I’m ok. I have just been feeling like there’s too much to do. Too many things to write down/ manage/ etc.
I didn’t get much sleep last night because there was a wolf spider the size of my hand in the house last night and I had a panic attack 
but today I am giving out diapers for free to people in need. So it made me feel a little better 
How are you doing today?
That explains it! Thanks!
Checking in 587 days
OH WOW - so grateful that the passengers are ok - i do hope both drivers are too. Grateful that you listened to your gut - have a wonderful day love!
this can become overwhelming and exhausting. I am sorry. Do you find that the therapy is helping you not only confront your feelings but giving you tools to deal with them safely?
Wolf spider – YIKES - i would be in a bit of a panic attack as well - were you able to get rid of it or show it the door? Sorry that it fucked up your sleep. Hopefully it’s a short day so you can get some rest in today.
Girl your big heart never ceases to amaze - I love your compassion! glad that you are starting to feel better.
I am having a fairly decent day - it’s already 2:20 here and i am still feeling okayish - not too shabby pain wise, a bit tired but nothing extensive and i do feel light and free in the mind. All in all that is good…
Hope you are able to have a wonderful relaxing day Renee - 
Checking in on day 789.59 (a little disappointed I missed catching a 789.10 screenshot earlier). On holiday overseas with the family. I always forget how challenging it is to travel with jet lagged kids. Had some good pizza, and now they are watching SpongeBob in German. Hoping tonight will be easier.
Thank you very much for your post. Its really helped, especially cosndiering people who dont drink abusively so just dont get it.
Im not going to drink tonight but i am going to be very grumpy.
Day 345
Super duper day today…had a lovely family day out with my daughter, my 2 neices and my mother and step father…we went to a childrens farm and saw lots of beautiful animals…had a picnic whilst there… then we had a trip to a nearby beach …built a sandcastle…collected stones and shells and felt the sand and ocean on our feet…absolutely perfect 
Day 18: no grazing
Day 738: no pills
Checking in sober day 24.
I’ve had a migraine most of the day so spent the morning in bed. My meds finally kicked in so the pain is mostly better but I’m feeling out of it. I’m trying to get some work done so I don’t have to use a full sick day. Of course we are supposed to get more storms and that just makes things worse.
Recovery is going okay. Therapy tomorrow.
Back home sober…
Without buying shit.
Wonderful swim, empty pool, lot of sun, 2200 meters, just fun!!! Joyned a new swimdress and unlimited loud laughing with another girl in the shower afterwards, as we jumped like crazy between hot and cold. Good things in life. 
As well as some very helpful
and inspiring chat
Much LOVE in your souls!
Sober. Been busy. Got keys to the new place. Some work to do but hoping to be in in a month. I may be too optimistic 
Today I am waking up with 4yrs 7 months and 8 days to a heavy heart as for some of you know the island of Maui is be devastated by fire and high winds are fueling these fires. All I can do is pray 
for my fellow men and women who are being affected by it. I wish I could do more but they have shut down the road going into Lahaina phone power and Internet is down so it’s hard to get in touch with love ones and today it’s ok to feel hopeless in situations like these and not have to loose my shit over it. Before I would be all over the place trying to solve and fix problems I have no control over. Thank you to everyone that’s been checking in on me it really fills my heart the love of this community has for one another 
Therapy is not as bad as I thought it would be. They just want me to write things down, check in daily, and watch videos that are supposed to give me tools to help process things. And it does help, but it’s also kind of overwhelming. 
I think it’ll get easier. Hopefully anyway.
I figured the diapers will be a win win. Won for them because they’re usually expensive! And win for me because I can clear up a lot of space giving them away. 
Plus, a little good deed is good for the soul 
I’m glad you’re feeling ok! Hugs to you my friend
Day 39
Thanks @JazzyS
Damn, I was such a grumpy grump these last couple days. This new medication makes me feel a little nauseated I’ve noticed, so I have to take it with a meal. And I can tell it’s doing something with my brain chemistry…but it’s only day 5.
Made amends with my BF over our dumb disagreement. I’ve been in such toxic relationships in the past, sometimes it’s hard to know whether I’m overreacting to things or letting too much slide. It’s a balance I’m still working on.
Well, lots of walking and healthy eating, plus some self-help reading and quit-lit has left me in a better mood today. Oh, and of course, SLEEP! Lol which is beyond huge, naturally!
Went to an AA meeting today to get my head on straight, which helped. Getting some chores and things done.
Thankful to be here and be sober. You guys rock! 
Sorry, break ups are always hard, but remember to put yourself first and don’t let it ruin all your hard work. 
That’s so crazy. Glad you trusted your gut. 
Man I am seriously so grateful, I managed to get home today and surprised my girls. Well my mom and step dad apparently wanted to surprise me. I’m sitting here waiting for my girls to come home and the fed ex truck pulls up and he’s got a huge package, so I go out to help him and it’s a bike. I figured my step dad got a bike or something for himself. But no, they got me a new ebike and honestly I don’t know why, I don’t feel like I deserve this stuff. They said they are proud of me and proud for going to school and continuing doing what Im doing. But still idk it feels crazy accepting this.
You’ve earned it, Mike! And it’s something worth learning, how to accept praise and gifts from people who care about you and see your progress. So cool 
