have my cousin and her daughter come over for a afternoon visit. I know they are only here for 3 weeks so am trying to get in as much time as possible. No urges today thank goodness. Hope everyone had a wonderful Sunday - much love my friends
