I totally missed that you guys have bought your own house. That’s wonderful. A huge congratulations from Sweden. And good luck in the new home. 
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Mooie cijfers Menno ! 
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I don’t think you are crazy. I don’t believe in a higher power, but I do believe in the unconscious. If you are seeing these coincidences it is because you know subconsciously that you need to stop, and so you are seeing these connections. Or, I am totally wrong, and there is an interventionalist God. But either way, it is time for you to quit. You deserve to not feel disgusted with yourself, to feel free and proud. You can do it. 
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472 days. I have a friend telling me i should drink now and ill be fine and that i shouldnt give up forever, and to see how i go having a drink again. How annoying to have to argue with adults about not wanting to drink. Anywho i ended the convo by saying, I dont know if i wont drink ever again, but right now, today, i dont want to drink and tomorrow ill make the same decision.
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I’m here I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 5
Yesterday was hard, but you guys made me feel much better. A big thank you to everyone for that. 
Sun is shining through the clouds today, I’ve had the kids plan a Yes day for Friday. And next week we’re going to start our Roadtrip with a few small day field trips close to home. And then we’re going for the big one in the end of this month.
I’m so excited.
Besides that we’ve been looking at big tents for future roadtrips and vacations. I call them Germans because there’s a lot of German tourists with huge tents coming to Sweden during the summer. It looks so cozy, and they looks so happy and relaxed. I want that, but I’ve been afraid to try. Not anymore though. So there’ll probably bee a few Fall camping trips this year as well.
Yesterday when all it did was raining,I was so incredibly borded and couldn’t thing of much else besides getting drunk or eating candy. I needed something to do, and therefore I decided that renovating our bedroom would be a good idea. So now I’ve started a project that probably because a little more to handle than I first though.
There’s water pipes coming up from the floor, that was hidden in a built in closet I’m taking down, some of them leads to somewhere, others don’t,electric cords that leads to nowhere inside another closet (it’s three on the row and I’m tearing them all down) I need to figure out which ones I can remove, which ones I need to keep, and how to do that and make it looks nice.
House is built in 1948 we’ve been trying to get the blueprints for house and garden for years. Everyone including the home village association have been looking, but there is no blueprints. And Barley nothing have been fixed until we moved in. So most of the time it’s a guessing game.
I know I might need to call a professional like Super Mario brothers or something, but since I’m not moving any pipes or plans to re-do the electricity I hope I don’t have to. Because that’ll probably cost a minor fortune.
I’ll keep y’all updated. Honesty this was exactly what I needed, something to focus on, something to do,plan,create with my own hands,dream about and look forward too.
Wishing you a wonderful day.
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I was practicing Buddhism 15 years ago. I do see all this are just metaphors for the things our brains are incapable to calculate. I learned, there are practices to manipulate with that information, so it stimulate Pineal Gland, Kundalini and so on. Those who knows something about it - knows - it is hard to digest information. Those who don’t, well I suggest leave it as it is. After I almost died 15 years ago I got clear message to seek Christian way. It’s a bit different, but they all lead the same way and have the same messages spread through different spiritual languages, more suitable for different cultures, different paths and different “spiritual climate” as I call it. Yet it did not change the fact that we live in much larger Life as we are capable to percept.
That is true it’s time for me to quit, but as I mentioned before I can explain things in rational way, yet when things start to shift and it’s happening, all my logic melts away…
I just afraid of that “surrender” part and afraid to jump into that pit of strange coincidences… I don’t know. Feeling really dualistic right now.
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Try not to feel scared or afraid. Feel embraced.
Let the good in your life envelop you and see where it takes you?
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Such an amazing achievement Menno.
Congratulations, your commitment and input is inspiring to so many!
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1500 days, that’s great. Congratulations. You are amazing
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I’ve got goosebumps…sooo many signs and yet you still think you are in control… You lost control of your life years ago maybe it’s time for some divine intervention to take control and start making the choices. All you gotta do is not pick up one drink for one day and sit back and enjoy the ride…
If your going to pray the least you can do is listen.
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Gefeliciteerd maat 
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Day 597
Great workout in the gym this morning, got weighed and I’m only 6kg off of my target weight with 4 weeks left and I haven’t started my cutting yet, keep going like this I might not have to.
Feeling good, looking healthy and ready to take on whatever the world throws at me today.
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Hey all, checking in on day 1128. I hope everybody has a good one!
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Day 940,
Feeling the dispair again, last year I was in a different headspace. The ADHD medication did work fine until it pushed me in my PTST. And the rest is history. Having a diagnostic treatment soon. They will acquire information from 5 institutions: schema therapy, ADHD, PTST, thyroid treatment all from last year and from my last alcohol treatment about 31 months ago. I’m repeating myself, but really need to vent. It feels like I’m looking at the Himalaya, I have crossed already a couple of time in my life, but I don’t know if I have another crossing in me. I’m feeling like surrendering……
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Good morning all!
Waking up hangover free, never gets old.
10 days, 11 hours alcohol free.
Im trying to just let it be and not think too far ahead of all the undoing I want to do from all the drinking I’ve done. Im coming back after a near 2 year lapse, and all the weight is back, the debt is back and it’s weighing on my mind. Trying to focus on today and not letting my alcoholic brain get me. That is enough. ODAAT!
Not one drop.
Hioe ya’ll have an amazing 24 hours 
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Nice numbers Menno! 
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Wow if thats not a sign @zzz i dont know what is! Keep trying for sobriety. You are worth it!
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Day 23, a bit flat today, long story short. However i do it, i am not drinking alcohol again
Whatever life throws my way. No excuses any more.
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In my opinion, that’s not a friend. A friend supports your decisions. Excellent answer!! You don’t owe anyone an explanation about why you are or are not drinking. The people who have a problem with our abstinence usually have a problem with alcohol. Your wise choice shines a light on their foolish choices. You do what’s best for you and keep taking it one day at a time! Before you know it those days add up.
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I love that awesome number @Mno! You have been such an inspiration to me since I joined this forum. I am thankful to “know” you. Keep up the good work!! Love from Texas. 
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