This is exactly how my life was the past few years! I got to a point I couldn’t let her see him at all, it had gotten so bad. He was always a blackout drunk, like me, but he was a good father and wouldn’t do that around her. Once crack entered the equation, everything turned upside-down. Quit work, dropped 70 lbs, and became homeless. Jail, and the following court ordered treatment, is what finally saved him.
It is so hard to watch the person you had a child with, and the daddy your daughter adores, decline in such ways. Always wondering ‘what’s going to happen next?’
You’re lucky to have good communication with him. That’s very important for your daughters sake. You’ll get through this. Don’t put too much pressure on yourself. It’s a lot to think about all at once, but just focus on each day instead of the ‘what ifs’ the future might bring.
Thank you Laura this is great advice, ive got to remember to go easy on myself and that i dont have to have all the answers all at once…i will just try to keep doing the next right thing as we muddle through, my daughters safety and wellbeing are the most important thing in any of this and i will protect that. Im sorry to hear about your ex and all youve been through, its so tough but youve come out the other side sober…youve alot to be proud of
Checking in Day 565
I am pretty exhausted right now. I should have slept when i sent my son off to school. He only has a half day today but still. I shouldnt have drank a shit load of coffee then do chores and work on my dreamcatcher lol I did manage to get laundry done and vacuum. I have one of my dreamcatchers done (it just needs the right charm for the centre which Im waiting for off of amazon)
And i got the webbing done for the 2nd one im doing as a gift for someone. But now thats it noon and my son is coming home in like 20 min, im soooo tired. I really shouldve relaxed when i could. Ah well. It will be sooo nice to have him home. We will take it easy for the rest of the day. Hope everyone is doing well today
Hello sober friends. Checking in. I realized that one of the reasons I have been feeling a bit bad lately is that my taper off meds is almost completely done. I’m almost completely off, and I think there’s some discontinuation syndrome. So that’s something.
I had a really nice dinner with a former supervisor tonight. I was dreading it a bit, but it ended up being great to catch up. I was going to reward myself with ice cream on the way home, but the good ice cream place was closed . Maybe tomorrow. Going to bed sober again. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Much love.
Day 509
Woke up feeling again very tired, almost lost it at work at the end of the day, had to log off early as my head was just not in the right space at all, as in bad shape, felt like when I was drinking, super strange feeling today. Just didn’t know how to handle.
Now ready to try and go to bed
Have a good day everyone.
Last day of annual leave today and my world is about to get busy. Had a lovely day doing pitch and putt with the kids, then lunch, a nap and finally the gym. Just watching the football and transfer deadline day now (was tempted to write that in caps lock to emphasise the shoutiness of sky sports news!)
14 years ago today I went into labour with my eldest. My sister is due today and hoping it is a special day. Hopefully her labour won’t take 2 days like mine! Gave my son a big cuddle earlier
Tomorrow my daughter’s football season kicks off again, birthday on Sunday, then back to work on increased hours and daughter starts secondary school. Trying to live in the moment as next week terrifies me Have to squeeze in a 15 year wedding anniversary on Wednesday before my daughter’s birthday the following week. At some point there will be a baby niece to welcome to the world too!
It is all good though and my family is emerging from a period of tough times, so celebrating the chaos really.
Sorry, I always get thoughtful around this time of year, remembering past years. And I don’t think you ever shake the new academic year thing!
Hope everyone else has a lovely Friday and weekend.
@Just_Laura I’m new here Laura and I don’t know you but I really felt this, I read a lot of posts on here since I’m just starting out and noticed a little of what you’ve been through, it sounds so hard and your still picking yourself up and dusting yourself off thats strength
In 4 days I’ll turn 43, damn. I won’t lie, it doesn’t feel good. But I can’t change it. We’re all getting older.
I try to focus on the things I have instead on the things I don’t have.
I took a long bath, much needed because my psoriasis started to go crazy after Covid. It’s now on my hands too. Awesome I hope it calms down after some weeks, others with psoriasis experienced the same.
I’m usually not a fan of James Bond but I’m currently watching the second movie It’s really okay for a long cozy evening.
Tomorrow morning I finally get my hair done! Oh my goodness I’m so looking forward to that. To feel like a human again. And I have to get all kinds of baking stuff because here in Germany those who have birthday have to make the cake for the guests. Dunno wich idiot had that idea
Okay guys, have a beautiful sober day and stay strong
Checking in and still sober. Feeling kinda down that I don’t have any plans for the long weekend. I’m still healing from a broken leg so there are very few things that I can do right now. I’ll probably be spending the entire weekend at home
Thanks @JazzyS this thread goes so fast so I’m almost positive I probably missed an update but I hope your migraine and painful itches are well gone by now.
Day 21*
Cooked! Absolutely drained from this work week. I am so excited to not waste this long week drinking or sick from drinking. Three full days comin’ at ya and I am going to live. Productive home projects, time with friends, outdoor movie night/camping with my nieces. Hope you all have a wonderful weekend
. Maybe tomorrow. Going to bed sober again. Tomorrow is a brand new day. Much love.
Have to squeeze in a 15 year wedding anniversary on Wednesday before my daughter’s birthday the following week. At some point there will be a baby niece to welcome to the world too!
thats strength 
I hope it calms down after some weeks, others with psoriasis experienced the same.
It’s really okay for a long cozy evening.
