@Alisa…you are so kind. This is the day. I’m a little jittery…but it will be great. Happy to see my sons. I realized last night that everyone is really happy for us!
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Holy Smoke!! 6 years!! Amazing and wonderful!
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@danam56 the thoughts/ urges do come at the craziest times – glad you are safe from indulging. Every time we abstain from the urges, we take a bit of ourselves back and gain some strength. I do hope you are enjoying your vacation. We are all here for you if the thoughts do get a bit too loud. Possibly also look for nearby meetings while you are on vaca.
@matt congrats on your 15 years of marriage!
@crystalclear I think you are doing a great job. Just think back to when you first stopped drinking and all the obstacles you overcame. You are now re-training your mind with ED and I know it’s frustrating but you are mindful of it and taking action. Be kind to yourself and know you have the strength to overcome this as well.
@simplyme welcome back and congrats on 5 days of sobriety! That is huge. Glad to hear that you are approaching this time differently. Hopefully you have some support irl and will be more active here to help with accountability and support. Hope to see you around
@kevineskay A huge congrats on your 9 months! You should be super proud of yourself!
@geng very impressed with your GP and hopefully the switch in meds will help. I am thrilled that you were able to eat something. I too had to stop watching my normal tv shows (criminal minds, evil, Law and order SVU etc) and start watching light tv and comedy to help me heal – it’s amazing how much sadness / negativity we can absorb from watching a show (forget about binge watching a show – lol). Girl you are on day 6 and already showing improvement – be proud of yourself.
@dryln785 so good to see you back Mark. Happy that you are feeling a load off with getting approved for disability. It’s not so easy to pin point what is causing us to run away from something or towards the emptiness of our DOC. The cause could be a underlying childhood trauma, loneliness, just plain habit and routine, so many things … are you able to talk to a therapist? Possibly get some perspective on what’s going on? Fight the urges and fight for your right to live a healthy addiction free life. Just saw you r update – I do hope that you are able to meet with your therapist and able to find a healthier comfort zone
@lola Love the pooh pic – WOW! Congrats on your 6 years of ODAAT’s – rocking this addiction free life.
Checking in completely addiction free on a lovely Saturday morning
Much love to all my sober friends - sending strength to all those who are struggling today. We are stronger than our addictions! We can overcome this addiction with ODAAT. Lets all have a kick ass day.
sending much love 
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Checking in. All packed up & on the road…kids are happy, except my 2 year old would like to “trade” our pick up for a big rig for our drive. Love my family. Excited to see my mom & nephew. Excited to go to my Aunts; havent been since before our 2nd daughter was born, then covid hit. Dont want to be on my phone too much here bc we’re all hanging out, but just wanted to say good morening & wish evefyone another 24. Wish me some strength over the next few days. I will check in while on vacay, as I know how important connecting is. Thank you all for being here & sharing your stories.
Xo.
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Day 2: no grazing
Day 18: no credit cards
Day 20: no iced coffee
Day 706: no pills
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Day 10. Anxiety, anger and mood swings. Don’t feel like doing any mental work today. Did some chores and some gardening.
I realised that I like gardening. It calms me. And plants don’t speak. They don’t seek attention, they don’t complain. My wife loves my new hobby.
I have also been experimenting with different varieties and flavours of tea. Got myself a proper teapot and some exotic teas. I like a few, others not so much. I like drinking tea from a whiskey glass. Whisky was my weakness. I find it funny in a dark way.
I should start walking again, with my dog. She is always ready. I keep telling myself I should go but I never do so.
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Congrats on day 10 @Pagan . Your journey so far sounds alot like me. I got a tea pot and fresh teas from teasmith and drank it all night for months. I also became very sedentary in my addiction. And had trouble starting exercising. My problem was all or nothing thinking. I started with baby steps like take the dog for a walk on the weekend. Then it was 2 walks a week. A couple months later im going trying out different gyms that offer free classes.
At the beginning of my sobriety i just focused on staying sober and went to alot of different AA meetings. I only started to take action with my diet and fitness when i was 8 months sober and felt ready and safer in my sobriety.
Congrats on finding a hobbie you enjoy! Thats wonderful!!
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Day 2397 AF
Day 1.5 No carb binge
Checking in. I forgot to take my meds last night so took them as soon as I realized this morning. I’m surprised I slept through the night. Usually not taking my Effexor causes me to have withdrawals and dreams where I thrash around and talk. Feeling I need down time today, so I’m going to do some computer tasks that I can do lying in bed. Hopefully I will feel more energetic later in the day.
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Zes jaar!!! Yay!!! Hurray!!! Enzovoorts!!!
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Thank you. That sounds like very good advice. I should try the same. Those endorphins will definately help.
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Day 45. My whole mood has really changed for the good lately. I’m going out and socializing for the most part. When I go to the gym I’m talking to new people, I met two new people yesterday and asked them their names, we hit it off really good and I had no anxiety. Today I met a nice gentleman at the other gym I use to go to, I went there today bc I didn’t have time for the other gym. But I met this guy and he was older, but I made his day he said, I was cheering him on and pushing him to be stronger and do more. He said he’s never had someone do that for him and he was so grateful for me. It just meant alot to me as well, I feel since my slip my whole personality flipped and I knew I needed to put in more work and be more honest with my self. I’m making sure not focus on woman or think about relationships. And it helps me a lot doing that. I did over sleep today but over all my day has been amazing. Im also going to start that American traditional piece today and that will be fun. Idk I just hope to keep this positivity going, tomorrow I’m gonna hit an a.a meeting, I told myself every Sunday I’ll hit a meeting and maybe work up tomorrow when I’m comfortable. Anyways much love everyone
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Thank you for the motivation and inspiration. 
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Day 136. I don’t post here much, but want to say how motivating and inspiring you all are. 4.5 months ago I couldn’t fathom a single day without alcohol. Yet, here I am. Hard days still happen, this is part of living. But alcohol never, ever fixes anything. Keep pushing forward.
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@CATMANCAM @scorpn @jazzys @alisa
Thank you all for your support, kindness, and encouraging words.
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@KevinesKay huge congratulations on 9 months friend!
@anon53116147 Love ur positive post! Its good to hear u feeling good about things. Proud of u!
@Pagan welcome to the double digits! Glad to heae ur enjoying ur new hobby 
@Timetochange congratulations on 2 weeks! Way to go!
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Evening checkin sober
Mood today: destructive self-hate thoughts
Mood tonight: it’s better, I ate and I will rest
No swim today, it’s super hot in Germany and even if I go before closing the water will be cloudy from all the sunscreen and whatever.
Beside that there are more crazy people then swimmers, so it’s hard for us to catch the lanes.
Yesterday I accidentally hit a guy while doing a crawl. He was so stupid, just standing exactly ON the lane we trained on 40 minutes already. 
Will let the filters do it’s work overnight and go for an early swim tomorrow. 
Much love 
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Thank u
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Checking in
Day 510
Feeling slightly better than yesterday, but still pretty physically tired (I think my new meds are also causing some fatigue. Hopefully my body will adjust). I realized that i definitly need to work on my all or nothing thinking. Its a toxic trait for me for sure. I need to be much gentlier with myself and not beat myself up.
Other than that, today has been okay. Just been working. I decided to pray this morning to start my day off on the right foot. Also did some deep breathing. That helped. Its been awhile since i did that. I have had a couple of small using thoughts tho. Nothing major but still dont like having them. Just looking forward to going home honestly and being with my family. Getting some rest. Doing a bit of self care. Thats about it for me right now. I realt hope everyone is doing well today.
@cjp thank u so much for checking in on me friend 
How have u been lately?
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Evening check in. Really struggled today, just completely overwhelmed and at risk of burning out I think. There is a lot going on and I am not keeping on top of it all. Craving some time alone, just to be, but that isn’t realistic so need to find coping strategies. I have wanted to drink as that would normally be my way of avoiding, but I haven’t. Am sitting here frustrated but sober.
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