Day 4 no weed
Day 42 no vapes and ciggs, (day one off the lozenges and so on until otherwise)
Day 111 no alcohol
Yesterday me and my wife celebrated 1 year of marriage with cheese cake and a mocktail(sparkling water sangria) and she got me this awesome stainless steel necklace that’s heavy and thick and has a very accepted length. I’m so happy to be her husband and no need for a substance to celebrate and we still had so much fun.
I fell asleep at like 8 in the evening and woke up at 10 in the morning. I’m actually on my way to start the process of my license.
I hope you can find some down time
Remember to conserve your energy at work. Set the pace. I’m sure there’s plenty of time today to get enough done. You got this
I get frustrated with work a lot
I’ve learned that I’ll eventually make it home and it’s not worth stressing over
Checking in on day 810. On travel for work. I just realized there’s a stocked mini bar in my room. Oh man, a couple years ago that would’ve been a one-way ticket on the struggle bus. Today I don’t even care. I’m using it to keep my sparkling waters cold Much love
Thank you for your message, I very much agree that I need to slow down a bit.
I guess when I quit last year I may have leaned a bit too much on the work so that I would not think that much on the other stuff, keeping my mind occupied was a must, and yes, there’s consequences.
Let’s both mot allow ourselves to be fustrated, is just a job they say!
I want to but they have such weird “opening times” to take calls… maybe I should just crash an office tomorrow and ask for an appointment in person. Thanks for the reminder actually I should probably try this.
Hope you’re doing okay, you lovely person . (Feel amazing but very tired so Im not reading a lot on here right now). Really hope your body isn’t giving you too much of a hard time right now and that you have some peace in your life and in your mind!
Yesterday’s mantra from this app was:
“The wonder of existence should be celebrated everyday”. I really love this.
Lack of motivation and low mood today. Really craving a drink on my way home from work. Tired & Emotional being triggers. I won’t have one but it’s made me even more grouchy
Had a few pieces of emergency chocolate when I got home and going to convince hubby to make dinner whilst I put my feet up and start a new book.
Hopefully an early night will help me reset too X
Hey jazzy. First day of in person went well. Wrote an essay about my addiction so that the teacher could see where we’re all at. Also had to pair up and introduce are partner to the class. Didn’t do bad and didn’t get nailed with to much home work. My remote professor gave us two chapters to read and I asked her to stay behind and just asked for tips on being able to remember what I’m reading better. She was super nice and sweet about it. And so have all the other teachers. I’m use to the way my high school teachers treated me
Checking in, 61 days sober.
Difficult day kids-wise, today I didn’t play any yt or netflix for them, they need some detox from screentime, and oldest one had serious withdrawal symptoms
But now they are sleeping, it’s 9 o’clock, I just ate oreo ice cream and I’m watching standup comedy on yt In your face, little suckers!
Appreciate that bro! Also really liked your post on Forgiveness and negativity coming from your nervous system! As someone who’s literally sabotoged my nervous with porn, i have to Sift through all my bad thoughts and think about exactly what i saw that day. if i’m struggling with negativity, could i have spent too much time online, too much time taking in dopamine, and my brain is now ‘crying out for more’ and so i’m snappy and angry? This has played out 1000 times for me. That’s why i fight to practice mindfullness, i ask myself, ok, where is this coming from?? I put an ear piece in and little to something very positive/recovery stuff to help me calm down.
For sure an idea and a good one at that – we forget to associate our health concerns with our emotions and the two are linked. I believe many studies have been done to this effect.
Besides - what do you have to lose - giving yourself selfcare and learning to forgive yourself helps you cut the chains you have bound yourself in and it may also help with your physical health journey - a win win.
it is not easy to do so but i am glad to hear that you are working hard on this and i do wish you strength and love in this journey. only you can set you free (i know it sounds cheesy but it is true).
These past couple of days have been overly stressful and I’m really not great at handling stress.
I’m behind on work, I gotta jump through insanely frustrating beaurocratic hoops (I can’t get into it), and there’s a health scare in my other half’s family.
My family is driving me up the walls. And they’re not even doing anything particularly bad… it’s just… I don’t even know what it is. But whatever it is, it’s pissing me off!
I’m irationally furious and full of rage. When it’s not rage, it’s anxiety. I cried 5 times in the past couple of days. And it’s so hard to keep my emotions in check.
But I’m sober. As long as I don’t drink, I can deal with all this shit.
Maybe a walk in to make an appointment might be the best since phone is not working - wishing you luck with this.
Appreciate your sweet words my friend - been a bit off lately but still keeping positive attitude and trying to make the most of the day(s).
That mantra is GOLD - no wonder needed - Existence should most definitely be celebrated daily. Thank you for this.
Checking in, hitting the road for a few days off the grid for some tent camping in the woods of southern Wisconsin. My counter will roll over to 700 days later on tonight and I can’t think of a better way to celebrate a milestone (of sorts). Time amongst the trees, bird watching at the lake, early morning hikes, campfire cooking and plenty of quality time with my fella and my pup. See ya all this weekend.
I do hope relaxing with a book helped. “pieces of emergency chocolate” – love this, I too have my stash by my bed of dark chocolate for when I feel triggered. Glad you are doing self care instead of giving into the cravings.
Much love
. (Feel amazing but very tired so Im not reading a lot on here right now). Really hope your body isn’t giving you too much of a hard time right now and that you have some peace in your life and in your mind!
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Wishing you good luck with the license process
this made me laugh – glad they are soundly asleep and you are having some quality “me” time