Hey all, checking in on day 1,080. I hope everybody has a good one!
Thank you so much. 
Im going to look into finding some meetings to go to. Thank you for the link you gave me, it should send me in the right direction. I appreciate the support everyone has been showing me. I feel like im on the right path in my recovery journey especially knowing im not alone. 
Itās okay to release in recovery. Itās part of recovery. Youāre not alone. I believe in you.
Eeeep well done on 90 days, Iām proud of you!!
Day 16 (well half way through it) doing well but focussing on my meds but getting well, nervous about work as im signed off and not sure how much money ill get but i just have to see. Its a struggle trying to recover a bi polar relapse with no support, but need to stay strong see GP friday and my psychiatrist again in 3-4 weeks, think a new role/environment will help and told my boss that, who supports me at least. Hope everyone is ok and stay strong 
@juli1 sweetheart no one is judging you. We have been where you are and know the struggle. I know you have all the tools and support but somehow that addict voice keeps calling you back. Are you able to talk to someone irl when the urges hit? Are you able to change your routine ā I know many times on my way home if the urge is strong I just keep driving. Iāll run errands that were meant for another day just so I donāt go home and start drinking. Sending you strength and best of luck with your 1st day of sobriety
@Liminal.rehab YES ā 90 days of freedom ā you are killing it. So happy for your new you!
@jessicaann93 you are definitely not alone and so happy to see you thriving at day 6
@nastya_is_fighting So glad to see you back on the self-care path. Sorry for your anxiety attacks ā glad you had someone of comfort with you. You are not alone and do deserve to live a full and healthy life. Your new book or book of quotes sounds great ā have fun with it. A great distraction for sure
Checking in on Tuesday morning - always feels weird after a long weekend
I am sober and plan to stay this way. I am not letting anyone / any symptom or anything get me down today ā That is the mentality at the present and god willing I will hold onto it all day. Have a wonderful day everyone - sending much love
Now, I am asking myself what you do to balance your deficit you.
If I understand correctly: what you are doing to give yourself a value? To feel seen?
189 chilling watching films
Pain very bad 
Happy sober Tuesday everyone
First of all it is the aspect of not planning the activities due to the fact of not being enough.
What am I doingā¦
Counter thoughts
Trying to reprogram patterns
Challenges like getting the lifesaver cert
Last one doesnāt realy fill any cups.
Itās as if the cup has wholesā¦
Itās just another try!
Like I am doing sports to treat myself, not to loose weight
Like I am eating a meal I realy want and not that fits your macros to loose weight
I am choosing taking care of myself first
Itās okay to not fulfill this work perfect
For example.
Not sure if it works, I just started practicing
Thank you so much for your kind words!
I love your way and support. 
Thank you so much!
Welcome, I havenāt seen you before!
Glad that you are here.
There he is! Congratulations on your 90 days DJ.
Thatās a biggun!
Iām so happy for you.
Keep up the great work.
Checking in.
I have the feeling of not being able to support much atm. I am exhausting myself. And I am thinking constantly how to improve the situation. Probably thinking less and feel more as the usual task was back in therapy.
I was thinking about some things today. How I always wanted to be really good at something, like in my actual position, like being a good runner, being good in cycling or Tennis or whatever. The point was maybe more to belong somewhere. I wasnāt willing to put the work and time into becoming all the above mentioned things, I lost interest too quickly and my mind wanted to try different things.
When I wanted to stop drinking maybe I also wanted to belong to the club of sober people. I wanted what I thought they had: an easy life where the sun was always shining. But I failed. Well, at first I failed every day. To be honest, I only began to put work into this sobriety, discovery, recovery thing when I was out of other options. I fancied death more than the life back then. Outer life didnāt change too much. I somehow managed to overcome just the picture of wanting to be sober and working on living sober.
Congratulations on your 6 days Jessica.
Hopefully weāre not overwhelming you butā¦ā¦.
We got a thread for that.
About finding a sponsor
We got your back.
Checking in. Life is currently still a shit show. I need work like yesterday and the pain of losing my niece is unbearable. However, Iām sober and drinking has been the furthest thing from my mind. Stay strong everyone and congrats on all the great numbers.
Day 2 letās go! I lost my beautiful mother suddenly April 4th. The stress of handling her estate is to the point it feels like I canāt yet grieve. Which probably didnāt help my drinking. Iām feeling strong today though. One day at a time! One step at a time, with everything. This too shall pass.
Well I made it through my birthday without drinking. Enjoyed my treat - a yummy pizza 
! Got lots of love and hugs and went to bed sober. Nice! Iām on day 10 and canāt go back. I feel so much better SOBER.
Happy belated Birthday!! And congratulations on 10 days! Look at you go! 
@Dmcg1987 congrats on 50 days 
@Alycia Iām glad the session gave you some hope š©µ
@Juli1 welcome back pleased to read from you 
@liminal.rehab congrats on 90 days and also for 11 years cancer-free 
@MegaMeg Sorry for your loss 
@Alice13 congrats on double digits
1023 days no alcohol.
488 days no cocaine.
3 days no vape.
1 day no binge-eating.
The depression is heavy today. Iāve done all of my usual daily things. Hoping for an early night.
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