Checking in, day 61. I slept terribly and am now wide awake waiting for my children to appear. My son’s birthday today and I am so proud of him. Keep thinking back over the last 14 years. What is it about birthdays that makes you look back?
I am going to leave it there as could write several paragraphs, feel like once I start writing it will turn into an essay. Feeling all out of sorts.
Checking in, Sunday hangover-free morning.
Headache is gone although I feel a bit weird still.
I’m afraid you might be right @JennyH (Happy Birthday for your son) @icebear @happyfeet @CATMANCAM @JazzyS and it’s migraine.
Luckily I fall asleep pretty early yesterday and I had some good sleep so I’m ready and happy for another sober day.
My two little kittens are with new family, 3rd day now. I’m so grateful we found such a good ppl and they took both of them together. They are sending me fotos and updates, they are happy and cats seems happy, kids mention them from time to time but it’s better than I thought it would be.
Have a good Sunday everybody 
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to work. Pretty quiet early morning commute. Glad I did it. Three shifts till my vacation. Have as good a day as you all can friends. Sober and clean. Love.
Love your photos - your commute looks like you’re already on vacation ! 
Hope you have a productive day at work. Three days to go 
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Hey all, checking in on day 1176. I hope everybody has a good one!
I’m here, I’m alive and I’m sober.
Day 21.
@Soberbilly @JazzyS @M-be-free49
I’m still here y’all.
Currently having the cold from hell, so I haven’t really had the energy to do anything, not even log in here.
I’ve checked occasionally, and now I saw that a lot of you have been asking where I went.
So I thought I’d make a post, to not make y’all to worried.
My husband had to go back the the hospital because he got an infection in one of the wounds from the surgery. He’s back home again and hopefully it’ll heal without a problem.
I’ve managed to book the Halloween Party, the Ghost train ride and the Hotel Stay at Daftöresort and Daftöland as I was hoping for. (The Pirate Theme park)
Unfortunately we couldn’t go back to the Old Western theme park this weekend because of my husbands health and the rest of us being down by this cold. But hopefully the Halloween celebration at the Pirate Theme park makes up for it.
Me and the kids had been out for over a week, fever, headache,sore throat and cough. I’m feeling a bit better today, but have barley no voice left. The curse of having a cold with asthma.
I’m praying that my husband won’t be sick, so we’ve more or less isolated him from us during all this. But this far he seems well. If he gets sick he’ll need to go back to the hospital.
The insurance (or as it is in our country Försäkringskassan owned by the government) won’t give him a dime because they said that his Doctors opinion, which you have to send to them, wasn’t valid. So now we’re trying to get the doctor to write one they will approve. We have two weeks until they close the case and we’ll need to apply again. Which takes as minimum 9-12 months.
The pharmacy in our entire country is out of his meds so he has gotten new ones that doesn’t really do the trick. For me it’s a freaking mystery how a well developed country, with one of the highest tax rates and government owned pharmacies can be out of meds. But unfortunately it’s not unusual.
But overall, it’s all good.
Thank you all for looking after me, wishing y’all a great Sunday.
I’m going to rest and hope that this cold is going to pass very soon.
Day 92. TW vomiting
The morning anxiety has worsened today. I woke just after 7 and just lay there worrying. I tried my breathing and to dulls the anxiety a little but then it builds again. Eventually when I did get out of bed I vomited several times and was shaking throughout my body. I made a pot of tea and went back to bed and did some puzzles, and then I had my shower (three ohms under a cold blast) and I went to the corner shop for some eggs so that I could make the kid’s pancakes. The smell of the cooking was getting to me so I’ve come back through to the bedroom while they eat.
I’ll get in touch with my GP first thing tomorrow morning as although I have an appointment in a couple of weeks I think I need to speak to her sooner rather than later. I have a fear of becoming depressed again, and I wonder if it’s happening again. Thanks @Soberbilly for your suggestions, I may ask about Cymbalta tomorrow.
I’m still just drinking tea at the moment as I still don’t have an appetite but I did pick up some scones from the shop so I can have one of those once I feel better.
Wishing everyone an addiction free day.
Get well soon, all of you at your house @MrsOdh … I missed you too and just sent energy that whatever was wrong would get better. Glad you all have some nice plans to look forward too.
There’s drug shortages in the US too. It’s sad and scary.
@Deelzebub hope you’ll get through your day okay and glad you’re going to see the GP sooner than later. Hugs for your instability you’re having …. I think of you as strong and stable but also realize that you have your ‘not as good as other times’ times. Please eat a scone for me. Hope you can do something therapeutic like make the bread. Feel better soon. 
Big hugs.
Oh I’ve read about that in the news. So sad !
Hi Megan, sorry you’ve had to go through that with your friend and it’s created some panic for you as well. I’m familiar with how unsettling and helpless that can feel. Just wanted to suggest 988 (suicide and crisis lifeline) for you and your friend. It has text, chat, and call options. (You can also reach out to them for support if you find yourself in the talking down situation again!) I hope you find a way to unpack your feelings as you go through this with your friend. Just remember to take care of yourself too! My therapist years ago gave me this nugget that changed my perspective on life/myself/my responsibilities… self preservation does not make you selfish! If it becomes too much for you, don’t feel bad involving someone else who is better equipped and not emotionally tied to the situation. 
sending you strength and love. Please reach out if you need any extra support. Signed, a-hot-mess-social-worker-who-knows-lots-of-resources-who-sucks-at-using-them-herself
1.95 no marijuana
46.63 no smoking 
115.56 no alcohol
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Checking in, day 53.
Good morning all. I’m here, today’s plans… crush it and wake up to that 9 on the counter tomorrow. Trying to hit an online SMART meeting today. Ordered the workbook and it should be here today. Always swore off meetings and we see where that got me. Insanity. Going to try something different this time, I know AA isn’t for me, so figured I’d give SMART a go. They have meetings for military/veterans, so want to check those out too. Other than that, just going to enjoy this beautiful sober Sunday. Oh and hopefully the tattoo artist gets back to me and I can go get some ink therapy today. 
@Just_Laura hope every gets to feeling better in your house! The allergies have been kicking our butt here too. The wonky weather has been giving us hell! Sending healing vibes to you and your fam.
@SoberWalker that is awful! Sorry you had to witness that! I’ve found that I’m starting to sound like my parents/grandparents when I say some kids really need a good spanking. Lol
@Juli1 congrats on 2 days! Keep kicking ass! 
@Soberbilly Congrats on being so close to the number we will not mention!!! 
Happy sober Sunday y’all!!!
Joke’s on you, TS. You aren’t the 1st to say that about me. My mother was so proud that every elementary teacher I had put that on my report card! 
Less coffee
Water is key today
Stay strong everyone
Let’s get through today clean and sober
Checking in on day 70
Bit of a headache, but besides that, I’m feeling great and mentally clear.
Happy Sunday 
Morning Check In
Day 567
Morning TS! Hope everyone is well today. Im really enjoying my day off from work. I actually decided to go grocery shopping since hubby is home to watch our son. We needed a big shop done so i took the wagon. Heading to Walmart now 
I dont feel completely rested but i do feel better than yesterday. Idk why i cant seem to get a good nights rest lately. Its a mystery to me haha Going to stay focused on my health today. Not going to let things get mw down. Much love 
Checking in at 208 days AF. Beautiful day here. Hope everyone has a wonderful day!
@catmancam hoping your letter to yourself is going well – we are here if you need us. We all love you and hoping that you can now start loving you with same compassion. 
Man oh man – fuck that indeed! I am grateful that you freed yourself and am in awe with how you are handling this (grateful for your spiritual path). Grateful that the Tara Brach course is so fruitful for you! I do hope you are feeling lighter and at more peace today.
@jennyh sometimes we need to let paragraphs flow out of us. I do hope that you and yours had a wonderful time celebrating your sons 14th Birthday. How are you feeling now – lack of sleep gets me all out of sorts for sure (hope you were able to get some resting time in today).
@mrsodh so great to hear from you Sophia – congrats on your 21 days of sobriety! Hope you and the kids get well soon. Sorry that your husband had an infection – hope he is healing well at home now. Fingers crossed that all the insurance stuff gets sorted out quickly and without hassle for you. I know its still a bit away but looking forward to the Halloween festivities you have planned.
@deelzebub that is an awful way to wake up – I am so sorry love. I do hope that you were able to start feeling better and enjoy some scones. Grateful that you are not waiting and will contact your GP tomorrow. You do not need to suffer even one extra day (hopefully can figure something to provide relief).
Isn’t this always the case – we know deep down the answers and can easily come up with them for others but somehow forget them when we are in need of them. This is why I love this community so much – I try to re-read my answers or take others answers for someone else’s posts and apply them to me. Totally helps! Love that you are the Chatty Cathy – love your enthusiasm. Great having you here with us Quin.
@tyland I’m sorry for the struggles – are you able to either go to or jump on a meeting online? Being around people going through same stuff might be helpful. We are also right here if you want to talk about it with us. Long weekends are hard as we are wired to think about enjoying them with some sort of drinking activities. We can still enjoy those activities sober – a thing we need to rewire our brains into seeing. I do hope you can find a way to keep yourself active so that the urges don’t have time to occupy your thoughts.
Checking in - still addiction free and no urges. Not much else to report.
Late check in tonight…but I am 1 week sober, a little less excited than last time but a little bit wiser too, my husband took me out all day with Coops to take my mind off the weekend, another lovely day and it has been great, actually being out and enjoying the sun rather than lying on the couch feeling ill with the blinds closed and terrified somebody would come in because I had the weekend paranoia and fear 
Yesterday was exhausting trying to get through but I made it and made it through today, I am on annual leave for the next 2 weeks from work and this is going to be a test, and it begins tomorrow when I go out for lunch with a couple of friends, this has been arranged way before I decided enough was enough.
Now this would usually be a few wines with food but not tomorrow for me and my friends already know this, the problem is they still drink and like a wine or 2 with food and I don’t feel like I have a right to tell them not to as this is my addiction not theirs but I suppose I need to learn to deal with this situation at some point as I can’t avoid every situation where alcohol is involved.
Fingers crossed this doesn’t set me back, hope everyone has a great day
