Day 199.
Last night I slept like shit, kept waking up in a panic. One of my clients hasn’t paid yet and it’s stressing me out, they’re usually really good so I don’t wanna jump the gun and go overboard chasing it.
I tried to meditate but made the mistake of sitting next to the garden bin where people throw in cigarette butts. You can imagine how soothing a nice deep breath of cancer smell was.
Today I’m travelling all day, so I really need to get my act together.
Day 6. I had a nice evening yesterday. My mood was good and I had some positivity flowing. I need to try get some exercise later, I know that will help keep a decent consistency through the week. I’ll get dips and anxiety will kick in but I can either choose to acknowledge it and know it will pass or I can let it consume me. I’ll choose the former.
“This too shall pass” is powerful, I’m going to use that whenever I need it today 
Your sobriety date is the last date you used any mood altering substance.
Don’t worry about your family. It is you who deserves better. Do it for yourself first.
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Day 955,
Just a brief check-in. Arrived, waiting to be picked up. Don’t know how to feel, but that’s fine.
Greetz rob
Not the greatest morning. H was 2 days using his DOC and now he’s all the time irritated, blaming me for all the shit in the world. And his uncle is visiting us and I have to listen what a great man and father H is, bullshit.
And now I’m making even more problems cause I don’t wanna eat meat (I was never true wege but since I was a kid I never liked meat and I feel better when I don’t eat it, I started eating much more when I met H cause he’s huge meat eater). So now it’s a fucking end of the world cause I don’t wanna eat his carbonara and make some pasta with veggies for myself instead.
But hey, at least I’m sober.
That is amazing! I have just remembered I woke up last night and saw the most amazing moon. It was so bright I thought a security light was on. Beautiful though, made me feel very restful
@KarenKW congrats on 2 weeks 
@CueBall8n9 I hope your first day went well 
@AyBee cool catch 
congrats
@Andrea4 congrats on your year 
@Rob11 wishing you all the best, it sounds like a good program, sending strength 
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@anon53116147 all the best for your move today, glad you’re feeling good 🩵
@Sabrina80 well done for taking care of you 🩵 best of luck with your applications 
@Chosen2001 congrats on 60 days
@RosaCanDo I’m pleased you’re feeling better so excited for the garden you will create, it will be such a wholesome project 
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@JazzyS congrats on all the 2s
@BT824 welcome back sending strength 🩵
@HappyDays congrats on 90 days
@GenG congrats on 30 days
@Kipper welcome back congrats on day 1
1085 days no alcohol.
550 days no cocaine.
65 days no vape.
Checking-in for yesterday, fell asleep whilst catching-up…
Therapy was okay yesterday. The therapist wants me to stop focusing so much on what I’m not doing ie not bingeing/using etc, and start counting the ‘small wins’ ie all the stuff I am doing. She wants me to add a tick/star even if I go to the shop and only buy 1 pack of crisps and mango instead of 2 of each. I can appreciate how this may theoretically help me be more kind to myself, but with my all or nothing mentality, having any of it is bad. I also know from experience that there is really no “just one”, but, I will do it, because I get ticks/star for all of my daily routines and activities as well, and I’ve added a few new ones I’d like to implement so this may be the motivation I need.
Last night was the final of Love Island, I’ve been watching it every night for the past two months. Now that it’s ended, I am planning to go to sleep earlier and wake up earlier, and hopefully start my days with a refreshing and energising early morning walk. I also will hopefully not be tempted to binge as I won’t be watching any TV on my phone in bed. I will allow myself to watch TV in the lounge, as I don’t associate that with eating or bingeing.
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Checking in sober, Day 3
Good on u girl xx
Thanks Kelly 
Really looking forward to getting some distance behind me. ODAAT xx
Day 38. Seven meetings today, weather is rubbish here.
Tomorrow tho work looks alot more relaxed which is good.
Going to attend a workshop for parents estranged from adult children in oct
Hey all, checking in on day 1143. I hope everybody has a good one!
Keep coming back.
Thinking of you 
i know its not my place to comment, but you are not the problem the way he is trying to make you feel you are the problem. I wish you strength.
When you said 7 meetings today i thought you meant 7 AA meetinfs and I almost fell over 
then I saw you were talkinf about work and i was like…um yes thats makes more sense LOL 
Is it?
Mine is the first day I didn’t aka my last hangover day.
Day 69. Holy moly today is the day, today was the last day I had to sign in for roll call, today was the last day of doing chores or taking meds. It’s wild, I can’t believe it and now I need to enter the real world again and make sure I’m implementing what I’ve learned into my everyday life. I’m excited and ready, I ordered my new keyboard last night and I’m excited to get that and try it out lol. I’m gonna go hit the gym before I move at 2 much love everyone.
