Very good. Chin up and carry on as you were…
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I 100% understand.
Now i’m going to share my food poisoning story. It’s why i did’nt eat Popeyes for 5 years. 3 of us had popeyes that night, the next day i went to work. I was fine. But i had just heard my brother got really sick the night before and it turns out my coworker who was with me called off sick the next day too. It didn’t hit me till noon that day. Not to be TMI, but 45 minutes in the bathroom later and i felt better. I didn’t touch that place again until the chicken sandwhich craze happened. I didn’t get the fatigue, it was more of my body saying, “You have 45 seconds to find a restroom or your not going to like what comes next”.
The food paranoia will pass. It’s light eating for a couple of days, chicken noodle soup, saltines, Seven-UP, light stuff, you’ll be fine.
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Feeling pretty triggered. Spoke to a very good friend who told me that my drunken antics really arent that bad and I rarely do anything that genuinely upsets anyone when Im drunk.
They were trying to be supportive and calm my anxiety but it has had a pretty negative effect.
This has obviously made me think i dont have any issue and immediately my brain is telling me GO GET SOME BEER.
Breeeeath in. Breeeaath out. Breeeath in. Breeeath out.
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But how do your drunken antics make you feel, before, during and after Mike? This is about ourselves. We do this sobriety stuff for ourselves, first and foremost, by a very long stretch. I’m glad to see you recognise the tricks the addicted part of your brain is playing on you. Keep going. You’re doing fine.
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Thanks for the encouragement and hope 
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1 day AF. I just keep going to meetings and sharing about my relapse. Every morning starting today I’m getting down on my knees and asking my HP to help keep me from a drink. I am powerless over alcohol but I DO have the power to change my action. As soon as the thought to drink came into my head I should have reached out for help. Because the thought won’t go away. It will grow. My disease wants me dead. I’m not gonna let it win.
I believe if I keep up with daily maintenance of my spiritual health, I will eventually be relieved of the obsession to drink. I look around at the alcoholics/addicts in the rooms, and here, who stay sober and can do hard things without drinking. They have a serenity that I want too.
This requires a major shift in thinking, acting and living, and f*ck do I want it. I haven’t been in recovery long but I already love the things I’ve pieced together in my new sober life. Being able to look at myself in the mirror, for starters.
Just keeping it simple, one day at a time. The most valuable thing we have is today, right now.
Here’s Smokey in the bathtub because, you know, cuteness.
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All is well. I’m so close. Cravings have almost completely vanished… I know it’s a “for now” but if I made it through one of my hardest days without I know I can do it again. So here’s to us! Take it one second at a time if you have to just keep moving forward.
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That’s the truth! Keep going!
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Hey, checking in… day 186!!! Just hit my 6 month milestone this past Saturday and let me tell you … it feels great… had rent paid 3 weeks early, all my bills are caught up and current… been playing catch up and I’ve finally caught up… working like a mad man but it’s all paid off… sorry I haven’t been more active but I’ve just been so busy with work, kiddos, pets… I’m thankful to be this far along in my sobriety and I’m also thankful for this group of warriors that I call family… I hope each and everyone of you is doing well…Billy
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Like a complete piece of shit.
Thank you for your message. It has helped.
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Checking in on day 29. Had a huge fight with husband, so thats shitty. But it won’t be a reason to drink. So that’s good.
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@just_laura So impressed with how far you’ve come in your mentality and sobriety. Love this freeing lifestyle for you. So sorry about the panic attacks. Are you able to discuss these with someone to see what the root cause could be? I am grateful that you are able to sense the oncoming symptoms and breathe through them – just hoping that you are able to figure out stresses so they no longer come a knocking.
This is beautiful Anthony – thank you for paying it forward. Glad you are doing so well in your sobriety
@dustysprungfield Doing great with surpassing your 2 week mark. Sorry about the dreams – yeah the mind is awful in tricking us to only remember the good times – we know better and I do believe in tricking the mind right back! Hey we are in control of ourselves and can play that game better 
Wishing you strength in continuing this journey and finding all days to be filled with 10’s.
@kipper so sorry that the damn headache is persistent- mark this post or write these words down so you can remember the effects when your DOC comes around with it’s urges. Sleep for me was messed up at the beginning too – it does get better. Stick with it – you are doing awesome Just saw your update my friend - it is hard when those around us don’t see the problem or try to make us feel like we don’t have one (i know in some cases they are trying to be supportive and in others they just feel lonely cause they’ve lost a drinking partner). You know better and you can be strong - BREATHE like you said - i do hope the notion passes.
@juli1 so good to see you posting my friend – I believe that in sobriety we do need to re-train our minds and find happiness in other things rather than the bottle and if swimming / yoga is that for you then keep that going! In my opinion we are so raw at the beginning of our sobriety journey and learning how to navigate living life on life’s terms – learning new routines and finding out who we are without our DOC. Because of all of this it is hard to focus on other relationships especially new romantic ones. Everyone is different and has to find their own “key” as you say – wishing you so much love and strength in your journey – Grateful to see you fighting for yourself 
@scorpn how are you doing today Renee – It seems that the past few days have been tough. Anything we can help with? 
I also have the same mixed feelings with zoos. Grateful that I was able to see the animals as a child without actually being in the wild with them (now that would have been scary) but also don’t like them caged. I do hope you all have a wonderful time – take lots of pictures – I love seeing new stuff through kids eyes. Congrats on your 40 days!
@Jasty2 Yikes – that’s a lot of $ and time wasted on that crap. I am hoping that another will come out and this is not how they end the story of Michael – so disappointed.
@rob11 OH – grateful that you will be able to go home on weekends but I do hope that you do keep coming back as this could be so beneficial but you won’t know until you give it an honest effort. We are right here with you to hear you out and share your journey. Keep strong Rob – sending you strength
Glad to see you checking in Scott – Wow – what an interesting take on your emotions. Glad that you were able to take notice and view them as a blessing. I do hope you are well now and enjoying the outdoors in your garden.
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This Guy is my Hero 
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Sugar detox. 1/3 allowed slips used.
As I mentioned - Wednesday is my ‘‘Little Vocation Day’’ / Day Off / No Training Day / Legendary Cheat Day as I call it now - Protein bar / Sweets / Ice-cream / Something I cannot actually translate (it’s made from curd, with chocolate toping and poppy seeds inside) good stuff / More Ice-Cream… Now I feel disgusted 
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Awww. Adorable monkeys.
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Checking in sober.
Most of things I already wrote in my journal, but… Nevermind.
Feeling shitty, I hate broke ups. Feeling that I was lied is bigger and bigger and it makes me feel some pain.
Also I’m a lot stressed, I will need to move out from my now ex boyfriend… I wonder if he did it on purpose to make my life messy when I will come back?
But anyways…
I’m alive. Still fighting. Even if it’s now really hard.
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@SelfLove_42 Well done on your 2 weeks my friend! Sorry the sleep is still off – it did take about a couple months to regulate that for me. You are right – years of sleep deprivation do not get right after just 2 weeks. Impressed with you keeping on top of your boundaries and see how much they are helping you. Nothing we do is silly if it helps keep our DOC away. You know your mind and body best so do whatever it takes to re-train it. So very happy for your milestone! Wow – saw your update and love it – you are so right – we do need to change everything in order to move forward and heal (I’ve had to change my daily routines, my tone and attitude, my friends, my environment and I’m sure I’m not done growing and changing).
I love this too – so freeing. Have a wonderful day and good luck getting that ride sorted out – yeah to a lovely camping weekend ahead.
@butterflymoonwoman Yeah to a beautiful start to your day Dana – I do hope that all goes well with discussions with the doctors. Except for the 24 hours of constant acid reflux that is not just very intermittent nothing else has changed with the gf diet. They can’t find the source of the inflammation and do know that gluten aggravates inflammation so until I get that under control they have asked me to stay away from gluten – so far no tests show that I am celiac so that is a positive – looking forward to having my breads in the future 
@amy30 glad you are feeling somewhat better. I totally understand the fear – I too have been there (not needing hospitalization but severe food poisoning is no joke and makes you feel like death is taking over). I do hope that you are able to move past this fear once you have fully healed. Love seeing your days adding up – yeah 207!
@catmama23 Yeah day 1 – keep doing your routines and meetings and spending time with your sponsor – all this and your effort to work on your spiritual health will help strengthen you. Focus on wanting the serenity! Keep strong my friend!
@billy85 WOW – 6+ months – You are absolutely killing it my friend – love all the positivity from your post. Glad you are doing so well. Always so good to hear from you. 
@pattycake sorry love – glad you came here and glad it won’t cause you to drink. I do hope your day gets better!
Nastya_is_fighting So good to see you checking in love – I am so very sorry for the break up. I know your heart is hurting. I did just read your check journal and am grateful that you will have your parents support when you go back to Prague. Hoping that everything goes smoothly for you when you return home. Glad to see you protecting your sobriety – I do hope the rehab facility has been helpful. Maybe right now is the time to focus on you and your self-healing.
Checking in on Wednesday afternoon -
Seriously - where does the time go? I am pushing through the pain (not at any crazy level so i got this)… did manage to enjoy a few cups of coffee and do a 1 hour meditation / prayer. Now about to do some light exercises and make myself a lovely vegetable juice and see what the day has in store for me. I do need to call and make some medical appointments (will wait till everyone is back from lunch break). Hope everyone has a positively charged addiction free day - sending much love
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Day 312
Strange day today.
This morning there was a huge accident between a bus and a train. They didn’t see each other and crashed. Both drivers were brought to the hospital, they’re doing good. No one of the passengers got hurt.
This was the train I usually take but, out of the blue I decided to stay in bed for 30 more minutes. Gut feeling. Always right.
I’m home now, did eat and now it’s time for a long shower
Have a beautiful sober day friends, stay strong and safe
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I went through this recently as well, where not only was my drinking accepted but mostly nothing bad happened. A few times out of control, but nothing compared to when I was a teenager. Drop in the pan. But…I have kids now…so me even having a beer when they were awake was a major guilt bust the next day. Anyway…back to other people…
People who arent alcoholic/live with substance abuse issues (however you call it for you) often dont understand and may say this to you - it may even be true. A lot of people dont make it to quit or do it young bc the problems arent externally that obvious. People whp are alcoholic/live with substance abuse issues may say this to you bc a part of them likes their buddy.
This past yr and a half was a trip for me, and people saying things - including my husband (who had never in our 12 yrs togerher seen me drink and my mom who hadnt seen me take a drink since I was 20 yo) both had those talks with me - maybe one is on one end; maybe one is on another. My therapist, sober 30 yrs even talking about harm reduction (k, you going to dribk check these boxes and make sure conditions are safe so if you do at least nothing bad happens and you dont have additional guilt/problems) was like a little OH HELLO U SAYIN I CAN DRINK??? Which was not what sue was saying at all LOL. She was just not judging me for dribking and giving me some tips on being safe.
It came (is down Im still early this round and I hope to keep it that way) to me. I had these parameters and I broke one. Did i look as out of control as a teenager? Nope. Not even close. Could I get there? Maybe, maybe not. Doesnt really matter. (Scary af to think it though). What matrered to me wasnt that my husband was trying to be understanding, that my mom is steuggling in her own way and my therapist is introducinf me to a new way of tjinking (the only understanding I have had around alcohol is AA…which i love to a degree and am now having my eyes opened to all kinds of wonderful trains of thpughts, and ways and approaches I find are a bit less judgmental - to me, and preachy - again to me :). It matters how I feel, it matters what I want and I know I wouldnt be any happier if i stayed a functioning alcphplic (vs. Losing everything) bc that is like a slow/insidious poisoning of my life (not judginf anyone else and my wording here is off but i am LE TIRED LOL) and it would ripple to my children.
I KNOW the gifts that sobriety gives. I know that cravings will go. I knoq doing the work around yourself, your past works. I know that discovering your defects and attributes works. I know connecting with others works. For me, having my HP helps. I know what I want, and theres a part of me that doesnt trust we’re good enough for it. But I gotta take her young ass self by the hand and prove to her she can trust me to guide us.
Still a work in progress. But when people say that close your eyes and try talking to that part that says BEEEEEEER ME. And then the part of you that doesnt want to…whats that part saying? Anyway maybe thats tpo much Ill stop now but u r not alone!!!
Xo
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