What a wonderful post to wake up to. Thank you!
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Good morning all. Checking in on day 724. Been a rough few weeks at work but had last night off. Unfortunately was not able to catch up on any sleep as of yet, but that will come. Wife is very excited that she is starting to show now, and feel the little kicks. Been slowly getting the nursery together and a few Hogwarts items Iām sneaking into it! Very excited and nervous still as itās approaching fast! Hope everyone stays safe and take care!
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Having a chuckle about it now, which is a good sign 
ā¦its a great way to guage situations you find are challengingā¦like will this be laughable in the future? Son is awake and in great spirits, eyes a bit puffy but says the ouchie is all gone.
We are in a reallg beautiful spot, a new spot on a little family adventure and some days are rpugh and tough, for the kids and me I always say after a not so great time or if its by bedtime and we abput to go to bed ālets try that againā or ātomorrows a new day, and weāll try a little differently. You try X, and even mama will try Yāā¦it wasnt intentional that concept be connected to my teachings in AA or anything greater, but I just love the idea that hey today wasng the greatest bit you know what. Tomorrow can be different. Xo.
It sounds like you have had a wonderful, busy day but also like it took a lot out of you. I am sorry I am not sure of you mond me asking (only if you sharsd in previous post), the health challenge yoy have? Hope you are able to take some down time to rest your body, and take care of you. Sounds like though you had some great happiness with cousins. Xo.
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Morning guys checking in. One more day of work than off tomorrow to run one of the kids up to school. Hope you all have a great day 
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Iām proud of you too 
. Good work on finding a therapist, hope it will be a good fit for you. Wishing you all success.
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We are here. We all know the shit feeling of waking up day 0, added layer of pain when you are trying to quit.
When youre ready, share with us what happened, what triggered you - if you feel it would help. Just want to reach out and hug you. All is not lost. Xo.
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2.80 days clean and sober
Itāll be 3 days at 11:30
26.59 days no ciggs or vapes.
Iāve had one 2mg nic lossinge sence I woke up 2 hours ago
I keep buying them but I think itās more of a, I think I need them other then, I do need them
I have them for peace of mind I guess
4 hours Iāll have 3 days sober
I feel great about that
It will be a ok day if we let it
Iām off to work
Talk more soon
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Checking in this am, with an odd moment of peace and quiet as son and hubby are on the dock and daughter is still asleep. Usually up with 2 of 3 kids at 6am, and son and nephew are big noise makers. We hit the ground running in our house and you know what? Its tiring sometimes, but I try to cherish the stages of my kids bcā¦I can hardly carry my daughter anymore or nephew, soon they will be too bigā¦my son is no longer a baby, but a toddler and it goes on and on. They wont be small forever!
Greatful for this beautiful spot, a nice cup of coffee and the chance tp start another 24. Hope today the kids are a bit better, but you know what they human too - we in a new place, super excited, lots of packing driving unpackingā¦gotta set it up to win today. Wishing you all another beautiful 24, and if the day is rough hang in there my sister/brother and let it out here or with a friend xo.
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Youāre 21. They cannot take your phone away on Saturday or any day. And you have nothing to apologise for. Your uncle is a monster and Iām sorry he did that to you. It wasnāt your fault.
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2nd step is came to Believe not aware please dont quote steps if you havnt done them, and keep us posted on your journey wish you well
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Day 212.
Last night I had my first bout of alchohol cravings in months. My husband went out with mates and he was gone for a long while and all I could think of was going there to join them, get a few beers in me. I felt like I was missing out or something. I was also thinking about finding a late-night shop to go get a bottle of wine. I was so uncomfortable with myself and my surroundings and the thought of travelling back on Wednesday that I wanted a reprieve. An escape. I wanted to push that self-destruct button and forget everything.
But I didnāt. I distracted myself with work and chores. I did stay up late and woke up late. I am a bit depressed. Iām not ok. Not in the slightest. But Iām sober. And thatās enough.
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Me, too!! Congratulations Dana!!
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Days PMO free: Day 11
Days with PS5 in the closet to close the day: 19
Days went to bed the same time with my wife: 19
Great week, surrounded by family and friends. Integrity, selfless behavior, and good time management also this weekend(THE RARE TRIFECTA FOR ME). Not sure if iāve had all 3 of those things over the course of a weekend but iāll take it. Itās not just about keeping my safeguards up, (which is critically important for being sober). I see that iām committed to doing the daily work and thatās encouraging. No compromising, not one look, not one wandering thoughtā¦completely safeguarding my mind. I got up this morning and i just feel so grateful. Iām so grateful this morning. Had my nephews and nieces together last night, with my mother, sister, mother-in-law and wife all having a good time. Just looking at all of that, despite the ups/downs that everyone has, iām so thankful and blessed. Itās also a reminder:
āYou dont need to lose it to know that you had it good.ā - John Mayer.
Just remember how fortunate i am to be where i am, despite my self sabotage tendences, iām still standing, iām still here. And iām still battling every day.
My gaming addiction: Iām not cured, but iāve kept the playstation in the closet for all of 2 hours in the past 2 weeks. I havenāt done anything close to this level of control in my entire life and iām 42 years old.
My goal: Plan my days, watch out for my ādefault settingsā trying to dominate me, focus on how i spend my time, eat plenty of protein a day (180g my goal) swim 3 times this week(M/W/F) Weight train 3 days (simple circuit training, dont go crazy) Read my bible daily at least 1 chapter with meditation.
And above allā¦just keep swimming.
Good morning/Good afternoon/Good evening all!
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My kind of day ā especially on a Sunday. Glad to see you here with us checking in 
@zzz Congrats on your 30 days ā grateful that the journey has not been to difficult for you. Keep doing what you are doing!
@sabrina80 ooh ā I hate getting sucked into the online hole especially at bed time. Sending you energy to deal with today. Hoping itās a quick Monday!
@mrsodh Yeah ā first day of school ā hope you are having a wonderful day. Looked fabulous as always.
@juli1 So great to see you Jules ā here is to a wonderful sober day! Happy Monday!!
@scorpn my goodness that sounds stressful. I do hope you were able to get some rest and wake up refreshed. Hopefully some days off in your near future also.
@brian1965uk WOW ā well done on your 9 months my friend ā that is absolutely amazing. Keep up the great work!
@just_laura my goodness the weekend sounds insane. Grateful that you do have a good friend at work. I do hope things get easier for you with your new manage. I have not noticed the music but that does sound lovely.
@rainy7 LOVE IT! So amazing how we do really change our moods from hour to hour ā just keep that in mind when the urges or FOMO hits cause you know the feeling will pass. Glad you had a wonderful time out
@starlight14 Love the number and seeing your girls beautiful face! Have a wonderful day my friend
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@sobermedic I totally understand this feeling ā I get them once in a blue moon out of the blue ā glad that we donāt give it time to fester and are able to brush them off. Well done on your 79 days
I love this Mulan- good for you! Love that you are opening up and setting yourself free. Thank you for being a part of this community and on this journey with us. Wishing you loads of love and comfort!
@mira_d I am glad to hear that the ouchie is gone. Love the concept of always being able to do it differently the next day. I am dealing with multiple things and still trying to figure out what most of them are (some testing scheduled in the next couple of months) the main issues are a constant headache, pain all over, excessive swelling and itching and CF. some days are easier than others. Lovely that you were able to wake up and enjoy some peace and quiet ā hope that coffee tasted extra good!
Oh love ā I am sorry! What an awful sensation ā glad that you did not give in and yes just being sober is enough but I do want you to feel ok (actually better than ok). Big hugs Amy ā I do hope you are able to talk these feelings out irl or here so that you donāt give them ammunition. Much love my friend.
@CueBall8n9 how is the new job treating you?
Checking in on Monday morningā¦
a bit of a rough morning but the coffee is helping with the waking up part at least. I am going to do my best to get ready and spend a chill afternoon with my cousins today. i do hope it doesnāt get too hot outside as i really canāt handle that - one moment at a time. I am wishing you all a wonderful positively charged addiction free day - sending much love! 
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I think all this are good things. Giving it a try. And I think I already wrote it several times. I love love love my womens Kreuzbund meeting once a month. I need to go by train 1h but I will keep going. 
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Checking in for day 21 AF.
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Day 51. Off today, feel really in need of quiet time. I am listening to my self when it is telling me to just slow down.
Not the best use of annual leave but i am being more honest with myself
Got a nice week ahead. Day 51 is really just another day One, Taking every day as day one
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I wanted to just reach out and hug you, because that family stuff all sounds very toxic. It can be hard lovinf people who do not know how to love or love in a harmful way and way that hurts you. I have been on a lifelong journey with my own family and issues of dysfunction (and me thinking it was all sooooo normal), and even now at 36 I am going through another upheaval and the whole of my dads side of family will not speak to me. Truth be told, we were a limited family in quotation marks and my sister was treated very badly by them - after she died and watching her death be used and mistreatment of her son, I did not hold back my words or engage in my usual āacceptanceā of other and quiet boundaries. My parents are separated, and I have had these talks with my mom (we have been FAMILY and we speak a lot more, and it was difficult but these talks have been ongoing), but I had never spoken to my dad about anything before - never. I was only prepared to address things with him, and it was a big deal and someone within the family wrnt through his phone and read his messages and now I have been cut out. I know a part of me is sad, but a part of me feels this was a long time in tbe making and I do not want people in my lofe who are not healthy, who I cannot trust and who I do not trust to not hurt mg children or my nephew (part of the issue I brought up).
Anyway, i did not mean to make this about me but I remember what it was like to be 21 and loving my family despite how much they hurt me. I never imagined saying goodbye to any of them (though after sharing stories with others in private sober/therapeutic spaces, it has come up that perhaps it would be best). My mom and dad both came to my daughters birthday and stayed the weekend, and there may be a lot of problems there BUT they both love me. They both were willing to hear me out and hear out my pain in how growing up effected me (were the convos always smoothā¦no, but they are human too), and I can see how they both are trying. The rest of my āfamilyā from my dads side cut me out just like that (and my messages to my dad were just me recollecting instances of issues or talking about current issues around my nephew, no name calling or being vileā¦I mean I would have worded it differently if I knew it was going to be a family news bulletin, but I know no matter how I worded it addressing the wrong of this other person or persons was never acceptable. They are never wrong and never apologize, and my sister and myself have been stonewalled out of the family several timesā¦one time simply because she got pregnantā¦at the age of like 26ā¦it was terrible and horrible, and she never got over the pain of beinf abandoned by her family and so deeply jusged during a time she was so happy to become a momā¦)
You should not have to apologize to anyone. You are being made to be shamed and tbe black sheep. You should not be in your uncles presence at all, and the fact thar you are is harminf you and your trust of what is supposed to be your family. Im sorry that I rambled. Xo.
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Checking in on day 1. Itās been a long time since Iāve been on here.
Getting through the day sober wonāt be a problem, but getting through the hangover feels impossible. I had a major binge last night, and I am so, so, sick today. Currently running on three hours sleep because I was up all night with extreme anxiety. Now I have started puking.
I canāt keep doing this to myself. I wonāt keep doing this to myself.
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