Day 39 check in.
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Day 326
Yesterday I stayed home from work, and today I went in but was told I should go home. I have some kind of cold or flu. All of this constant running has caught up and I just want to sleep.
Sending you all hugs 
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0.34 no DOC of marijuana
44.65 no smoking 
113.57 no alcohol
Yes I did it again, smoked CBD with that little bit of THC. Itāll get me if I keep doing it I know it. Just got to keep trying. Thatās all I can do
44.65 no smoking. Iām back at the nic lozenges. I feel sad when I donāt have the lozenges. I wonder if thatās normal?
113.57 no alcohol. Atleast I have that time in there
Letās gave a good day ok
If we woke up this morning then we are truly blessed and who knowsā¦ today could be the best day of our lives and we might not even notice 
Throw on some music and have a good day
Iām on my way to work in about 1 hour for a 8hour day + 1 hour lunch
Letssss gooo
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Feel better asap
Get some rest and enjoy your day off at least.
326 is a great number
Your doing amazing. Your almost at a year!! Wow
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Yes I know your right. Drinking will make it 10x worse. Maybe try spending time with loved ones?
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I was actually talking about my monthly period. It gets horrible for me a few days before and during. I donāt wanna spend time with anyone right now 
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I got nothing on that 1 lol
Have a good day today friend
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@Amy30 @JazzyS @Just_Laura @Soberbilly
Thanks so much for the support guys i really appreciate it, its a difficult one all round, i think the difficulty is i dont fully trust my exā¦i dont fully know what to believe with what hes telling me to be honest as hes lied to me in the past about things, last week he rang me out of the blue at 9am on the Friday morning drunk and crying saying he was in the middle of a forest?! Telling me how he had an arguement with his girlfriend the night before etcā¦then his phone went out of battery so i worried all day then i found out the police had to go find him and took him home ā¦whatever hes doing hes not stableā¦ive had to have a talk with him and ive asked for now can he only see our daughter during the day and not over night until he gets a bit better, and he agreed so its just short visits for my daughter for now, weve told her that hes working on a night and that his car is broken (hes lost the keys). I dont want to stop her seeing her dad because she adores him. He has no intention in finding another job and is trying to get benefits for having a mental health condition instead 
the whole thing is just difficult, all the more reason for me to stay sober though and i willā¦i just feel a bit drained at the moment
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@Ballroomdaze Sorry about your ankle. Want to say congrats on your 5 days of sobriety. Recovery will go smoother while sober. Wishing you luck with the surgery.
@happydays Great job on your numbers ā congrats on tackling smoking! ODAAT ā you can beat this addiction too.
@mischa84 great job on pouring it down the sink. I think I too would have had the second of urge (never waste alcohol was my motto and what a stupid fucking motto that was). Grateful for the reminder that unexpected triggers can occur at any time and we just have to be on guard. You should be super proud of yourself!
@timetochange I hope you are covid negative and start feeling well again soon.
@butterflymoonwoman OOH ā I love it ā what a great way to keep yourself occupied and awake. Canāt wait to see the finished dream catcher. I do hope you get some time to rest today
Thatās right ā just take it ODAAT and each day gets a bit easier. Have a wonderful sober weekend my friend. Congrats on your 5 days!
@flourishingperson1 Great job on day 3! Donāt let anyone make you feel odd ā you are perfect the way you are. I think its smart to do the sessions on your own. Should have a safe space for yourself while training.
@scorpn Awe love I do hope you get some rest and feel better soon. Hopefully your kids can help in taking care of you when they get home from school.
@starlight14 Iām grateful that you can have an open conversation with your ex. Grateful that you have nixed the over night stays for your daughter ā at least till he is able to show some stability. I am sorry that you are going through all of this now but do know we are here if you need to vent. I do hope it will get easier and better for all of you. Just keep doing what you are doing and take it ODAAT! So proud of you and how your are maintaining your sobriety and setting an awesome example for your daughter. Hope you do get some āmeā time Kelly to rest and unwind.
Checking in on Friday morning
Itās a glorious day - sun is shining and i feel pretty good. I have PT in a few hours so iām looking forward to that. Will work on month end accounting stuff later and try to get some fresh air as the weather is my friend today. Hoping everyone has a wonderful addiction free day - sending you all much love
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Day 986, TW medicine use craving
Wasted from the week at the treatment centre. The circumstances there, but also my emotions that pop-up and quitting my ptss medication has an effect on my body. Thyroid values are reasonable. Starting medication for my ADHD is postponed till after the weekend. Really found it disappointing, I had them a year ago and worked fine but somehow a psychiatrist pulled me of them because they suppose to make me unstable and push me into my traumaās. At he put me on risperidon and basically send me home leaving me in owe. In the diagnostic centre they think it was something else. According to them the ADHD was properly diagnosed in a centre at the time. Iām bit craving for them at the moment, my head spins with all the impressions of last weeks. So to be honest I cantāt wait to get the medication to support me to cope with things better.
Greetz
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Thanks Jazz, my daughter goes back to school next week so i will get some time then to think things throughā¦i think because ive just had my milestone im feeling a strong urge to do some proper work on myself and my sobriety i just find it difficult to do that when my little one is around so next week im going to make a startā¦our dear friend @Soberbilly has given me some great recommendations to get me started with learning the buddist approach to recovery which im super excited to get my teeth into. Hope you well Jazz, i appreciate u
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Woooopppp day 100. Feels good to hit that triple digits again. Had a pretty good day yesterday went to all ways to recovery meeting and overdose awareness, it was really nice they had hot dogs and hamburgers and it was just fun. I slept a good portion of this morning which felt nice. Ill probably go hit some weights and possibly go see some of the guys from the half way house, then later do a little reading. Much love everyone
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I woke up to this today. I also woke up to a surprise period which has actually improved my mood as I feel I can now explain how Iāve been feeling the past few days to myself. Iāve been keeping extremely well rested today. I did have to go out to the shops but I made it quick and promised myself a pot of tea when I got back home. I also spoke with a couple of friends, all of us are going through something or other at the moment. Maybe weāre all feeling the pull of the moon, who knows.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day!
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YOU ROCK MIKE - congrats on your 100 days!
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Well done on your 90 days / 3 months of sobriety Delia! So happy that today was a good day for you. Keep up the amazing work
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@rob11 iām sorry my friend - sounds super rough emotionally and physically - i do hope that you are able to get the proper meds soon and start feeling better.
@Starlight14 You donāt need to rush into anything love - the day to day of staying sober is still relatively new. Grateful that you are going to take steps for bettering your health. Be gentle with yourself. Billy is such a gem - grateful that he is guiding you with the Buddhist approach. Sure you will find much peace with this. Much love Kelly. I am having a fairly great Friday here in MI
@lorelai 4 years of sobriety coming up is awesome my friend. Sorry you are not feeling your normal pep self - anything you want to talk about? Hope the rest helps.
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Evening checkin
Shitfree zone
Had some decluttering / reorganizing that was helpful for my brain too. Last day in my 8 years toxic job yesterdayā¦ Has to sink in slowly.
I am absolutly save, as I am still under contract and payd until end of the year. Solid situation for a new start. It feels very new! Felt pressure getting on notebook and phone this morning and get back fast from my morning walk. As I noticed, I took a longer round in this beautiful fresh air. This will be part of my new morning routine.
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Wow, thatās fantastic. Well done. All that hard work paid off!! Doing good over here thanks 
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Sending healing vibes for you and your girls
Blanket time with a movie marathon is perfect remedy for healing 
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Glad your having a great Friday u so deserve to 
yeah i guess i could go easier on myselfā¦ im off to pick Sofia up from her dads and be the big bad wolf because she will want to stay there
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