I hope everyone has a good, restful or challenging, and sober weekend.
Reading around a bit here and was thinking of some recent unrelated things.
As I am currently working in France, having another keyboard there it often occurs that I enter my password. Worng. I enter again, slowly. Wrong. I get angry, don’t understand what is the heck wrong. Entering it again slowly yet with more power . Wrong. I get really angry. And maybe only then I realize I need to change the settings. Or another classic that I changed it recently due to f*** 180 day new password rule. Well, often I think I do all I can, all that always worked and then: it doesn’t.
Part of it is habit too. We trained our brains to drink whenever wherever. In my case for decades. Everything triggers us to drink. We have to make new neural pathways with new habits. That’s possible but it takes time and work. Drink and that work will be undone. So don’t drink and work your sobriety. ODAAT.
You are welcome. I hope you get your balance right again. It’s not enough to be present on this earth, without playing a part. Or at least feeling like you are a vital character in the story.
But in my case: having enough free time to re-watch the best episodes of Supernatural must count for something
I love reading your posts and looking at your pictures. Thanks for sharing your struggles, victories, sad and happy times. I don’t always reply, but I wanted you to know that it’s all so much appreciated.
And one day I will visit your beautiful country and take it all in myself.
Haha, good attitude! I am already planning my TV viewing for my gallbladder surgery. I reckon classic murder mysteries will be featuring, nothing that requires too much concentration
Checking in on day 919. I don’t post much anymore on TS but I still read plenty and there is always something to learn or a reminder never to go back. I wouldn’t be sober if it wasn’t for this community and the wonderful friends I made here that I still check in with each day. To anyone new, embrace this community like it is your absolute lifeline because to be honest …… it is. Happy sober Saturday to you all
I’ve joined ST on June 20th and I absolutely love it. I’m on here several times a day and it really helps. I love getting advice and motivation from caring and generous people. Congratulations on day 919! You’ve got this!
Thank you all for your kindness. This reminds me of something I told a Valeo counselor a couple of years ago. I had the theory that people don’t work on making lives better, they work on staying in their comfort zone. I think I’ve been in “crisis mode” for so long that it has become my comfort zone. I don’t know exactly how to proceed from here.
I’ve missed several important appointments recently, including my therapist and I need to get back on the wagon.
@Mno I’m planning on traveling now that my debts are paid and I have yet to use the passport I’ve had for 5 years. Thought about your city because your pictures are awesome. Good to know you want to meet other members. I’ll give you a call if I get there.
Feeling some anxiety for the intake I’ll have on Monday for a diagnostic treatment centre. Contacted some fellows about it to vent. It’s a neuro centre were they will also check my brain out with for instance a MRI scan. Have to keep in mind that there is no diagnoses yet.
Still thinking about the diner I had with the grandparents, my son and his mother. It was for my son’s diploma. It was nice, but brought about a lot of feelings. It felt a bit like 14 years ago, but being me who was driving home alone afterwards. And with a different me. Noticed that my ex mother in law was quit emotional when I said goodby. A lot of what if thoughts and what could have been. Guilt and shame is for sure an issue.
. Wrong. I get really angry. And maybe only then I realize I need to change the settings. Or another classic that I changed it recently due to f*** 180 day new password rule. Well, often I think I do all I can, all that always worked and then: it doesn’t.
