@geng WOW love – well done on your 2 weeks. Yeah to having more energy to get out and do 1.5 hr walk – no more anxiety – eating healthily – so many things to be grateful for. Wishing you loads of luck with your tapering down of Prozac. @butterflymoonwoman I totally agree that if I miss out on my meditation and prayer that I feel weakened and susceptible to negative energy. Great job in making the correlation and wishing you strength in working to keep up the connection (I know it does take time and work). @chase.e.u I am grateful that you found this app and will be staying connected regularly – it is a life savor. Looking into AA meetings is also a great step forward – hopefully you will be able to connect with a sponsor to help you stay accountable. It took a few months for my family to believe me when I said I was going to quit drinking and my attitude was going to change – it is easy to tell them but they had to see my words in action. Keep strong!! @catmancam way to go on not giving into the binge urge. Avoiding ice cream when it drives right to you on a hot day is hard for just about everyone – I wouldn’t be so hard on yourself. I know that sometimes I give in and eat something that will cause me to back slide in my recovery but we also can’t be mean to ourselves when that happens. We make goals and find other ways of sticking to them. I believe in you my friend – you have come this far and you will conquer this as well. Self-hate has no place in recovery
Awe love you are doing fantastic – another night sober with a clear head – wishing you the best with your job exit and also the “man issue” – YOU DO DESERVE BETTER! Does your pool area have a hot tub – could use for your muscle tension. I do hope your body tensions go away soon – hard to focus when you body is too stiff and not fluid. @rosacando so lovely to hear from you. Grateful that you made it through all your challenges lately. Hopefully you have recovered from the migraines and illness. Yeah to finally being able to close out the the loose ends with your rental and properly move into your new home!
Checking in Sunday evening
207 days alcohol and weed free
622 cigarette free
I did get through some self-care today but had a few dizzy spells as i started the day later so i didn’t get good solid foods into me till later (a reminder that i have to keep on my eating schedule). a few other new symptoms popped up that i am not ignoring but not letting them get to me - will see my doc on Tuesday so will go from there … here’s to another addiction free day! sending everyone much love
Thank you so much, Jazzy! You’re a sweetheart. I’m sorry you are struggling with symptoms. Your commitment to TS is incredible with all you are dealing with. I hope you feel better.
I think that it’s not right. Hating you for having ice cream. Having some ice cream as a diabetic is not wrong. Hating you for having some is wrong. Leading up to binges.
Working day shifts, just three, followed by a 5 day mini vacation. Yay! Will think of something nice to do. Which won’t involve any substance abuse. Never again. Have as good a week as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love from Amsterdam.
Pretty chill day. Weather went from grey to gorgeous! I was going to hang out with my boyfriend, but he has terrible allergies right now and spent the whole day sleeping, poor guy.
I went for one half hour walk for my head, and another half an hour walk up to the store and back.
The chick I met at my last AA meeting told me about one happening tomorrow night. I guess her friend is speaking there. I think I’m going to go. I’ll ask for a ride again, so I can’t change my mind.
I wrote a long email to a friend with updates on my life. I’ve been meaning to do that for a ages!
I did a bunch of stovetop cooking (oven is still broken) and relaxed a lot with my dogs.
I’m winding down now with a cup of herbal tea. Another day sober down.
Day 23 Monday morning and back at work at 8.
Not sleeping well, but I think today will be ok. Feeling quite tired. Off on Friday tho so its a short week which is good. Planning to go to venice in September again. Need to plan not drinking there and learn how to ask for non alcoholic drinks in Italian. Have a good day folks
1500 Days! Big congratulations and Wow! The power of ODAAT and community! Thank you for everything, your posts, your inspiration, your wonderful self. Here’s some fruit for your celebration … Enjoy each day!
Not much to report. Trying to eat healthy, keep up with July Fit Chellenge, doing some yoga and running. Planning meals for my kiddos (it’s always a challenge to feed them with something else than pasta with olive oil and parmigiano, picky eaters). I miss school and playgroup and just one week of vacations gone, five to go.
One of my 2,5yo said “fucking shit” yesterday and it was sooooo difficult not to laugh xD but I kept poker face and luckily he didn’t say it again till now.
I’m bored, I’m tired but most important I’m sober.
One day at a time
I did not planned this. I was planning to get drunk several times this week. I will get salary today / will get perfect days alone and everything seemed lined up for my pleasures. [I was planning it]. Then yesterday I was hurrying up to shop around 14:40 (because alcohol is not allowed to buy here after 15:00 on Sundays)…
So I am going on my way to buy some beer and I hear - ‘‘Hello, Do you believe in Jesus Christ’’… I try to never turn my back on anyone, so I said ///yes/// and we had quite interesting conversation. Anyway, our talk ended on me looking to clock and seeing that I am going to be late to buy beer and the mister telling me about how Devil is working through our thoughts - He says - You can clearly hear if your thoughts comes from God or from Devil… And I am clearly felt that - undeniably - and I mean how strange coincidence it was…
I mean really, just think about it in a moment ? And all the reading I had before and everything… I don’t want to sound crazy and I still try to be as rational as possible / yet it hit me strong this time /\ .
And then he asked If I am accepting Jesus in my heart so he could flush all my sins? ‘‘Have no doubt - whenever you in doubt - it’s all gone, whenever you believe in it - it’s working’’ - He added. I said Yes and we prayed together…
He said congratulations - You will remember this day as it is a day You are reborn now…
It hit me very deep / I heard those words 15 years ago from surgeon after very serious surgery. Congratulations - Today you can celebrate your second birthday. I mean how many birthdays did I had ?? And how many do I have left ??? If - and I do believe - for sure - there are powers We do not see with naked eye - that was truly it - just trying to hold up me at my fall - and I do believe that my next one can be fatal one…
I drinked a little bit of alcohol that day, but I felt really strange, I felt so free and disgusted at the same time. It’s like really you can hear and clearly see two paths in front of you. Every time /\ Everyday. Yet we ignore it many times. I throw up most of alco away and went to AA meeting later that day. It was a group in the Church building where I was baptized as a child.
I am choosing to Believe and seek the light instead of darkness. I think that it’s time for me to wake up / as the ringing at the doors are getting louder and louder. I can’t ignore it anymore. The message is loud and clear now:
But even after writing this i start to doubt… Can those coincidences really happening or I am going crazy?
I feel afraid of what I do not understand. I do experienced something even more strange in my past, but after some time it all seems like a dream… I really afraid of that “surrender” part… I had a nap in my truck with all those thoughts spinning in my mind and said to this Higher Power… I will open random Bible verse and please answer me if that’s real - I am in doubt here… I am going crazy or what’s happening?
And here’s the random message:
I try to be sceptical… I don’t know what to think…
Or on Saturday I was working out at gym and my headphones battery went out and when headphones turned off there were this song about Higher Power - Holly Spirit playing loudly at gym…
I am praying a lot lately and asking for guidence, but I did not expected that level of answers to come along. I think I am just going crazy…
You’re a sweetheart. I’m sorry you are struggling with symptoms. Your commitment to TS is incredible with all you are dealing with. I hope you feel better. 
Monday morning and back at work at 8.
