Great time to practice humility, Mike. Accept the gift. I bet it makes them feel really good giving you the bike. You’ve shown great progress and that’s their way of telling you they see it and appreciate it.
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@JazzyS I may try some chair exercises tomorrow, thanks for the reminder that they are available, and huge congrats on everything you managed to achieve 
@Mischa84 congrats on 40 days I hope you all enjoyed the zoo 
@Kipper you can still choose to be sober.
@Billy85 congrats on 6 months+
@nastya_is_fighting it’s good to read from you sorry about the break-up 
glad you’re still here and fighting 🩵
@Kaeo I’m so sorry for what is happening, and that you can’t contact your loved ones I really hope the fires stop ASAP 
sending strength to you 🩵
1094 days no alcohol.
559 days no cocaine.
74 days no vape.
I didn’t get to sleep until the early hours this morning, so I woke up very late as a result.
I’ve done my morning routine, meditations, started and finished a new book (it was very short, only 45 pages), finished the pattern I was colouring, and finished the audiobook I was listening to.
The self-help treatment is helping to manage my pain, because the ice block is numbing it. I just need to be very patient and keep hoping the injury starts to heal. If it’s no better by tomorrow, I think I said I’d go and have it checked out, but I don’t want to wait half a day to be sent home and told to do what I’m already doing, so maybe I’ll give it some more time before I go, I’ll see if it feels any better when I wake up in the morning, and make a decision then.
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You ABSOLUTELY deserve this Mike! Youve come so far and are doing such amazing things to improve ur life. What a nice surprise!!
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Evening Check In
Day 542
Not much to report today. It was a pretty laid back day with my son. Did the usual cleaning etc. Worked on Chapter 1 of my DBT book and was also able to exercise this morning. I feel tired but a good tired. Just going to put my son to bed and then do some self care. Have a good night everyone! 
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As @JazzyS reminded me I promised to do something social, something physical, something creative and clean a neglected portion of my house every day that I have off this week.
Monday I crushed these goals, yesterday I rested a bit so today I had a bit of a backlog.
Today I went for a 5 mile walk with an old friend for my socials. I rode my bike to the lake and then walked 5 miles so that is two physical things and I still plan do a small body weight exercise later (plank, wall sit, mountain climbers). I owe myself two creative things and two things cleaned so I will get to that and update later. I also plan to cook a bit as long as I don’t get derailed by Righteous Gemstones (ahem @HoofHearted).
Today I told my sister that I would stop in to see her while I was out running errands. She works at a bar and still drinks quite a bit. I’ve stopped in once before and drank ice tea for an hour or so so I believed that I would stop in. When I drove past on my errands my body was screaming at me not to stop so I didn’t. I sent her a text and blew her a kiss out the window and went about my day. I don’t know what would have happened had I stopped and I am very glad I didn’t find out. Something about sitting in a quiet bar at 3 in the afternoon (gosh typing it out here it is almost semaphore with all these flags 
) just didn’t sound fun or healthy.
I just got off the phone with her and she was very drunk (as usual). I’m glad that isn’t me anymore and I’m glad that I listen to my body when it trys to protect me. Hearing my sister slur and repeat herself and snap at her boyfriend feels too close to home. I’ll stay in and I’ll stay sober.
Thanks for the reminder @JazzyS. I didn’t know that I needed to talk this out but it turns out I did. You are a true gem of a human and you make this place 10,000 times better with your support.
I started knitting this sweater 20ish years ago. Today I will re-start it or pull it out.
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Good for you paying it forward! Awesome stuff.
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@starlight14 so happy for your AWESOME super duper day Kelly – you deserve these and so many more. Sounds like a perfect day!
This made me so happy to read – glad that you were able to let loose and have some fun!
@kaeo I’m so sorry that you are unable to reach your loved ones – that has got to be very nerve wrecking. I do hope everyone is safe and pray that these fires are controlled and put out quickly. Grateful for all your sober time and grateful that you are able to manage these times with a clear head.
@scorpn You are a gem. Glad to hear that therapy is helping – I too hope that as time goes on it will get easier. Just remember to breathe.
@holysquid OOOH what a lovely view – I’m sure you enjoyed that beautiful walk.
@mindofsobermike Oh so happy that you were able to get home and surprise your girls – they must be so thrilled. I know it hard accepting compliments and gifts but I do think that we need to work on this – you do deserve it for all that you have accomplished and how far you have come in your sobriety journey. Your mom and step dad are rightfully proud and want to show you. What a cool double surprise day!
@catmancam You are doing so great with all your routines. Do you have the next pattern and audiobook picked out? Did you already change to using sharpies or is this when you make the switch from crayons? I do hope your pain goes away or at least starts feeling better from your treatment. I do understand not wanting to waste time only to be told to continue what you are already doing but at the same time I know the achilies heel can be tricky and you may need PT or ?? – Wishing you the quick healing.
@trustybird Oh Emilie – thank you my sweet friend! I am so glad to see you posting your check in – love seeing you meet your challenges. I am beyond grateful that you are listened to your body and stayed away this afternoon. Loved the gike ride and relaxing sit down by the water today – so relaxing! Love the sweater – hopefully you have your sheet of pattern notes and know where you stopped (that is always my problem) – you are super talented! Looking forward to tomorrows notes 
Checking in on Wednesday evening
231 days free of alcohol and weed
646 days free of cigarettes
Today was a really good day AGAIN – my symptoms were a little bit on the flared side and the pain level was up from yesterday but hell I still had a blast. Got 1 hour meditation/ prayer done, 45 light exercise, 2 hours of work, 45 min walk to get groceries with my new cart, 30 min yoga,15k steps, watched One Fine Day (an oldie but a goodie – love Clooney and Pfeiffer), Cooked and cleaned. Again no naps today – I am not sure where the energy is coming from but I am not going to kick a gift horse in the mouth. My legs and feet do hurt but I think its more from the activity. I did want to grab a greasy pizza and beer today but then thought WTF – why would you wanna do that when we can stir fry vegetable and drink a Mango Liquid Death—the thought literally came and went just that quickly. I did get one doctor appointment made for Tuesday but I couldn’t set up the testing and PT as the referrals never went through so I will try again tomorrow. Hope everyone had a positively charged addiction free day – sending you all much love 
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Day 
So it seems I will also work on Saturday too. Although we will have two free days on Monday and Tuesday! Because of Assumption Day or as we celebrate here a holiday named - Žolinė.
Yep, here is again that little history lesson / travel channel with Zzz 
Can I call it a Zzz TV
Hey everybody here’s the Zzz TV Show! 
Yay!
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Žolinė
Thus, the holiday is quite archaic, although these days it is often perceived as a liturgical heritage. In ecclesiastical terms, this holiday is referred to as St. Feast of the Assumption of the Virgin Mary, but it is generally accepted to call this feast simply Žólin or Žolìn. This name is closely associated with meadows, grasses, weeding, so it is very likely that my country was very reluctantly introduced the Christian traditions of this holiday into their lives, because they kept not only the old name of this holiday, but also the main traditions of the holiday.
In short, Zholinė is a festival of thanksgiving for the harvest, and thanks is given to Mother Earth, the goddess Žemyna. At a similar time, Latvians honor the goddess Mara, who is the equivalent of our Žemyna. We would also find matches by looking around our yard. There is evidence that the Romans dedicated this day to the goddess Diana, who was not only the goddess of hunting, but also the goddess of vegetation. And here in Greece, at the junction of summer and autumn, Artemis was very important, who also represented wild nature, birth and fertility. Professor Pranė Dundulienė claims that at the junction of summer and autumn, our ancient ancestors thanked the goddess Lada. The Baltic period of ours was never stagnant and unchanging, so it is very likely that the goddess Lada is just an older equivalent of the Continent. The word laduto, loduta, lodoto, which is often found in contracts, also indicates a connection with the land, with the harvest.
Day 5
I was smoking a lot of Pipe tobacco later, so I will add a new counter - Pipes & Cigars. Day 1.
Although I feel there will be some slips here and there. Still helped me a lot to go off a cigarettes witch are all around at my work. Everytime anyone meets each other and starts a conversation - lights a cigarette. Always was relapsing on that one. Especially after drinking days.
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No I did not relapsed. Just wanted Your attention to say something.
You know, it’s very strange. I noticed - Everytime I am very tired I start to post too much and overall be very talkative and energized 
Tho I also have a problem to fall a sleep even if I do feel tired. Sorry for being too active here. I hope I am not being too much cheeky or attention greedy. It’s really not the case. I just need to sort of unload that energy.
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1524
Day is breaking pretty this morning. I’m almost grateful I get to get up before dawn to go to work.
I’m very grateful to get up sober and clean. Like I am very grateful too to have a job, a job that gives me the possibility to give some back that was given to me. We addicts we should stick together. Because we get each other, like nobody else does. You don’t know how grateful I am to all of you, and to this place. Have as good a day as you can all. Forever in my heart. 
Pic is from the place I was yesterday, picking apples and pears.
Yeah, I totally get that. Don’t I know that mindset. I can just say that you do deserve it Mike. 200%. Big hugs friend.
@zzz It’s good to see you doing good friend. Just be careful on the bold letters…
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Checking in 1319 days substance free.
Being honest with myself.
I need other people.
Admitting I cant do everything on my own is hard!!!
But, I ask for help…
When I need help now, I ask for it. Usually when I do this I end up helping the person I asked too.
The level of independance I have is not sexy. Its a trauma response that keeps people away. Learning interdependance has been a chore but I am getting there. First comes trust, discernment, faith… always faith.
Grateful to be clean.
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Another sober day draws to a close over here. Good night!
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I changed them, hope now it’s good.
Or what do You mean? I am using too much bold letters overall? Like special characters, emojis and overall?
But I love them 
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Just a little jest. Nothing serious. You do you.
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Checking in before bed…. Long day. Meditation is helping to center me and allows me to respond vs react. Much better.
Started a new practice today with my brother, who is also sober. We exchange to things we are powerless over, five things we are grateful for, two things we did well and two things we like about ourselves. I found it to be a great exercise, so I will continue doing it.
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Aww, accept their love and generosity. Don’t let negative selftalk spoil it. And when you get more educated and get nice employment you can treat them back.
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I feel this one, I’m the same.
Humans need other humans, that’s how we are. It’s not easy tho 
But we’ll get there
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Congratulations on 6 months! 
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Day 313
Early morning here, I’m on my way to work. No accidents today, all is good.
I’m tired gosh 
Why am I not able to go to bed 1-2 hours earlier? Like a little kid that refuses to sleep although it’s hella tired.
I’m looking forward to a much needed coffee.
But I’m not that exhausted like I used to, tired but a better way of tired 
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong 
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